what about me.
18:16
Friday, September 29, 2006
its weekend tmrw....just came back from school,i am so tired rite now...spent the whole day of lesson doing art...a lot of my classmates didn't turn up so it was kind of boring during art that i fall asleep...got a few more things to do for my art but i guess i am doing well and on the right track...the whole month is goin to be mock exams and science practical...PERSEVERE!!!!...."victory belongs to the most persevering"-napoleon....speaking of practical,i did chemistry practical with that silly jun rong,this was like the second time i did it with him...we did 2 practicals and the first one was okay but the second one was sucks to the core...we didn't finish it!!...btw,did i mention to u guys that my test-tube explode in the lab while i was doing my prelim chem practical...it was so embarassing and thanks to my clumsiness but i managed to finish it and i scored 12/15 for my chem practical...i guess its a blessing in disguise....Mock exams is going to be hard for me cause i need to study every now and then but it is also a revision for me...in addition,i can't sleep during mock exams when mr narain came in and it is such a torture...i usually get sleepy during mock exams papers after recess,i just don't know why maybe beacuse i am fasting...i totally can't endure the sleepiness i have at that point of time and i can even turned off while i am writing cause i really need the sleep badly!!!...mr narain said that if we sleep,we will stand...gosh....hopefully he will not be coming in after recess mock exams...well,there was one of the day where i was totally bored after the paper so i ended up scribling on my empty fullscap paper...
here is the pic of it
i scribble korean language on the paper...
22:19
Monday, September 25, 2006
woohoo~~!!!Hady Mirza is the official Singapore Idol for season 2!!,,,i m so happy cause i vote for him a few minutes before the lines were closed...it was an expected one and GOSH i missed the opening where Taufik Batisah was singing "I DREAM"which was a popular song.....i got to see the repeat telecast and this time i am gonna make sure i will NOT miss it....For those racist pple out there,stop your nonsense...Its the talent and not by race or religion...I said these things cause i heard from some pple of not the same race as hardy mirza(can't state the race as to avoid further conflict), saying that jonathan leong must win and they can't let malay win twice...what's this?do they even realise what were they saying???...if any of u have that kind of thought,better brush it away of ur mind cause i hate pple who are racist!!!...anyways,Hardy won and the idol fever is over...Schools,get back some papers from prelim exam and i am totally speechless of the result i produce cause i flunk really badly especially for my chem paper...i did pretty well for science paper 1 for chemistry component but my science paper 3 was so pathetic!!!...it really shows how much i have worked for my studies....my english teacher and physics teacher have not been coming for two days since monday...More papers and more disappointment!!!tmrw will be the start of mock exams and it is going to be tiring.....i hope i can get by this day quickly and study really hard and treat this things a challenge in a positive way...During art today,Umairah and me was talking bout the biggest crush we had on for the guys which had graduate....it was totally funny when we reminisce back bout the naughty things we did to them where they didn't know up till today...Not forgetting our chief,NUREFFAH,who lead us...haha...i shall continue the story next time round....i bet u guys and especially effah will laugh when we reminisce bout the past,memory down the lane.....okay got to go....peace out =)
20:07
Sunday, September 24, 2006
12:43
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Finally....preliminary exams are over...Today i went back at 9.15 am,it was like 1 and the half hour at school and then we went back...left with science practical exam,i hope i can really do it very well....i miss irene...anyway,i am still going to study after preliminary exams...Practice makes perfect isn't it?...i just don't know how would my exam result will be,i bet i flunk!!...its like how many more weeks to exam and i am getting scared and nervous...i just asked one of my friends who have took her o's last year...after listening from her,i felt that i am really running out of time..I really really must work hard!!!...its just not the words but also the action....nowdays,i've been coming back early to help out my mum...my sis just sit there studying and let her ass rot!!!..i am becoming a new maid at home...went back home,bathe my nieces,do housework,help my mum out to make breakfast,send my nieces to school and fetch her back....its pretty obvious that i am the house maid...well,i don't really say that it is a maid,for me it is just a help...i feel great helping others especially the elderly even though it means by holding onto the lift buttons and wait for them to come in or asking them which floor...the words of appreciation from a stranger is better than the person u knew...very weird huh?...today i woke up at 4 and woke my mum and brother at 5 am...waking them up is such a pain in the ass cause they are still sleeping and don't even want to wake up...i woke them up at 5 and then 5.30 and then 6 and then 6.30 and then lastly my mum woke up but not my bro...he woke up at at 7...I am seriously goin to study hard from now on...looking at me procrastinate,it hit hard on my head that not much time left...tmrw,theres mother tongue lesson which is my free period,i will use the time to practice maths....today i am goin to study for my practical...i've yet to finish my art prep work...i only left the pixelation part and first hand drawing...pixelation is so damn hard.....i need to colous the boxes with different colour tones and stuff....
After weeks of studying,i feel weak even after hours of afternoon nap..i feel like getting sick but i need to endure....okay...let me see i wanna talk bout cause today i have ample time so might as well write things that i wanna say...oh ya,i think i saw that fajar sec guy who always pick her sis up..i think i board the same bus as him when i am going back to school..when me and des were in the bus we saw this group of toddlers..they walk like 
penguins with the caretaker,there were like 4 caretaker and bout more than 5 toddlers...haha...cute...fasting month is around the corner and i need to do a spring cleaning befor my eldest sis do a spot check cause she is very particular bout cleanliness...i need to collect money and refurbish my room...stuff from IKEA are cool...i am goin to IKEA with my sis and bro to shop....btw,last sunday,i was watching documentary on 9/11,there was an re-enactment and they interviewed the pple who managed to escape from the north tower...a lot people were save from the north tower...i feels very strange and sad...the feeling of those pple inside the tower was like knowing that u are goin to die soon in just a minute...i was thinking back,maybe if u guys want to work in a high rise building,prepare a parachute in your office but that would be a funny idea...well,i just got to say that thing happens for a reason and maybe it was already stated in book of the world of all the things that going to happen...the sad part was seeing those who was trap on the 97th floor and above was calling their loved ones saying their last words...for example,this woman call his huband and saying that he loves him and his sons so much....they interviwed the woman husband and it was quite sad...although the north tower collapse,some of them were save cause they were dig out from there but they were at the upper part of the rubble...u guys should see it,it is really sad but i don't think there will be a repeat telecast...i think i talked too much but anyway this is from my deepest thought and feelings....well...gtg...oyasumi nasai....
12:44
Saturday, September 16, 2006
ahnnyonghaseyo everybody!!!.well i feel its a need to blog today...Prelims is not over...still have two three more papers to go and science practical...i am sleeping late and waking up early in the morning to study and it is simply tiring...this is what i called "u deserve it"!!!!...slacking all the way and relaxing a lot that i forget to study...It's very tiring...i slept at 1 a.m. and wake up 4 a.m.....although i slept really late,it didn't help me a lot cause i didn't manage to finish all the chapters and topics...i am quite disappointed in myself and i bet i will flunk my Prelims exams...the hardest paper so far was maths!!!...i crack my brain and think very hard but i didn't get to work out the answer....my brain is rusty cause i didn't let it work and this is the consequences!!!!...i am going to work hard...Then yesterday,i msg the guy who msg me the last two weeks.....i just sent him a good night msg cause i didn't msg him so i thought maybe a simple msg of greeting will do to show that i still remember him.....and do u guys know waht kind of msg i received????...who r u?????....i was like what!!!!...in the first place who the hell r u to ask this qns...that was suppose to be my line...i don't even know u!!!!....this kind of person can rot in hell!!!....he was the one who msg me asking for introduction and now he ask me who i am...IMA!!!!GAESEKGI!!!(those who learn korean SHOULD know what is this)*if u guys don't know...u r notencourage to learn these words.....haha...today i need to study chemistry and do art prep work!!!...wohoo...my brain is going to die of exhaustion!!!!anyway...today chat with irene from New York...i miss her!!!....she miss me too....she was just a friend that i knew from some forum.....Although she is just 13 yrs old,she is quite mature for her age...i like talking to her ...she is an asian living in the states....we always talk about anything...exchanging emails and stuff...Now i am going to download AIM so i can read her secret journal....she intoduce it to me....She even like to read the stories from the goodybook website that i gave her...she likes to watch japan anime....well...i intend to write my entries in korean bout i bet u guys don't understand it...hehe..ok gtg...got to settle my school stuff....gamsahamnida!!!thank u for taking time to read my entries take care pple!!!!...oh ya to my sis fren,belinda...if u r reading this...u said to my sis that u don't know how to say u're welcome in korean...here it goes "gwaenchanayo or anieyo"...it means its ok or its nothing....i m siging out....
12:44
ahnnyonghaseyo everybody!!!.well i feel its a need to blog today...Prelims is not over...still have two three more papers to go and science practical...i am sleeping late and waking up early in the morning to study and it is simply tiring...this is what i called "u deserve it"!!!!...slacking all the way and relaxing a lot that i forget to study...It's very tiring...i slept at 1 a.m. and wake up 4 a.m.....although i slept really late,it didn't help me a lot cause i didn't manage to finish all the chapters and topics...i am quite disappointed in myself and i bet i will flunk my Prelims exams...the hardest paper so far was maths!!!...i crack my brain and think very hard but i didn't get to work out the answer....my brain is rusty cause i didn't let it work and this is the consequences!!!!...i am going to work hard...Then yesterday,i msg the guy who msg me the last two weeks.....i just sent him a good night msg cause i didn't msg him so i thought maybe a simple msg of greeting will do to show that i still remember him.....and do u guys know waht kind of msg i received????...who r u?????....i was like what!!!!...in the first place who the hell r u to ask this qns...that was suppose to be my line...i don't even know u!!!!....this kind of person can rot in hell!!!....he was the one who msg me asking for introduction and now he ask me who i am...IMA!!!!GAESEKGI!!!(those who learn korean SHOULD know what is this)*if u guys don't know...u r notencourage to learn these words.....haha...today i need to study chemistry and do art prep work!!!...wohoo...my brain is going to die of exhaustion!!!!anyway...today chat with irene from New York...i miss her!!!....she miss me too....she was just a friend that i knew from some forum.....Although she is just 13 yrs old,she is quite mature for her age...i like talking with her...she is an asian living in the states....we always talk about anything...exchanging emails and stuff...Now i am going to download AIM so i can read her secret journal....she intoduce it to me....She even like to read the stories from the goodybook website that i gave her...she likes to watch japan anime....well...i intend to write my entries in korean bout i bet u guys don't understand it...hehe..ok gtg...got to settle my school stuff....gamsahamnida!!!thank u for taking time to read my entries take care pple!!!!...oh ya to my sis fren,belinda...if u r reading this...u said to my sis that u don't know how to say u're welcome in korean...here it goes "gwaenchanayo or anieyo"...it means its ok or its nothing....i m siging out....
20:09
Sunday, September 10, 2006
ANNOUNCEMENT!!!!
I will not be updating my blog entries until my prelims end or shall i say i will not be updating my blog entries until my o'level exam ends....I've decided to ban and barred myself from any computer activities!!!....anyway,o'level is around the corner and i am trying to discipline myself....HARDWORKING All The WAY!!!...Gambatte kudesai!!!!~fighting~so friends,i'm sorry...Thanks for taking ur time to read my entries....I am signing out so take care guys!!! na Kanda(i'm leavin')....ahnnyongikaseyo!!!...bai....bai....bi--cycle....haha : p
08:54
Thursday, September 07, 2006
its 2 hrs before my remedial...i woke up early today to check my email and study...currently,i m having my breakfast before studying later.Left 3 more days before holiday is over and i've yet to have full revision.I was suppose to have the full revision yesterday but i need to visit my grandparents as some of u guys noe that my granfather is diagnosed with lung cancer.If i don't go,it will just show how much respect from me to the elders so i went.I 've just got to say this that when i heard from my uncle that my grandfather was diagnosed with lung cancer,i felt like i just want to drop right there.My body was so weak that it can collapse any moment.Now,i have just to count the days that are left which is numbered for my grandfather.I am not reluctant to let him go cause he have enough going thru life that was stored for him and i guess the more he stay in this world,the more he suffer.Everybody come and goes in this world.I am getting over it and just have to see him get by day by day.yesterday,after maths remedial i went to lot1 cause i have 2 hrs of break so i decided to went to lot1 to buy something for myself to eat.I took 190 and there was this old woman was talking to her grandson,she was talking in a loud voice.Everybody was looking at her,i tried not to look at her cause it can be embarassing for her part and its understood for old woman like her.Another thing i saw was this malay teens couple,they wer hanky panky at the bus stop.I feel like slapping their face and small kids were looking at them.They are called the no brain pple.The girl was sitting on the guy lap and they were aiting beside a lady with some small kid.I feel like kicking their ass.At that kind of age,they should think of their dignity.They look so cheap in pple eyes.Brainless pple!!...I am not stating that i am jealous of them or wat but Pls lar!!!don't act like that in front of public places....I am so ashamed to be called myself a malay after seeing what those malay couple did.
Oh ya,this morning around 3,somebody sms me and said bout he steal some scrambler and something.I think,he got the wrong number!!So many weird people sms me and for example a robber like him.Very irritating!!!...btw i just wanna wish my friend,diana,Happy 17th birthday...i can't remember the date but i noe its the first week of sept.Wishing u that u have a happy life,hope u have a smooth sailing life and don't sleep in class anymore!!...haha : p
Yesterday when we were having english remedial,our group talk a lot bout stuff.Then they ask me,when i want to turn 17??....man,that word just pissed me off...haha...but actually,i think age does not matter.U may be as old as any other pple but if ur brain is still thinking like a kid,do u call urself old and mature pple???...ok gotta go...i need to study....
17:28
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
how am i so tired right now...slept at 12 yesterday doing homework and wokes up at 5 today....yesterday i was looking at a few blogs,all unknown pple for example an SP student and NUSHS student...The funny entry one should be the SP student,i was laughing thru' out his entry.For the NUSHS student,it was boring cause he was yaking and yaking bout his daily life but his english was superb!!The exciting part was,he was talking bout my former english teacher,Mr Charles Png being the new Head of ACE(affective character education)...He said that Mr Png does not look so friendly and he shouted at year 1 and 2 population.He said that he felt that it doesn't left a good impression on the student on him.Well,i think he started in our school like the way he does in his new school.He can be very cocky at times and egoistic but he have a good heart.Before he leaves our school,he talks to me and umairah bout time planning and he said that he will plan it with us .Up till today,theres no time planning,i guess he totally forget bout it.
Lets talk bout today,my class was supposed to have geography remedial at 8 a.m but our geog teacher didn't turn up.We waited like 45 minutes and i was the first person.I was accompannied by ghost in the school(i think)...After waiting for 30 minutes,i wanted to go back and saw Mr narain,fad,diana and afifah.They were talking to Mr narain and asked him to call our geog t'cher.Then he said that our geog t'cher will be 2 minutes late.Left four person and we did map reading personally with him near the canteen.Later,kang sheng came cause he was asked to go back home and change into proper uniform.He was wearing slippers and shorts to school.
for me,everyday,i have classes but i am enduring now.If i feel tired i will just jog,i feel that jogging is a new thing i am picking up to relieve stres...Man!!!i have a lot of hmwk to do and my art,its been in the shelve collecting dust since i touched it....remeber i said i wanna to update pictures but my photo bucket was not cooperative...i think it works perfectly now...so i guess i just update the pics...
on our way to the bus interchange
in this pic,Hariz is such a spoiler spot...btw u guys can see that there's crackers on his hand...
Hamzi is not smiling when diana sat with him(that what ZR joke bout)
my silly nieces
my 1st niece
my 2nd niece,the vain pot!!!
opps!!...this is extra..haha...is this guy handsome?i used to be so crazy over him but not anymore....he is a member of a korean boyband...
love his outfit...
09:12
Monday, September 04, 2006
its 9.06 a.m....i m pretty lazy to wake up today cause i can't sleep the other night...went to the kitchen and get a drink,went to toilet and wet myself a bit and back to bed.I totally can't sleep until it was around 2 am..Anyway before the day i slept at 2 a.m. cause i chatted with this guy,i really have no idea he is??...he didn't reveal the person name who gave my no. but its a guy.I was wondering to myself which guy have my hp. no cause i only gave it to my classmates.Forget it,i only msg him back when he msg me cause i don't really have free time to msg pple.Btw he said,if i get bored or wat jus msg him..haha...too bad,i don't get bored and wat!!!anyway,have u guys ever wake up from sleep and have this deepest touch in ur heart??for example,yesterday,i woke up from sleep and my mind was blank but suddenly i remember the things that i dream.I dream that there was a guy sitting beside me and i laid my head in his shoulder,its like he was my guy in my dream.The warmth of his shoulder was so warm that i can felt it even when i woke up and till now...the strange thing is,the guy is someone whom i don't really know...Very weird but it doesn't matter,its just a dream,game of sleeping....then yesteday,i went to jog by my own again...it seems that i have been enjoying doing things by myself..i went to jog behind the villa verde ,there was quite of man as in old man...haha...there is a few small boy...i find that yesterday it was better than the previous friday cause i am getting used to get tired and less stop than before....i think i am going again today,anybody wanna join me?after jogging behind villa verde,i went to buy a drink and walk to limbang park to take a stroll...there was quite a lot of family activities going on and i saw these three guys,they are friends with each other...they were just sitting at the play ground joking and talking to each other...when i took the second round,they were bullying their friends as in took his slipper and didn't want to give him back...looking at them,it feels that its been a long time since i have been having fun with my friends...then there was this guy,i think the same age as me or a bit younger,he was running and i swear that he is super fast....when i am strolling half of the park,he was on his second round...after jogging went back and check on some web...then i saw this phrase...the day when u realised who u should be with,him/her tells u that he/she have waited u for so long....it seems that i am quite familiar with tis phrase...i think yesterday i was acting very stupid in front of my siblings...i asked them whether i am crazy and laughed....i made stupid jokes and many more....I just want to laugh myself out cause i feel so empty...btw,from yesterday,my classmates kept calling me and sms me up till this morning asking bout the remedials and time...i m fine with it but sometimes it really show that they don't bother to take down the sept holiday remedials...they are relying on others for it....although they are my classmates and friends,theres a limit...if u ask me to reassure bout it,its fine but when u want to noe what remedial we r having and time,it really means that u r really not bother...i think its not nice to bring this matter up but theres a limit to everything.okay,i gtg....i m going to school soon.....and to my sis...u r so freaking irritating with ur kwon sang woo...oh ya,i forget to wish my bro happy belated birthday...his b'dae was supposed to be on the 31st aug but its kind of late....hope u will succeed in ur career and grow up!!!! : phaha...peace out!!!
20:37
Saturday, September 02, 2006
wow...its been a week and a lot of things have been happening...let me see,i will start on what happened previous monday.Well,remember the previous blog i wished this person happy birthday and its been a long time?..well,he was the crush when i was in sec.2 till sec.3 but it was an old story.I've forgotten bout those stupid days.haha...aniwae,i regretted saying that its been a long time cause i saw him and he saw me...It all started when i was going to lot1 alone to buy my art stuff.I was walking and looking down at the interchange then when i raised up my head a bit and i saw him and he saw me.I don't know whether he recognise me cause he is blur as a dork...haha...actually its really nothing but its just that when i saw him,i was totally shocked as if my heart skips a beat..So i need to be careful of what i said.
one of the days,umairah told me that she went to a concert at NUS high school of mathematics and science.I was quite shocked and proud that he was teaching at that school.He used to called me "cashminah" instead of kasminah...haha...up till the day he leaves the school...I hope he is doing well...Well,i really have a good time when he was teaching me for almost two years.
last wednesday,i stay back behing up till 8 pm in school to do my art,the art seriously thought that the art prep work were to be handed on that day.I was rushing like hell and ms ow,our art teacher ordered 4 large pizza from canadian pizza.While we were eating in the canteen,shaminah came to us and asked ms ow..."ms ow are u serious the deadline is today??"...ms ow burst into laughter and the cats are out of the bag cause she asked her friend who took art and aked bout the deadline.That day was a nice day,we were drawing and it was raining heavily in thru out the afternoon and night.Some of the students were preparing for the teachers day concert.The school was lively in the night with sinda class going on, we doin our art and the students were rehearsing for the concert.
speaking of teachers day,our art students felt bad cause we didn't give anything to ms ow cause there was suppose to be some photo for her but someone didn't co-operate and theres nothing left.There was a conflict bout money issue pblem but i hope they will solve it within them as soon as possible so there will be no dispute.The teachers day concert was so cool,i like the sec 3 classes where they dance the song from sountrack of high school musical.Too bad,the t'chers didn't perform orelse it will be a nice one...My sis school t'chers day concert was touching and fun...The defiance students who rebels to the teachers gave a hug to their respective t'chers as a sign of remorseful and appreciation...aww!!!how touching...On that day itself,there was suppose to be cross country but it was postpone due to the rain...We went back at 10.30 and after that some of our classmates decide to visit mdm rosnah as she just given birth...we bought something for her.Her baby is so cute and her two sons are quite cute too....there are some pictures that was taken on the way to her house...
my photobucket is really not cooperating and i gave up...i will fix it soon...such a hazzle!!!
aniwae,yesterday i went jogging alone after school...it was so tiring...i bet u must be asking why the heck i went to school during holiday rite??...well we have geography lesson and social studies...our t'chers don't want their holiday and furthermore i will be having classes during the september holiday to prepare for our prelims....we are going to have our major exams in two months time...gotta be extra hardworking!!!
i got to go and i would like to take this opportunity to wish all my t'chers happy t'chers day including my primary school teachers...i was quite sad bout my primary school t'chers cause i went there to visit them and they didn't entertain us so i did not bother to come back...And the t'cher that i will always remember is Ms chow(miss stylo-Milo),Mdm hayati(cute t'cher) and Ms seetoh now known as Mrs tan...these t'chers have been teaching me for two years and i am very grateful of their hardwork especially mdm hayati who tutor me privately to brush up on my english and pushed me when i was about to give up...Thanks for putting hope on me and believe in me.Love ya...muacks...
