what about me.
06:15
Wednesday, May 31, 2006
MORNING
I think people are going to say me crazy cos rite now,early in the morning eating breakfast and sit in front of the computer....haha...i m a morning person so can't do anything...i m going to school later on for classes...
after some talk with all my sis n mum,my eldest sis suggested that y not we go to australia at the end of this year after my o'levels....so we need to save money...recently,my sis just came back from australia,melbourne....she went there with her family....she got a friend who migrate to australia so she went there to visit her n stay over....ten my bro-in-law fren also migrate,my sis told me that he drove all the way from sydney to melbourne to see them...crazy!!...they said going there is worth it...maybe i should reconsider bout it...haha...should start saving money....
aniwae enough bout holiday wen i have not even cross the border of o'levels....things have been happening around for quite sometimes,i noe bout it but just prefer to give the face of "i don't know"...its pple business so i don't like to butt in....at this point where i m standing rite now,i start to look back in the past n it felt funny and weird....time really flies....the pple around me are all more shocking to see....it seems that they r changing quite a lot...wen i was a kid,i used to have this thing on mind where i don't want pple to change...but definitely it will neva happen...as time flies i learned that everything change for the better or worse and it always happen for a reason....the thick n thin i went through really hit hard on me...feeling lonely??..erm yup sort of but i can't just blame n keep complaining....i just move on acting as if there was no lonely feelings exist..its easy for me to get over the feelings i had cos the things that i've seen in front of my eyes tells me that brooding over all the things is not really a good idea...i admit that i do felt angry n i m even supressing myself to an extent just for me to get on with life...but wat is life???....the answer is obvious enough.....living in the world full of emotions....don't u ever realise that wen the person u hate most goes out from this world,ten u will realise the emptiness in this world...i was wondering y didn't god make this world an everlasting world where pple won't die...but i think its a childish thinking....everything will have an end....
SELF-REFLECTION???...Haha...maybe....
20:12
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
TIREDToday i woke up slightly late...and i was suppose to wake my bro up...luckily he is not mad with me...before bathing,i cooked for me n my bro breakfast.....at 7.20 i leave the house to go to school...when i went for the supplementary class only 3 student turned up and it is 7.51..the lesson started at 8 n there were a few only...omg...after that a few came after the first class have started a few minutes.....i think my brain is kind of slow today cos wen i was doing geometry,it took me a while to solve the problem..frthermore geometry is my favourite topic....ten my math t'cher gave us some wksht to do over the "holidays"...i did 3/4 of the paper but its kind of bad for me cos at this point of time i should noe how to do n need not to infer anymore....betta get my brains moving...after that need to do sbq qns before the next ss question...today i found out that our physic t'cher cancel his remedial for tommorow n thursday....i was just looking forward for his lesson...looking forward for his lame jokes...haha....dissapointed but aniwae i have not review n recap back the chp that he had teached us....
tommorow there is only chem class so i will wake up a bit late as the class will only start at 9.30....some of the malay gals are already planning not to go for the class tommorow....they can't understand what the t'cher is teaching since the starting of the year up till now...maybe they should try to understand themselve what they don't know n should ask the t'cher personally...i exprienced it before but the t'cher teachin is not enough,they need to go back to recap n understand what is the t'cher trying to teach....sometimes i don't like to blame my classmates cos i enjoy being with them...but at the same time,fun is fun and study is study...its different stuff....i m also not that perfect in studies but i do try to work on my weakness on it....make an initiative,i just can't lay my ass there n wait for the t'cher....so wat if we pay the school fees,it doesn't even cover the extra effort n classes the t'cher have made for us.....the lesser u pay,the lesser u get...its like wen u sick n u go to polyclinic......its cheaper n the service u get alsoo is poor...u need to wait for a long time just to see the doctor...the medicine is not that effective although u took it n u need to take care of urself....lesson to be learnt is initiative is needed in everything we do....just hoping for the good for my classmates.....
well gotta go....i think i have enough of this,i need to do my revision....
20:26
Monday, May 29, 2006
MOST PAINFUL STOMACH CRAMPtoday was sucks...at home do house chores after that lie down on the sofa...my stomach was in pain...the pain lasted for two hours...omg..i can't stand it...yesterday went to my first sis house n ate a korean steamboat...it was damn nice....but ten i need to go to causeway point to buy some of the missing ingredients and my niece milk powder...i was like reluctant to go but can't bare to do that to my eldest sis..go to causewaypoint saw a lot of suai-ge..hehe...ten went back to my sis house...went alone and go back alone.....such a loner...aniwae i don't mind she lives at admiralty so its not that far...going to my sis house was such a fun...i entertained my niece..play with her...she is such a cutie...she like to hit my butt a lot...so naughty but i like her...haha....the pic that i put at my extra is my niece,the one i talk bout rite now....but after antertain her for quite a while i was exhausted....but she kept asking me to play with her,so i did...but wen its time to go back,i kind of don't want to go back cos i will only get to see her once or twice in a month.....my sis mother-in-law take care of her so its kind of hard for me to see her....okay...enough bout her...aniwae tommorow there are classes..it will finish at 11.30 maybe....i check my june timetable today and i realise that art classes are in the second week and its everyday...i m sure going to die cos i haven't finish my layout....i promise my t'cher that i will finish the layout but i haven't even touch my art stuff since the last art lesson....betta get my hands moving...oh ya...yesterday wen i was on the mrt on my way back home,i saw this kid...she was curling herself on the MRT pole...u noe like the pole dance thingy...haha...i was looking at her frm far and i laugh cos i think i did that wen i was a kid....today i dreamt of something nice...hehe...but too bad my mum yelling at me stop the dream rite away....i was damn fed-up with my mum,she didn't cook ten she nag a lot wen i did nothing wrong....me with my stomach cramp...i just feel like shouting at her but she's my mum and i can't do that...just have to bare with it...the only thing i ate today was a fish fillet burger for breakfast and didn't eat until 7.30 pm....i was so hungry so i went to limbang ntuc and buy something to cook...i can't blame my mum for not cooking cos she tired after working...but ten she should noe tat since today i m not schooling and my bro not working all the more she should cook....haiz*sigh*
22:39
Saturday, May 27, 2006
boringtoday was damn boring.....i slept at 1 am yesterday watching some drama serial on the internet...woke up at 10...quickly comb & tie my hair after tat went to the balcony n took the broom...every weekend i need to tidy up the house...me n my sis need to sweep n mop the floor, wash our room toilet,tidy up the kitchen n many more....its part of the discipline in my house for the gals to do it...since both my sis are married left me n my twin sis to do the house chores...its not that tiring but its fun...me n my sis will share the chores but sometimes she didn't do it...so left me to do it....aniwae after doing the house chores, i went to bath...after tat have my lunch...it was so damn boring at home...i though of foing to my first sis house to entertain my niece cos she is the only child so she have no friends with her...i was too lazy to get outta house...i spent the half of the day watching korean vcd which i brought a long time ago...watch it again...after that keep signing in and out of msn....play online games,hear music...
aniwae i think tommorow i wanna go jogging...i m so bored n i need to shed off some weight...i think i betta go in the morning...the main problem is whether i can wake up or not...hmm....mybe i should go in the afternoon it is much better but in the afternoon i want to go to my sis house...aiyoh!!!(+_+)..i think i need to plan those things...i need to study too....especially physics and maths...i have not been touching my five year series for the past two weeks....i m doom!!!...i m slack all the way...its time for me to discipline myself and manage time.....next term wen the skool re-opens, could be the start of nite classes....i hate nite classes....i think i need to bare with it...the only thing i can remember wen i m miss all my favourite show and stressing over skool work is MR.PNG phrase.."its a temporary loss but permanent gain"..its damn true....haha...aniwae on monday my classmates and some of my frens are all taking their mt o'level,hope they will do well...DO YOUR BEST guys!!!!!!
sometimes i want to write my feelings in the blog but i m afraid that it will create misunderstanding...it would be better if i jus keep it to myself...rite now i enjoy every bit n pieces of my life...it seems that there are few things going around me but i just don't wish to give care and concern bout it bcos it doesn't concern me,it concern to a person whom i know...am i inhumane??..wateva it is....i jus pray that they are fine and will not do anything that is foolish...life is only once...
16:42
Friday, May 26, 2006
FUN
Today was damn fun...me n my frens who were not taking the mock exams were playing UNO cards...with that cards we played blaugh game,snap and murderer...it was damn fun especially the snap game...we played snap after recess till dismissal time....BUT we didn't finish playing it!!!...i think we were those people who were making a lot of noise in the library....haha...i enjoyed playing with those frens...there was only one boy among us...but he was quite sociable...
ten went back home...the 307 bus was damn crowded..ten sec.4 boy from my skool,who always takes the bus with me sleep in the bus...hmm...he must be exhausted after the mock axams... .after that went to YEW TEE...go n pay my father fines...transfer funds...after tat went to NTUC..after my sis paid her stuff,we went out of the NTUC...ten on our way out,one of the cashier call this sec boy.."ah boy!ah boy!" bcos he forget to take his stuff after paying it....that boy still can happily walk his way out...he can't listen to the cashier cos his pair of ear was stuck with the ear phone...i asked my fren to call him...ten my fren called him n said..."ur stuff" and show the sign of plastic bag...i wonder if he heard it...ten wen he turned and walk back inside he said "oh shit!!"...i laughed at him..i think he knew...how can he forget about his stuff after he paid it.... 
today i bring over me n my sis only old-timer bestfren...we have not seen each other for half a year...she went over to my house...we had a lot of things to catch up...still critisicing each other with funny jokes...haha....she have changed a lot but our friedship did not even change for once....today i find out thatthe truth is always cruel...mostly but exceptionally for some....
for the past few days i am really sick...sorethroat develop into cough...my body aches nearing to a fever but i ate panadol before it happen...lucky me...i slept a lot this few daes....wat can i say...afterall i m gearing up for the june holidays supplementary...sad to say there are classes thru out the holiday for a month...there is only one rest dAy which is on the fourth week of june on thursday...that is the only day...NO COMPLAINTS!!!!..."no pain, no gain"....
i just feel like playing the snap game thingy.....haha...k,peace out...gtg....
18:31
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
FREEZING,
hell!!!...the past two weeks the sec 4E And 5N are having their MT mock exams and since i have took my o'level mt last year,me n my frens who have took it went to the com lab cos we r given a task to do which is 4 SEQ qns...so guys don't complain too much...we also did some work...we r in the com lab for two days almost 3/4 of each day...it was freezing...ten today raining so its extra cold...wen i was doin my seq qns on the online server of the school,my fingers was so slow at typing...my nails started to change its colour from pink to purple...after finishing it i study my chem cos got some kind of exam on it....8 chapters!!!!i studied but didn't study really well...i forget my avagrado's no. on mole calculation...DARN!!!...n i should trust my first instinct....back to the com. lab story...i study for a while then i slept..so tired...these days i've been sleeping late...but ten wen i slept for few mins,i jerked...haha...i laughed to myself...aniwae after stressing up over chem i need to work on my art and revise my physics n chem...it still not over yet!!!...its only bits of the battle....a lot of pple didn't go for chem exams...i think my classmates are complaining too much...they say the mt o'level exam is coming so need to study a lot...omg i think they r wrong in a way...every subject is important...wen i was in sec.4 i took my o'level mt too...i had a hard time juggling it cos after the mock exams the 4E 5N went back home while the n.a pple go join back their class...it was so tiring...everyday i rushed a lot cos i got alot of homework n at the same time i still took my n'level....my remedial always clash with mt supplementary...i think my classmates must think positively...everybody is tired but they need to endure....aniwae they noe themselves well enough so they should noe wat they r doin...SHOUT OUTS TO MY CLASSMATES n FRENS!!!!....do not give up,failure is the key to success.....PERSEVERE!!!!oh ya just now i saw a phrase that says ''it took a short time to break someone heart but it will took a lifetime to heal it''...although its quite mushy, i am still thinking bout this phrase...k chaoz....i need to help my mum out...
23:01
Friday, May 19, 2006
emotions
nowdaes i found that i have been thinking bout myself alot ten b4....laughter of mine have become so lonely...i even hardly find the laughter in school and it have been so fake....its not even a pure laugh at all...instead the laughter feels like a cry.....i just can't express it with words....life is just too short just to think bout myself....i just don't like to blame my life....it all depend on us of how it is gonna be.....we noe ourself better ten others....NEVA EVA COMPLAIN ABOUT LIFE!!!....thats the thing i always live by....if there were mistakes that i had done,i won't dwell on it...just correct it and look at the bright side of life....sometimes it may be hard but if i don't try wen can i move on??....these life thingy all depends on me....i am sucks at expressing myself....aniwae i decided to keep things to myself...if i tell others,pple will be hurt...tat's y we need to be discreet at times....sometimes u don't feel the pinch wen u say something tat u think is rite but wen u feel the pinch,u will be hurt.....furthermore wen the things that have been said really have a deep impact in our life.....
sometimes i just don't understand why humans are so greedy....as a human,i admit tat i am greedy in a way or other...the things that they have now is not enough thus,they even want more....they are not even grateful at all....wen things are not on their side they always complain but neva try to accomodate to it...there are no such things as perfect human in this world..have they ever think that there are some even worst ten them??..even though some human are happy now,still the happiness came from hardship...NO PAIN,NO GAIN!!!!
i think i have talk way too much.....k gtg...gotta revise my chem....aniwae to those pple who are goin to take their mt o'level very soon, all the best and good luck!! 
19:30
Sunday, May 14, 2006
love ya <3i am sick...neva been this sick...i am not in a good mood anyway who cares...as long there are nobody to disturb me,it's ok....i think i have come to a conclusion...there was once i said to u..i said that i only consider you as a close fren but not my best fren....maybe i felt i noe wat is goin to happen tats y i did not said those words...aniwae let bygone be bygone....today is mothers day but my mother is not ho0me...she went to help my uncle n auntie....we had celebrated mother day in advance....me n my sis didn't buy anything for her but we cook for her...to us,its the thoughts that counts...we felt tat we did not need anything that cost money to give it to her....our time we spent together is enough to make her happy....the things that my mum done for our family,we will always remember...the things that u have done for us since we r small,we cannot repay it back even with a huge sum of money....i am grateful to have a mother...there was once that my mother fell down and bleed.....i didn't saw it bcos tat time she fetch my nieces from school...wen i went back n heard tat from my niece,i was damn worried....i went to her n asked her if she was okay...tat incident really showed me something....i felt very hurt,deep in my heart...it was like her wound that bleeded profusely....the feeling was unusual....i secretly cried in the bathroom after i asked her.....i asked myself,if one day she would be gone,how would i continue my life...it would be a great pain till the day comes....tats'y,i studied hard to made my parents proud of me...seeing all my sister leading their life...they did not have any high qualification so now its me n my twin sis turn to made them proud of their children.... tat's the reason i study very hard...it is for my parents n my future benefits...its not bout being studious....i go to school,they pay for my school fees with their hard earned money...it would be wasteful if the money they paid for my school fees just go down the drain....i am schooling and i can't repay them financially but this is the least i can do....
aniwae happy mothers day ...the sacrifices that u made for us is big tat money could not repay it....even though u hit me quite a lot n nag to me,i don't care bout it but i just wana thank u for raising me up n making me for who i am now....love ya....
19:37
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
19:12
Monday, May 08, 2006
Just now,during lunch,me & my friends were having lunch......when we had finished our lunch,we were waiting for 3.30 pm for english remedial cos there wasn't any malay remedial.....then!!!came our english t'cher,mr png....he was also having his lunch so he sat with us....as he was eating,he asked me n my fren a lot of qns....about my target,wat do i do wen i got back from skool.....the qns bout goin where after finish my secondary skool was a big question mark??????suddenly i blurt out tat i want to go to jc.....OMG!!!am i crazy???...actually i do want to go jc but base on my frens view bout it makes me not want to go there.....i am so fickle minded,i felt tat half of me wana go jc but the other half of me wana go poly.....maybe its time to think bout my future n my aims b4 its too late.....theres a say,"fail to plan,plan to fail".....i m goin crazy over this!!!!...aniwae,i had so much fun in skool especially during geo lessons....K,I FIND THIS THINGY IS FUNNY N I M SHARING IT WITH U!!
06:48
aloha....my blog is not ready yet for the moment sorry for that....just need more time cos it takes time for me to do this,so be patient.....hehe......some of the things yet to be edited....
