26.10.1989.
-Chua Chu Kang Primary School
-Kranji Primary School
-Chua Chu Kang Secondary School
-Republic Polytechnic(dip. in Biotechnology)
22:10
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
*i am suppose to study computing maths for thursday UT but,i need to get my thoughts off my mind owww...my eyes are red..it is super itchy.. itchy...itchy... scratchy...scratchy...just remind me of those secondary school camp haha.. my sis is like cursing and swearing because she need to go for a camp and she was chosen... yeah rite...my IG IS MALAY DANCE!!!*choke* "thanks" to u, tk dpt ar walaupn brape abad~!!!!!!!! i was thinking...how long can i keep up with this...does it really benefits on me?sometimes i can't stand myself.For example,i will get angry at myself and will throw all my precious things...i can get mad too,u noe...but the worst thing is nobody there to pick it up for u...haha... there's always a point in life where u change for the better to adapt youself to an environment... i felt so aimless because there's no goals in my life but at times,i find that there is not a need too... if it comes and i take it...if it doesn't come,i couldn't careless... i guess people change because can't possibly they live their whole life being the same person as what they are up till the world ends... what if it happens? what am i gonna do? i don't know whether i should pity her or not...but its way beyond words.Its been like way long and she just can't let it go...for godness sake....just pray that he's fine and that it is good enough,he have went back to another world...bringing back the past just means bringing more pain...it hurts but it can be quite irritating...dwelling it all over again and again...comfort u again and again....its just repititive and it have lost its meaning... The only thing i can do is just pray,shedding tears won't help... i had enough of tears....thats why,tears disgust me to an extent.. not that i am asking to forget but don' t bring those things and ask the kids the same qns... i bet they will ask u back a VERY INTELLIGENT QNS... why can't u help yourself?is there even any initiative taken?there's still time and you should make use of it.... I hate people who doesn't do anything about the situation and all they do is cry~!! SUPER HATE!! I CAN EVEN GO TO AN EXTENT TO SCREAM AND SHOUT!!! do they have even have brain to think?? is it me that is different or they?? sometimes i felt that i am mean to myself... laughing to avoid those pain... smile to avoid cries... bloody hell ar!! who r u to judge pple that way? u think she ask god to be born that way?? u guys got an ugly heart!!! super ugly....that it is worst than a disfigure face... just wait...i bet one day u pple will realise... BRAINLESS PPLE... GET A LIFE!!! being way to optimistic is a BIG problem too.. haha...okay enough...everything is so random.....
