what about me.
13:52
Saturday, August 26, 2006
let me start my entry with yesterday...yesterday i skipped art remedial and went back home.I was totally tired after the 3.5 km run during P.E. I think i am getting the stamina and i am stopping less than i ever do during run...Yi Jie was the motivator,each time i stop,he will tap my shoulder and i would ran along with him.I was happy for him that he is very determine to lose weight by running all the way during P.E unlike some pple,they cheat their way just to reach the school early and rest...haha...maybe this pple are just lazy,well can't denied,i m lazy too but i did not cheat.Sometimes its really not fair,why do pple have to suffer to get the good things while the lazy pple cheat and get the same good thing.In order to achieve something in life,u need to work ur way thru but not by cheating.How bout putting urself in the shoe?for example,yesterday 3.5 km run,some of them run like dogs in order to reach the finishing point which was the school while those cheaters walk and ran a bit and all of a sudden they reach the school first.Those who are running are short of breath and suffering while those cheaters sat on the bench and shook their leg.In life,cheaters would never be able to stand tall forever.At this kind of age,integrity is really important wothout it,things will never work out.Well,i am not trying to tell those friends of mine that they are bunch of cheaters but i just want them to think bout those things and what they really did going to benefits them more than losing?...
okay enough,yesteday,i help my mum out,fetched my nieces from school,give them a treat at mcdonalds cause my mum didn't cook so i thought i used the monay that i have save for the few weeks to give them a treat,go back....help tham with their hmwk....bring them to play at the park...get back at round 6 and bath them....Obviously,i m quite tired!!!!i got their pics taken...i also take some pics for my sis class when they had a frisbee game...
for my nieces pics,i will update it next time cause the photobucket is so troublesome....those friends of my sis is so friendly especially xiao tian...
the frisbee gals..
frisbee gang...
anyway,today i need to do all my hmwk and study a bit...luckily this weekend i have a few hmwk and i need to work on my art prep work cause the submission to MOE is next week....later on,i need to go to the hospital and visit my cute grandfather..i m pretty busy right now cause currently i m trying to do something for t'chers day with umairah hoping it to be the memorable presnt from us...Ms ow is so demanding,she wanted something to be frame...so i decide that we bought a A3 frame and take all the art students pics and there's a pic of her in the middle of the frame...
oh ya,before i forget,yesterday i was sitting all alone myself and my mother was asking me what date was it?...i said 25 august and something comes to my mind.....its someone birthday...just don't ask me who okay...i just want to wish that person happy birthday and its been quite a long time!!!...haha =p
16:19
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
O.V.E.R.....english oral is over and now i can put my mind at ease...the examiner was a caucassian man and a malay woman.The man was quite friendly and we do laugh too bout the thing i said...today marks the end of oral test in my life but i will have one more if i m taking A'level...currently not sure where to go but definitely i want to continue studying as much as possible to the highest peak where i can reach.I was quite satisfied by the picturs description cause i managed to identify the man in the pic which was one of MPs in s'pore.Now,i can eat and sleep paecefully without worrying anything before the O'level papers are coming up.I am totally hungry right now cause i have not been eating and sleep well due to the worries i have bout oral.For a day,i would at least eat one meal and skip the others.Waking up in the morning is not a pblem but i have been sleeping late due to loads of hmwk.Next week is t'chers day and how i wish that Mr Charles Png is there so i can thanks him for the encouragement thru his lifestories that he shared with us and push us when we are bout to give up. I am wearing a smile right now while writing bout him = )
oh ya!!!any of u guys watched the NATONAL DAY RALLY?i think the young pple should watch it cause its really bout knowing your country progress..I have to admit i m ashamed as a citizen of s'pore cause i m not patriotic and contributing enough while the permanent resident can.For example,this guy was born somewhere outside of the country and he choose to be PR of s'pore.i think he got a scholarship in s'pore or something and he donates a partial of his salary every moth or year to the NUS...it was something like that but he is really a role model for the citizens...its a must watch!!,young pple are so ignorant and feigning ignorance and i do admit too.They are not aware of what happening and it really shows how small their world is.
today i need to do my physics mock paper,physics practical graph,maths tys(soo many qns!!!)....need to study for ss test...headache!!!!
i guess i got to go now,i have not take my lunch and currently trying to finish my hmwk...JA MATA NE!!!
signing out and hope u guys have a great day ahead!!
13:29
Sunday, August 20, 2006
A lie, it's all a lie, those words that time will make me forget you are a lie. The pain from the seperation has surpressed my heart a little but my feelings for you are ever the same.
I never thought it'd be easy but
even though a lot of time passes
It's still awkward without you here.
I still love you and I still want you.
I won't ever be okay without you.
Even if I seem attached, this is me, I didn't even know.
You're all I long for.
A lie, that was a like, those words that
I've already forgotten you are a lie.
I just said those words because
I thought I'd look pathetic and because of my trifiling pride.
I've never once forgotten you.
When I think about a bad habit I've started
I try and forget but I still you miss you
I still love you and I still want you.
I won't ever be okay without you.
Even if I seem attached, this is me, I didn't even know.
You're all I long for.
I've never stopped loving you.
My feelings for you have never changed.
No my heart keeps growing like my love for you.
I just try and keep still the moments when we were happily together.
You had a hard time in my embrace
and it's not until after I've let you go can I think and see clearly.
But I love you everyday
I'm still waiting for you like I've always done
See you once again, my love
this song is called unforgettable,its the song that i had put on one of the blog entries and u can hear it from the video that i put up here...i m currently feeling very scared bout the o' level oral thingy which is this tuesday!!!...it feels as if my heart is in my mouth....
14:49
Friday, August 18, 2006
Irene,u told me before that u wrote stories but anyway i bet u don't remember...anyway,i have a fun day today cause today P.E(physical education)lesson i had a few games of badminton with those boys from 5/1 and they are quite a good player and my team won furthermore its like the yellow house vs red house cause ayie and me is in yellow house while the others are red...they like to smack when they play but the thing is fadzly tried but he kept missing his shot....For Eugene,he was just trying to learn to sharpen his skills but he is quite good for beginner.He and fadzly make a good team mate cause they kept blaming each other...haha....actually i was supposed to play with des but then suddenly i saw julian came and approach her so i thought let him play while i just sat down and see...i kind of felt left out but i don't mind cause i get to play the others such as isa and zaifi,they are so good....anyway the reason is my skills are sucks when i play with des and she was kind of not enjoying it.
today chemistry practical was sucks,i forget how to describe the solution and many of them sorta of clumsy including me not knowing what to do next and kept asking.Its not that i don't want to help but they should at least listen and remember what to do.If u put my situation in your shoe,u should know how it felt.I will help unless u really really don't understand although u listen to her.I should be worrying bout describing those solution.ms chow is kind of upset bout our class,the practicals are just few weeks and we are not taking it seroiusly.For my prep work,i have a lot to do especially the development.Today,after a serious thought,i think i have just to swallow things that bitterness and grudge when i am developing one.Its just better to keep quite and have confidence in myself.
18:37
Thursday, August 17, 2006
today was a normal day but its special cause all the graduating class are having photo taking session which means my class is one of them..Miss chow was so funny,she was acting like as if its her first time taking a class photo....she asked one of the photographer if she can stand for the formal shots...omg!!!ms chow!!!...but i m glad that she was just acting...she is really a good teacher and she have been teaching our class in chemistry for 3 consecutive years and now she is our form teacher...she's cool,funky,sporting and always try to reach out for the students when they are having trouble but it always turned out that students don't appreciate her help...the message i m trying to get at is to cherish her because she is one of a kind and she is doing her best to help each of us.PLS appreciate her!!!...i am missing my former form teacher who is currently going for her maternity leave...she is so funny and how i wish i will have the two of them as my form t'cher..
anyway,i just came back from school...i was supposed to go back home at 4 but i have english oral practice so have to sacrifice my time...it was enjoyable practising with our new eng t'cher,talking bout her going to orchard raod every week....anyway,my english oral is on the upcoming tuesday,its definitely goin to be nerve wrecking!!!!
Enough bout school...now i want say something to my long distance friends!!!how are you???...if u are reading this,pls do tag me or drop a msg on my tagboard so that i know that u have read...i understand that u are missing me and so do i cause its been a long time since we keep in touch with each other..i apologize for that but don't worry i will keep in touch with u again once my exams is over...how bout i asked jaejong to accompany u while i am away???...haha...i was just joking,how can i possibly bring him to u??but i can put a pic of him.HERE U GO!!
and....i hurt myself,the hot oil splattered and burnt part of my hand...it was damn painful...at first,the wound was flat but the day after,it expand like a ball with water inside it...it was such an unpleasant thing to see so i burst that thingy and peel of my skin and wash the wound...this time it was extra painful!!!i peel off the skin cause if i don't do so,the dead skin will be growing with the new skin and it will leave a mark like the mark that i had at my elbow from a hot oven 
i think i need to be careful with myself in the kitchen!!
btw,i manage to snap those moments in my class where it was raining that day and the rain kind of floods and splatter into our classroom....the cause of this pblem is the windows,its not the type of window where we can totally close it,it is the window pane type...the boys went to take recycle newspaper although it was useless as they were still puddle of waters in the class after raining,it did help in a way or other...here it goes...
it looks like spiderman isnt'it?
see,this boys are showing off their butts...haha...jk...
for des,hey i hope the relief t'cher whom we are currently attracted to is not going to leave so soon,he is cute isn't he!!!!btw on saturday my school will be having a family day and there will be food and fun-fair.....meaning that i can't sleep for long hours again!!! (T_T)...k,gtg!!!
btw to geshy,happy 17th belated birthday hope u will have a smooth sailing life in future to come!!!
16:37
Monday, August 14, 2006
monday blues....
today,is the first time i skip class for eng n chem...i felt guilty skipping it but can't help it cause i have a painful menstrual cramp..anyway,i bet the t'chers will trust me cause they knew that i am not the type who skip classes and lie my way through....it was so painful that i felt like crawling...today isn't that great cause i was totally sleepy during maths for 1 hr but for another half and hour i was totally awake....mrs tan keep giving us hmwk and i know its for our own good so we can start our revision...i am not complaining bout it but i am tired....although i skip class today,i went back and did my maths and geo hmwk...i didn't take a rest.... this whole stretch of week is fill with class test...tmrw,geo test....the following day,chp 4 n 5 of social studies....on friday maths test...sian ar!!!!...k,i m in pain...i m pressurizing myself a lot cause i can't just leave things like that and not thinking bout it once i knew bout it ...i was born and was taught to take responsibility of the things i did....
19:43
Friday, August 11, 2006
Today is D-DAY where everybody have been anticipating for,its the result for mt o'level....only one of my classmates got an A2,she must be over the moon and i should say congratulations...she deserve it cause she have been working hard for it...for those who didn't get a distinction,work hard for the end of the year and try ur best....for me,i took it last year and i don't want to take it anymore cause its very tiring..i'm not trying to get sympathy here but last year i think i had done my best...at the same time of the year,i was also handling n'level and it was TOTALLY EXHAUSTING...i got b4 for my mid-yr and b3 for end of year,i guess i really had tried my best so i didn't take it again...i want to concentrate on other subject that i am weak at and brush up other subjects...no use crying over spilt milk,all i need is to move on and try my best in whatever i do..today its an eye-opener cause there was some crying in tears joy,crying in disappointment and jump for joy...i can roughly predict what is the feeling going to be when all of us going to take our o'level result next year...so betta start mugging!!!!!!i am starting although its abit late....
anyway today during P.E we played badminton...i played with fardhan then after that 2 vs 2 followed by soniah and des...we kept rotating partners and i was name as a flies smackers!!!!....but it was enjoyable...fardhan is such a cheater bug as he kept the winning scores to his team and not us.....i had a lot of fun....then today after school went back home and ate my lunch and back to school for art remedial...yeah!!!i finished my painting and i just need to do my prep work....i was totally hungry after the art remedial and decide to meet my sis and eat dinner....i went out at 5 and then while i was waiting for the bus and my sis msg,i got a big surprise!!!SURPRISE!!SURPRISE!!!...i saw syamiel,luckily he didn't see me...i was like what on earth he is doing here taking 190 that heads to lot1??cause he lives in BP from what i know...as if i care,that was so long time ago and i was so childish at that point of time....
when i went to lot1 i went to popular and asked my sis to bought me a black marker cause she lose my marker...serve her right!!!...then we went to foodculture and ate bibimbap,its a korean traditional mix rice which contains bean sprout,cucumber,carrot,kelps,egg and beef....it serve with kimchi(korean pickles) ,anchovies and kelp soup....also a red paste that is use to mix the rice and other things that is mention above...it was damn good....luckily, my sis bought one and share cause we are so full when we ate half of the bowl...i think the serving of kimchi was not generous enough and the kelp soup was tasteless maybe they can put some ikan bilis cube inside it...hehe...here's a pic of it:
after eating,we walked home and while we were waiting for the traffic light to turn green between lot1 and condominium...surprise again!!!i saw him again inside the 307 bus heading towards lot1...why so suay today!!!!.....summary of today: great day and food...haha...man i got loads of hmwk....let me list it down
REVISION
ok that's all...tmrw got to fetch my niece from the dentist.....
09:49
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I really had a bad dream today and ended up sheding a tears after i woke up...i dream that i went to some opharnage home and saw my brother down there..it sounds stupid but i saw small babies that are so cute,i just can't hold back my tears...seeing the innocent kids left at the opharnage home..i quickly woke up...it may sound silly but sometimes that dreams do come true like the "dejavu"...it happens to me alot of time...yesterday,i tried doing my maths probability qns on tys and it sucks!!!.it is so irritating that i can't do some of the qns.in the end,i decided to watch japanese drama which is called strawberry on the shortcake.It was so good bout non-related bro and sis falling in love and that guy met the girl even before their father and mother get married to each other....the girl met the boy everytime that boy feels down and help him to be himself instead of having to "playact" in a role in his life....he will always said..."because of this moment.....i will never forget u".....how sweet...
recently,some thought have cross my mind and i remember back then when i was working with my bro-in law in a wedding function at shibuya makuhari senior high school,i remember this old man were saying to me how old am i and what i am doing currently...suddenly he said to me "study hard so that i have a better future....when theres no B there is no D"...up till now i can't find the link between B and D...i was quite confused but it have been 3 years now and i still remember it and always keep it in my mind...
ok i guess its time for me to go....c' ya...
19:55
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
today is the eve national day and i did have a good national day celebration in school...the graduating class were sitting at the back of parade square and in the end we ended up singing out along,waving our hands out in the air hand in hand...the kind of feeling is undescribable...i had a real fun...we took pics with t'chers...btw,the motivators for our school sucks!!!i don't think they are motivating us,the sec 4s and 5s...the t'cher that were very spontaneous and join us were ms rin,ms chow,mdm rosnah and mdm hayati..mdm hayati was our former form t'cher for 2 yrs while ms rin was our geog t'cher for two years too....the lower sec n esp the sec 3 was so boring....sitting down there and watching like a stone...some of them wanted to stand up and sing along but too bad!!!the song ended....haha....maybe they yet to understand the feelings the seniors have now cos we are graduating soon....mdm rosnah is goin' to give birth soon,supposedly if i am not wrong,she was supposed to go to for her maternity leaves but she came back....mdm rosnah is such a fun-loving t'cher and funny too....today is just a remarkable day of my life in secondary school...i bet some of them are experiencing the same feeling too...k peace ya!!!..oh ya....there is holiday too but its not fun cause i have load of hmwk (T_T)*sad*
09:55
Sunday, August 06, 2006
hmm...i just woke up from my sleep...its 9++ now going to 10 am soon...my parents is not at home cause they're helping my auntie catering so only me and my sis left at home...i SWEAR i am going to kill my BROTHER!!!he went to work and left his room in a mess....my mother had reminded me to clean up the house today morning which i am going to do very soon...he is adding up those mess,what the hell he is thinking???am i his maid???...i have not finish my homework esp maths...damn,theres a lot of hmwk....must finish paper 1,paper 2,probabilities wksht,oral thingy in addition with my physics revision...luckily i did my physics practical wksht yesterday and left those things to do...now,i m totally fed up with my bro,his friends that i know frm his sec school days have a driving license while my bro got nothing...he have register to the driving school but have not signed up for the lesson...i scold him bout it,my dad is getting old so might as well he take over the family car so its more convenient...he's so lazy bum,he use his free time to play games instead of going for the lesson....its national day soon...i think for the holiday i m going to do revision....i was wondering whether on thursday we are schooling or not???...okay,i need to tidy up the house before my mum call me and asked bout it...
20:57
Friday, August 04, 2006
okie dookie i m back....actually i just came back frm nite classes...mr tan night class was kind of fun...he is super hyper today...showing the third finger all...walao!!!!...that kind of t'cher is simply undescribable....we go thru tourism topics and joke around with each other...qi ming was kind of proud of himself that everybody feel like slapping him...even mr tan!!!...he said that too bad he can't slap students and asked we to slap qi ming for him...afterall,it was a joke...basically,we had alot of fun during the nite classes with him...we were dismissed at 7.30++ cause he wanted to go for "dry swim" but we have finish going thru all the qns except a qns left cause it need explaination and he will do it...btw only 10 pple were presents....before that,i have art remedial which we used the time to finish our painting and do our prep work...i just can't stand today cause i am TOTALLY EXHAUSTED MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY!!!!...everyday stay back for nite class...furthermore,yesterday there was a time practice paper for math paper 1,it last for 2 hrs...my brains was so tired that i can't really do half of the qns....with the loads of revision and hmwk making me more cranky these days...a day before,i was asking my friend what they have been doing that they said they are tired everyday when they have been skipping classes...i was soo irritated to hear the word TIRED when somebody is not doing anything...i didn't mean to offence anybody unless u really have a valid reason,that is accepted....now,let me define what does tired means in my dictionary....having to wake up at 5 a.m. ,cook breakfast,tidy up the house b4 going to school....go to school at 7.10 a.m. and only go back at 8 pm after night classes...reach home at 9,have a bath,do hmwk,revise,study for test and only sleeps at 12 at most after doin school work....the daily routine continues...furthermore,i have to take care of my nieces during the weekends and have to juggle my hmwk n revision...i have never ever complain that i am giving it up...i just envy those pple who skips remedial and have the luxury to spent time on what they want...sometimes of these busy schedule,i only eat during lunch and skip my dinner...sometimes i just want to skip those classes that i don't like with those friends but i can't cause i know i only had to suffer for a moment in order to have a smooth life in the future...although i m tired,i didn't even sleep in class....i really don't understand....sometimes i really go crzy to a certain extent that i woke up on saturday morning and thought there is school...STRESS!!! is the word but don't use that as an excuse...have u ever tried all ur best???do u think i look more tired than u do??...sometimes i really have their affair at heart but they seem to be ignoring...i don't like to see those pple that i've know and close to me got scolded and doing wrong things,it is also similar to see ur life crashing down...have u ever felt the pain where somebody that is closest to u got beaten but u can't do anything bout it???....i think u guys should decide what life u want in the future and walk towards it as soon as possible cause when ur vision is blur and not doing anything bout it,u will regret all ur life cause it lead u to the wrong path....u never know how it feels untill u experience it!!!it seems that i've been ranting and ranting alot cause i want them to lead a good life as its not too late...o'level eng oral is coming soon,my slot will be on the 22 of august....need to practice!!!btw mr png have leave the school,i am quite upset cause he leave all of a sudden and he should at least teach till we take our o'lvel...anyway,he was replace by mdm prema...she was cool,i enjoyed her first lesson and i still do now...ok peeps,gtg....PERSEVERE!!!!!
21:52
Thursday, August 03, 2006
BOA-BIDING FAREWELLLight and wind pour down on the snow blanketing the roadside tree Even if I open my heart or head my head downThe passing season cannot stop. We entwined our pinkies as you looked me in the eyes and made a promise, saying "Well then... let's see each other next time!" Are you forgetting all the fimiliar things too? Are we heading towards different futures?
If saying goodbye is for only a trip, then I'd give you my prettiest smile The times we met and the paths that we walked together will be living on in our hearts I won't ever, ever forget no matter what future awaits us or if we live far away with time, I won't let go of your hand..
If I don't force myself to forget then I won't be able to go on to tomorrow.As I cross this moving platform, you get smaller.
When I was worn and collapsed from crying, you'd hold me and tell me everything was alright.I'll become stronger so it won't be awkward Although silent tears fall down this heart, I'll bear it so that I won't have regrets I'm sorry for your tenderness Until we meet again (Everlasting)
If saying goodbye is for only a trip, then I'd give you my prettiest smile The times we met and the paths that we walked together will be living on in our hearts I won't ever, ever forget no matter what future awaits us or if we live far away with time, I won't let go of your hand..
21:17
this song is my favourite song its called BABO or fool....it really meant a lot to me...u read the lyrics and u guys will know why....anyway,i don't think i will blog once in a while cause i am damn busy....for the video that i made just forget it cause my photobucket is not working...chaoz peeps...
