sweet tooth time!!!

i guess i am addicted of seeing those nice cupcakes..it is so pretty!!!
actually, my poly classmates, Joy, was surfing the net on cupcakes during the class ppt and i saw it so i joined in....
then today,i decided to surf the net on it...there was alot of pretty cupcakes.....how i wish i can have it!!!! i am so tempted to bake one!!!!

here's the pic that i took frm the site...i m sharing it






pics credit: http://community.livejournal.com/bakebakebake
http://cupcakeblog.com/
there are still more pics but they are in GIF format so i need my photoshop to change it....

i was being sweet too today..i gave each of my team mates a ferero rocher...i thought i wanna eat it but instead giving them was a nice feeling rather than eating it alone....

i am so happy that i have understood my computing maths problem about standard deviation totally and even the science on natural order...feels like a sense of great achievement....i have made a right choice!!!i am sure!!!

i ,<3 my maths faci..she tells us story and even gave us to watch something funny on some website...she always gave us some entertainment after finishing 6ps....

i am so so hmm...feeling so happy without any reason or maybe high sugar level...lmao....so today my entry will be nice than usual....



ouh today my mum cooked those wanton in soup..so nice..i've been longing to eat that...then i played the flour and put on my niece face and took a pic of her...lol

kelkatu- is it still bored????huh???

squash game i had with my friends(cunye & cui)

see how much this guy sweat!!he played really well!!!


^cui game

my game = )

PICS TAKEN AFTER THE GAME BEFORE WE WENT FOR OUR DINNER AT LOT1...









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all of this pic was taken by my cam and we used the timer,i was so tired of setting it and run to get my pose...lmao...thats explain y my hair was so messed up...since cunye went off first to play basketball after he played squash with us.....those cam was being put on the floor and we snap our pic~

i played for like 3 times and i was tire out easily because i just ate 2 piece of bread for that day and i have to meet them after i went back from school..when i played for too long,i have difficulty breathing and i felt light-headed....suay ar....but i enjoy playing it and we will be playing again...soon....we played for 2hrs and 15min of camwhoring/!!!ha~


some o the below pics that i wanted to show you in my previous entries but then my phone cable was making some problems in transferring it...so here it is...

^cute hello kitty chewing gum that was bought by XT for me!!

^ i got ntgh to do so just take lor...

the strawberry looks sweet rite??hows my skill of taking picture??LOL

my kimchi fried rice..hehe..


this was taken at school at one of the laptop station and somebody put this face as a screensaver so my fren wanted to take pic with him.they used my phoe since mine is clearer..haha...luckily it was not alien pic!!

FREAKING IDOT!!!!!SUPER CHILDISH!!!!
GET MY TEAM A PAPER AND EVEN WARNED THEM NOT TO LET "THAT "PEOPLE TOUCH!!!....HELLO!!I HAVE MY OWN PAPER LAR...UR PAPER IS WORTHLESS,DON'T WORRY...I WON'T STEAL IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
FREAK!!!HE IS GETTING ON MY NERVES.....
THE MORE I DESPISE HIM....FRANKLY,I HAVE NOTHING AGAINST HIM...
!@#$%^&*(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

aniwae,i will update the Squash pic soon...omgd!!!my science UT = die!!!

lets make this entry a fast one....
my eyes are so dry rite now because of the air-con and it is really painful....i need an eye MO!!
today when i was on my way to school,i was sweating and saw his guy was sweating horribly because his back was wet !!!..there's even this guy,i can see his beads of perspiration and he even brought a towel to wipe it..
and wth!!i am a scriber again today!!!!then the group leader isn't jun xiang anymore and its the bloody freaking lazy guy!!!..i m so not happy....frankly,i couldn't care less cos i only concern about my grades and my team mates except HIM...
i think its time for me to do my research...today pblem is abit ermm...slightly hard than the previous one...

weekends is so bored...lazing around aniwae i was so furious with my mum because she was also lazing around and sleeping....urgh~ and then my bro ask me to iron his formal clothes an his pants cause he have an OPS today...i was so irritated cos i was doing my own things and i never agreed to iron it until 4 pm he was suppose to wake up,nobody iron it so I iron it for him!!!!
well,before doing that,i shout just to get those EVIL out of me....freak!!!
MY bro even said thanks to me ar...so i told him,u better DO!!!

WASSUP with my nieces??my second and third niece cut their hair bob style and they look so "tomblok"...LOL..its some malay terms which i dunnoe how to explain....i will show their pc the next time round...
ouh and i am so into PRINCESS DIARIES,the movie i mean...not that i have those princess syndrome,i have never had one and i won't..it is so not REALITY!!!but it looks cool though!!
FAIRY TALE SUX!!!EVEN CINDERELLA TOOO....

opps!!i think i saw a grasshopper sticking on my cupbard and how the hell it stick there!!!???0.o

oh and u guys wanna see how i looks like to someone???it is so funny!!!i was LMAO....

i was doing some personality quiz and here's what i got:
the test is The Sesame Street Personality Quiz,the outcome of the quiz

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

below is HOW APPY ARE YOU?

You Are 64% Happy

You are a very happy person. Generally, you feel content and that all is right with the world. Occasionally, you have a down day - but you have the ability to pick yourself right back up.

yeah..i m a lifeles person on weekends!!...

WELL ANOTHER DAY OF TGIF!!
i m a bit disappointed today cause my friends could not make it for the class dinner and they are postponing it on wednesday...i bet i can't make it cause the next day i have SCIENCE UT...i m so excited and then its postpone..haiz...luckily,i didn't make any special arrangement or i get my hopes crush.. If things don't meant to happen than its not...there's still another time...

aniwae, today went for the 3rd talk with the 2J's,namely, Jun Xiang and Jobelle...LOL..tat jun xiang, the stone guy...I went back with him and talk a lot...he walk so fast can??i felt as if i was having a jog...lmao...then we saw Zoe and Evan..Evan seems to have the wrong idea because we walk together and she was like "ORRRR"....another thing is,my polyclasmates was shock that i have a twins and they see those pics in my lappy,they were like shouting"OMG!!"...so funny can!!
my class was fun today cause Wani entertain us with her magic tricks,it was so funny how oblivious they are...i am so honoured to be the first person to know the tricks...Eugene was very funny with his malay vulguraties and also their group has such a "nice" name for their vb application...then our maths faci,told us about her proposal she received from her boyfriend and even a ghost stories cause we finish our class 30 mins early...about her guppy giving birth to lots of babies and she offering us to take some...My science faci is going to canada and we asked her to bring back something for us...This week was fun except for UT that spoil the week...

thats all...chaoz...YTIS!!

*sneezes**sneezes*
omg!!i have been sneezing since this morning up till now...now i having a running nose with a nose block...darn...hopefully it will be better before the dinner...i can't afford to get sick..
i m deadly tired..slept at 1.30 am and woke up at 5.30 am...u have got no idea how the hell i can open my eyes!!!..fortunately,i can survive for the whole day and i was like falling asleep while going to the talk during lunch break...it was gross lar!!!they drill the hole on the knee and they show how easily it can moves if the thingy that connects the two bones together were tored...sickening!
another 1 more talk to go....
my bro is gonna get a beating from me!!..when i was taking a nap,he took something and like tickle my nose or something but for sure i can't feel it..when i opened my eyes,he backs off quickly and laughed at me..DARN!!!..now he is sleeping...it was so funny the tasered video he showed me because he was having a course on it...he n his friend looks like monkey while they are being tasered....LMAO!!!


ouh i knew who is alien on my tagboard...he is a friend of turtle...LOL....ouh and don't think i dun noe eh...

THANK GOD ITS FRIDAY TMRW!!! I M SO HAPPY!!!SEE YA GUYS TMRW @ 6PM!!!!

*munch munch*...eating my chips ahoy...
it is so cold today and the weather was good because it was drizzling today,while i was walking to school..
such a great day..my class was a bit empty with those absentees but it was fun today...
more jokes and teasing frm my class...wah!!they really like to bully me....especially nelson and tat RID!!!..urgh..
the ppt,we did it so fast and we still left an hour before 3rd meeting starts....i m so HAPPY!!! = )
BUT....UTS tmrw and there's talk tommorow....haiz...well...1 more day to go before the DINNER...
wheee~~
i m freaking not liking science..i guess its the pblem tat it have gave me to solve...i wonder if i made the right decision....not that i don't like,i like it a lot since secondary school but when i came to poly, i sort of having those like-hate relationship with it due to the pblem statement tat was given....haha...RELATIONSHIP???...wat i m talking about...

i m offf.....chaoz!!!!

*yawn*...i m so bored...the problem statement is so boring...
i didn't do a lot for today presentation cause my head refuse to work no matter how hard i think...
i only did the wksht and FMT for the group by my own...the ppt,they did and i just contribute...
i am so grouchy today,I have never been like this before...
i guess i am lack of sleeps thats why and my stomachs hurt like hell in school....
during the 2 hrs break,i just sit in class by my own and slept while plugging in music in my hear....

nothing happen today but the problem is...i felt so suffocated when i breath although nothings bothering me,its like i am forcing myself to avoid the anger in me and the more i felt anger in me...urgh~ i hate it when it comes...
GOD!!!PLEASE MAKE ME LAUGH MY HEART OUT!!!I REALLY NEED IT!!!!

Aniwae,i went for the talk after school and it is so boring...before that,i was rushing although it is just at my blk,i thought i were late....FREAK ar~...the funniest thing is,wen i saw one of my friend,i was so excited and i waved at him then i thought i wanna sit beside him..then i forget bout my fren so we sat at the row of seats infront of him...haha...
i bet i wouldn't be scoring my A's for communication because i didn't present a lot like wat i did usually...cause usually,i would be conquering the presentation for my group and help them answer the question but not today...tsk tsk~...SUPER LOW!!!

that bloody GRIP opps i mean rrrrrid...prasan nk mampus,orng cakap grip die tanye sape ni panggil nama dia....TK TAU MALU!!!...then call me the newspaper intellectual and he even was finding fault with me,early in the morning...GERAM NYE!!!!...dah lar hisap pipe mcm datuk2..haha...JAGA KO!!!!....ADA UBI,ADA BATAS....ADA HARI BOLEH BALAS LAH!!!

why is RJ very tough each day??the rj is "Create and answer your own open-ended RJ question."....i guess its better than asking us to answer the qns they set..
BTW,wen i went back with a fren fren's which i dun even noe wats her name cause i just got to know her..we talk like some old friends and we even saw his weird lady who talks by herself..when her phone rangs,she sort of shout like "AR"...The groups of malay guys were like talking and sort of raise their voice and said "AR KEDAI KOPI EH??" "COFFEE SHOP AR"...i was smling widely because of their teasing.....

ar!!!!!! I can't wait to have a dinner date with my friend this friday...ITS REALLY HAPPENING...

let me tell u bout my first day of school after it have been close for 2 weeks...
the first time i came in to my class,i felt like the first time i enter the classroom during the orientation...it was bright and the sun shine through our class...i was quite happy to be back to met my friends but NOT the PROBLEMS they are giving us....i enjoyed today module because of my classmates but during the last 2 presentations,i dozed off cos i felt like somebody squeezing my brain....at first,it was my grp mate,he seems to have a bad terrible headache n i kept asking him whether he is okay and after those presentation,he was fine...well,he can't think too much...i was so worried cos he kept lying down his head on the table...the funniest thing would be one of my guy classmates who msn some of my friends telling them i love you and when they look at him,he gave them a kissing action...including me...SICKENING but it was funny and ways to live up a class...while i was doing my presentation,Eugene,my fellow classmate did those eyebrow thingy like a pervert does..and i did the same to him while he was presenting...LOL...
jun xiang!!u got a cute friend can!!!lmao!
ouch!!!!my back is killing me!!!!!!

i m dead tired...i slept late the day before and woke up quite early as 6 am...i m so dead...i dun feel like doing rj...the qns was, what craziest idea i have and why should i(my faci) believe?..stupid can!!!furthermore its UT tmrw!!!URGH~
attend talks after school....

ouh if it happens that effah read this msg, i just wanna inform you that the class dinner is change to FRIDAY...do tag wen u read this so i noe whether u r goin or not...or...pm me on msn...

let me start with the weather first....
its been raining since morning and now it is still drizzling....aww...such a nice weather...
ITS SUNDAY!!!OMGD!!!..days really flies!!
its fathers day..i wanna wish my fathers a happy father day...
we(me n my siblings) may not be close to u but still,we respect u as a father....
all those caning that me n my siblings get and alot lar have make us who we are today....
i m sure all of us are grateful..
aniwae,i was talking to a poly classmate,who lost his father this year after battling with a stroke...was comforting her..she seems bubbly but the one who smile alot are those who cried alot...hey it sounds like me for the smiling part..haha...

aniwae,i was watching this movie called herbs about a girl who is mentally disable...she does not live up to her age..its like she is 20 yrs old but she lives in a 7 yrs old world....she fall in love with this guy whom she thought who is her prince which is a policemen...the policemen who fall in love with her but he walk away frm her the moment he knew bout her mental disability...but...one day,he realise that he have fall in love with the girl...it was innocently pure love...that girl mother was dying frm cancer and her last wishes was to break the couple up,the guy understood it....the guy was having difficulty but wen he wana broke the news,the gal said to him first about it and he was stone...its like a mentally disable person understands better than a normal person..thats how live it is...a disable person would always have its speciality which moves a normal human...it was so sad...when she wana threw her mum ashes,i cried bcos of her words tat pierce thru my heart...she said....."thanks for living as my mum and not others,thanks for living as a pretty mum"...another part was where her mum last breath,where she wrote her name on her palm cause she doesn't wat her mum to forget about her....
its amazing isn't it....

actually the idea of a mentally disable person who falls with a normal person have cross my mind for a numerous times....and BINGO...it came out....
what would be the normal person reaction if tat person noes??
is it a pity or sympathy tat was mistook it with love??
i bet it will be an interesting story....
i m actually super tired today..i can sleep anytime..seriously but its just tat i dun wanna sleep...
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haha...i was laughing like hell while visiting some of my frens blog due to the hate taggers....super stupid lar..ask to read the quran lar than call each other sluts..this is wat i call uncivilised people!..mindlessly judging people without even knowing them...lifeless people!!!!boo~...i guess they were doing those things because they hate to see people having more in life while they don't....wth!!..maybe they can form some club ar called the SOCIETY THRASH!!...haha...

u guys dun even dare to ask how my day is!!i am totally mad...i woke up late and need to rush to my sis house before she went off to work..i rushed till my gums bleed..i was brushing my teeth and i was rushing suddenly it hit my gum on the ulcer part..it bleeds profusely lar but i just rinse my mouth with the tap water although its damn pain....ouh my sis,she even remind me to but for her daughter breakfast at MacD...luckily that manager opened the door for me after buying those foods and i was carrying alot of things...or else i will turn berserk!!!well,those smiles made my day...
my nieces is really getting outta hand...she beat me frm behind,bang my laptop...woah~~~my hands are itching but i just endure....i think she really need some discipline class...
aniwae,this morning weather was nice,it was cloudy and windy....i thought it was a haze but it is just the morning vapour..how i miss that kind of weather...haiz...

i have get my things in place such as the webmail,password of vpn and all...i am so please...god noes how much i have suffer and worrying for the past 2 weeks!!!

Argh!!!!school is like gonna re-open in 2 days..The gate of hell is opening soon and i have to wait until 24 august before it close again...BACK TO UT frenzy....pRoblems....presentation...SUX!!!

let me rant for a moment can???...
SERIOUSLY!!!I WANNA CURSE AND SWEAR AT RP FOR MAKING MY LIFE DIFFICULT...PREVIOUSLY REGARDING THE SCHOOL FEES AND NOW THE PASSWORD THINGY!!!...i dun understand the purpose of changing password and WAT!!!PASSWORD EXPIRED???can't they just give us a guide book or something..the it-helpdesk people even get irritated wen they see long queues and they even stated at their website that we have to try to fix by yourself before going to the it-helpdesk!!!@#$%^&*
its not that changing password is difficult but when i tried to change it,i fill up those necessary blank and PRESS enter but the outcome was an ERROR: OBJECT REQUIRED!!!
i tried so many times yesterday and even this morning...i m pissed!!
maybe they should even think twice of using lappy for the whole school...STUPID!!!!
nvmd about this....i will email the it-helpdesk...


anyway,yesterday i went for a jog alone...that "GIRL" ar...she can't wake up,well i know wats the outcome gonna be so i dun really mind...she set the time quite early so wat do u expect...speaking of which,i remember i went for a jog with my fren and the time we set was 5.30...imagine tat!!!i was waiting for her under the blk and she didn't come down...i wait for a her for quite a moment but then went home...i went home to have breakfast and after that she called me at 6 am said to wait for her..haha..funny...we went to jog at limbang park and then proceed to villa verde...i think morning jog is still the best but i can't wake up early for a jog...hehe...

ouh ya there was this guy,who jogs at the park too yesterday..i dunnoe wats up with her...he tried to avoid me..in my head,i was like thinking,wat is his pblem,if u wanna jog just jog lar...dun mind me at all...then get another old man was plucking some leave at the park..with that sardine look at him,he still plucking those leaves even when i am near him..he doesn't even care if i stared at him...

before i end this entry....a shout out for EFFAH.....

i was so surprise to receive a phone call from some company...they said that it was a job orientation and i was like huh??...i was too clueless on how they got my number...i didn't ask which company they are from but this particular lady was telling me that they got it from some survey that i did but then i didn't do any survey at all..the only survey i did was from this guy who came to my class...i dunno...she said they shortlisted those potential people so i was choose...wow!!!I FELT SO HONOURED!! but thanks ar i am not interested...she was giving her number and she was like "hey your first two digit handphone number is the same as mine"..huh???.i am a student and if i wanted to i would search for it myself...i bet it would be those promoter job and I AM NOT KEEN AT ALL!!!...i don't like anything with sales ever since i participated in that ENTREPRENURSHIP....well enough of this....furthermore its at CHANGI,the more i am reluctant...

yesterday i have nothing to do in the late nite so i typed a person name and google it...wow..i found out something and erm..no comment...i think i am really good at finding for sources..haha...i guess i have no regret of taking this path and the more i see his life,the more i am motivated to do better in my life....well the hatred i see in him, made me who i am rite now..Thanks to you...i am not attracted to him as what i used too..i watched u from far....well,time flies..there wasn't a start nor an end..there was nothing to even talk about...i am back to reality...to think back about this and compare it with the present,it tickles my heart...

i used to say this to myself when i was blinded by it...maybe i should make his ambition comes true so i was really working very hard towards it ...i didn't realize,i was doing it for myself but it was on par with his ambition..even rite now..that blur sotong guy i have ever met!!!....the biggest crush i have ever had in my life....we rarely clash with each other but there was a period of time i saw him nearly everyday but no more...it was in the past...very funny moments...the time where i planned on hiding those guys bags while they went for their Friday prayers after doing my class spring cleaning..YES!! I AM EVIL!!wakaka = p

Time would solve everything

Was that in itself a foolish belief

Now,I want to just go with the flow of things

It doesn’t mater to you anymore

From the start,a person like you never exist to me

The way I didn’t to you

wth!!!a lot of horny freaks lar...my poly classmates asked me to do the true friend test and its about how much i noe bout his sex life..so funny can....i took it and he said i sucks!!!...well wat do u expect u HORNY FREAK!!I DUN NOE BOUT UR SEX LIFE....

ONE OF THE QNS WAS...

Question #11

Would u like to have sex with me?

Yes i love to u horny beast!

No.. get away u disease infested freak

it was a funny qns...haha..obviously i put NO!!!! and it was incorrect...

i m so tired today....
after jogging ,went to meet some old fren and ended up going to library and catching up with readings...i was so engrossed in reading tat i didn't realise i yawn soo much and the time..
i feel so upset with my mum but wat can i do..she's my mum,i just have to keep it to myself...
aniwae,there was a lot of cathching up with all my past...
my well kept secrets tat nobody noes up till now except for my sis n effah...been talking to effah alot about our pri school days,frens n old flame....zaman gemilang dok!!!!*kibar bendera putih*
haha...
actually rite most of my frens,there's a lot of childhood frens but there are some i have yet to get in touch...
hmm should i reveal my well kept secret???cos its like no fun keeping to myself and there's no use for me to keep it cos it was all in the past...

actually rite,i was gonna hide frm my sec frens and not to contact any of them cause of some misunderstanding we had....i decided to move on and i wasn't clear of myself at tat point of time..but those kind of promise i made to myself was not kept...
initially it didn't drift any of us apart...those fights actually was to make us understand each other better...i dun mind apologizing for anything cause i value each and every friendship i had with everybody...
no more raking up of the past but just to ponder over then its okay..

aniwae bout the pretty gal story.....

wen i was in sec school,i went back frm remedial and went to the polyclinic to buy somethng from the cafe over there....i intended to walk frm school all the way to my home...instead of taking a straight route,i went to take a longer route...at the other side of the road,where i was walking,i saw this group of boys which is my classmates at the other side of the road.....i ignored them and didn't really call out for them....i was still walking and there was nobody around me....
they called out "pretty girl" cause i thought they were calling me since they call me all sort of my name they have in minds....aniwae there was no girls to call out except me....when i turned,they were like "who called you!!!"...this guys ought to trick me,seriously!!!i was very paiseh..then they said we were calling tat girl...the next day,they tease me = (
but it was funny..this time i didn't turn when they called out for pretty gal....haha...i would never forget this moment....i really enjoy those times with them although they bully me alot...
there's another moment where i can't forget...where we were studying and those indian boys were communicating in non-verbal language....it really made me laugh hard until me n my partner got caught for not paying attention...haha

hmm..i slept at 3 am yesterday and i woke at 7am today...
tat bloody midah!!!..i called u this morning to wake up but then u said ur mum wore your sport shoe...u very funny hor!!!!..we were planning he day before to jog together.....aniwae i slept back and decide to go at 10.30 am...
i went and jog for 30mins...i was panting and my heart could not take it....my tyre punctured...hehe...
i will be going tmrw again...waiting for u guys to jog with me will take a million years... =p
i was dehydrated cause i have yet to take anything in the morning...by the time i walked home,i felt lke vommiting out my intestines...yeah!!!
aniwae,i endured so its nothing...
while i was jogging,i met this couple...aiyoh public affetion lar...they went to the fitness centre and the guy rest his head on his girl lap...they are kids lar....the girl tryin to at cute...malay some more!!!there were kids around and people looking..they do have such thick skin to do kind of stuff...

its been days since i blog....i was just busy taking care of my nieces since my parents are away and my sis had to work....
aniwae,i was watching extreme makeover( home edition),it was super sad lar...
actually all of their episode were sad....u guys should watch it,its on sunday at 3.15 i guess or 3.30 pm....
it never fails to make me feel touch and cry...
they are building a home for those who really need one and its just not a home..its also building up a whole new life....
the most memorable episode was this household where they have a lot of siblingsi think its 12..their parents pass away in a car accident....they have to scrimp and save and even work...previously,their house was totally small and they was only one bathroom...they sleep in bunk beds in a small room...
so this pple came to their rescue and make them a new home,a bigger and better ones...they even own a room for each of tem....
the most saddest part,would be the part where those architectures build a window pane on the ceiling of their house and a distance from that window pane,they hang a replica of two white doves..when those sunlight shine on that replica,it really give you the warmest feeling because those white doves represent their parents....awww...sad isn't it...

then there is another part of their house where all individual pictures were hanged on the wall and even their parents' pic...below those pic,there is a table where they make a long candle holder tat holds 14 candles....its like each of those candles,it represent each of them...
it was a family corner
i cried in silence cos i dun want pple to see me crying lar... = )
it was quite sad...
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ouh and dee,we talk over msn okay??...u too effah...hehe...jgn gaduh2...
wah...miss the old days talking with my friends...
tat day saadik sms me but he didn't reply me halfway...i miss my classmate...
the time where some of us slack around when there is no teachers and start our joke session....
the sec 1 stampede,playing catching with teachers....having a feast behind the class....
the cold wars between the girls and blows between the boys....
sleeping queens and beast in the class....
those indians boys called me CASH or cashy..due to my ss teacher lar....cos he pronounced my name as in CASH-ME-NAH....HAHA...i dun mind...it was funny...
the "pretty girl " times..i shall tell u guys in the next entry...it was super funny...bcos of tat they kept teasing me!!!haha...
the camps where me and some groups of frens went with the sec.3 during the fasting month....we break fast earlier than we did....the food was so not nice but we have a nice campfire...
those tamtrums and mood sings we have to endure with those pregnant teachers...
theres a lot of memories....the motto of our class : all 4 one and one 4 all since our class were
1/4, 2/4,3 /4 and 4/4...my index number was 4 too for the 5 yrs in school..haha...
well memories are meant to be remember and kept....
looking forward to meet them in the future!!!!! = )

wow..how cool..i was venting my anger just now on an entry and when i pressed on "backspace"...it went to the previous page!!!!
something happen today that i don't wish to explain but just for reflection...
i guess if things like this happens more in the future,the middle party will suffer....
i can see what will happens if there's no tolerancy between them....prety sad...
if they were to depart one day,it will become worse than ever....
a parent exist for a reason!!!!
i am sure i am not going to find a man with that attitude!!!!FOR SURE!!!
okay,i stop here....
my parents have went to KL so left me and my sis at home..my bro is working...he will come back the day after.....
today me,my mum and my nieces went out for a moment to settle miscellanous stuff before going off....it was like the first time i went out with her,i mean its like been ages since me and my mum went out together and really talk...
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although it have happen 4 years back BUT
u noe how i wish that there's a time machine!!!
i want to erase those things that happened!!!
people are making a big fuss out of it and i wish he have amnesia at that certain part where i exist!!
i wish to erase those stupid moments where i stupidly fall for his friend....
wah!!get this straight!!!i have never declare that i like you or crazy for u!!!!...NEVER!!!
i was attracted by your kindness but not ur HEART or WHAT-SO-EVER!!
its not even a near to like...urgh....
now i know what does kindness means to you....such a whimp....go n tell ur fren of urs too....
erase those times where i said those stupid things at tat point of time!!!
u go around and telling people about the past to the related people whom u and me noe...
there was nothing even to begin with...WATEVER!!
erase everything from the past!!!erase it all....it was all a mistake or shall i say i was blinded....
as long memories of urs are being erase its good enough....
after pondering over again,i think its utterly a big mistake...
as i reminisce it was a funnily stupid things....i guess i was too young to understand....
aniwae...its been sch a long time since i talk to or see KEENAN!!..that aussie guy...the day he left the workplace,its the day where i have yet to see him....i can still remeber those stupidity of him..heehee...
hmm..i am so random~

haha...dead tired..i woke up today and straight away to the bathroom....
after that went out....went to dhoby ghaut,orchard and so on....
alot of shops lar we went too..then as i tried on one of the top that i like,this girl said to me..."hey!u look cute..."she even told her colleague in chinese...hehe...
without any second thought,i smile at her and thanked her...haha....
so i bought the top and i guess another intention of her doing that was to psycho me to buy the top...
aniwae,lots of weird people at the town...
i guess i was the haywire today but then rite...i am always haywire....
as we were on our way to IMM,both of my cousin and my twin sis sleep...
they were super tired i guess....my cousin was sleeping at my shoulder while my twin sis head was swinging around..haha...
ouh and i saw two koreans guy...i was listening intensely to wat they were saying frm dhoby ghaut to bishancause they were justrite infront of me and i was opposite of them..i understood half of what they were saying...theres an f word in their sentence though...i just find it interesting to hear people talk in real life and in the tv...sure,it sounds different those korean people talk...

i guess i will stop up till here...i m dead tired...my joints need lubricating oil....haha...
i still need to follow my mum to the bank tmrw!!!wah...
watever...chaos....

just went back frm sheng shiong..me and my mum went for grocerry shopping..
bought those necessary stuff meant for takoyaki and oknomiyaki...just left with thje flakes to buy...hmm..yummy...this weekend while my parents are going away to KL,my siblings are gonna have a steamboat!!!...what a feast..
let me tell you what i did today...
i woke up at 8 in the morning and get ready to go back home from my sis house...
when i went back,i was totally wasted...i read the newspaper and my eyes were closed...
i slept frm 12-3 pm...i was totally tired taking care of my nieces...sleeping late and waking up early....
my nieces are getting on my nerves..so defiant!!
wow...it is really hard for me to get my message across to my father...
he just don't understand what i am trying to say....just let it be....

i realise that my life can be a joke at times....who the hell should i blame for my surroundings??
i am just quite suprised that it happens or maybe that person head is just screw up...
is it even worth my attention??urgh!!!..i guess my holidays are full of self-reflection!!!
i hate my bro today,he gave me remarks from what he hears...he doesn't even noe what i have really did and gone through,here he is ticking me off...after explaining it,he just shut up...BASKET!!!
i m having ulcer and this is due to frequent accidental bites while eating...
i can't talk that much...
i didn't ask for it!!


pics
yesterday


i was giving her pringles and taught her catogerising those identical cards and she got all of them correct....as u can see there is a baby doll and its stroller too...thats her favourite toy and she will bring it everywhere...

she asked me to take a picture of her hair instead of her face...haha...weird kiddo...

did u spot my pringles??she even put it inside the paperbag she is playing with!!

we were playing those "masak2"(cooking) thingy....it was my fav when i was a kid but not now...i arranged those toy and make it like restraunt with the table...she got the csh register toy so we used it...FUN ISN'T IT??...if kids have an aunty like me,they will have fun for sure!!!
today

this was just now while waiting for my father to pick us up after the grocerry shopping....KIMCHI!!!

i am goin out tmrw with my cousin!!!its been a long time since i went to town after my poly life starts....

i am suppose to sleep but my classmates are like confrencing on the msn...
their horny talks made me awake although i am still sleepy...
one of my classmate went to add me in the convo and there we go....
they made me laugh lar....its like a genuine laughter after a day...
i think i noe that there is another horny guy in my class,way worst then the first one....
they even made fun of me....haha...
all this 69 thingy....

my lappy just finish scaning thru the anti-virus thingy...
well,thanks to cunye,i mean his friend or whoever for the virus...
fortunately, he asked me to the scan thingy...better be safe then sorry...
i have just had my shower and now i am in the air-condition room...i am all simmer down after a long day...
now,i received another slap of my life not LITERALLY!!
i hate it when i got to know about it and naturally,i will be the one worrying....
i am worrying too much for myself in everything although even some of those worrying are parts of my parents responsibility....
i guess i have lost my responsibiity as a child instead it turn out to be a heavier one than what i am suppose to have....
i just don't know why they have no sense of urgency towards me...they do not know how it feels to worry something that i wasn't suppose to in the first place....
now i noe why parents dun want their children to worry bout anything....
I HATE IT SO MUCH that i wish to say those words but no matter what,i have to endure...
its just not fair!!!i am taking more responsibility than wat i am suppose too..
why do i have to worry about the outcome???
why does it have to turn out this way??why am i only the one????
why???why????why??????why????why???????!!!!!!!!!
sometimes,it is too much for me that i can't possibly handle it...it is giving me way too much heartache....
seriously,i am going crazzzyyyyy!!!!
i am going to turn in,i had enough of everything that happens....

OMGD!!!!i am tired...i took care of my niece on my own!!
i have to make up for yesterday tiredness and now, more to add....
my body is aching..my sis asked me whether i am going back tmrw and i said YES!
from her tone,i can tell that she wish that i would stay on to take care of her "princess" devil...
(sorry ar!!anak ko degil sgnt ar!!)haha....
guess wat,i trained her today not to use pampers and she didn't tell me that she pass out in her pants...urgh...
i played with her round the clock and some learnings too..
the torment part was the eating part cause she eat quite slow and will keep her food inside her mouth until i ask her to chew....she don't like to eat a proper dish...
all she want is sweet and snacks....all i can do is just to lie to her bout going to shop to buy sweets..
i can't finish telling u guys about my nieces tat i could even write a book about them
imagine that...her mummy and daddy(sister & brother in law) went to work...
i was alone...now she is beside me playing those kitchen toys and its very noisy..
aniwae,i guess my entries nowdays have a few pictures and i think it is quite interesting..
i will post some pics tmrw cause i don't have my phone cable with me...
i am dying for a D40 camera!!!...my hands are itching for those and my interest for photography is getting more and more....but it cost a bomb so i have to wait long long!!!!

apis-erm can u dun call my full name??sound so weird lar,just call me wat u used to call me,previously....aniwae,u r welcome!!!...my bro??haha...i will,soon...i thout i was the only one seeing it....~MR LAW ENFORCER~

SYAZ-did u spot ur friend cousin??haha..yeah,it is quite sad but things happen as wat u said....
i guess things happen for a reason..teachnology cannot be trusted??....i get wat u mean...

umairah- HI!!!!! = )

hmm....i am lazy to write about today...
i am tired and crazy as always...tats wat i m feeling...
i don't know if i saw somebody i knew which i have yet to met him for quite a long time...
i am missing my friends whom i am used to be close with...i guess i miss them pretty much...
before i go to bed...i want to put my smile away and replace it with a better smile for tmrw
= )
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white lies...
"she use to lie often" but it was for the sake of someone....
wanted the person she loves to be loved by the person he loves....
tada,kimi wo aisheteru.....
oyasumi nasai!!! opps it is suppose to be ohayo cos it is in the morning!!!

ha~second entry of the the day...
aniwae,i have the urge to tell about what my brother encounter when he was working today...
he was at the checkpoint doing something...i dun noe but it happened that his friends and him saw a down syndrome girl who have lost her way at that checkpoint...
it was sad....my bro was telling me that he held her hand as in like follow him to somewhere...hmm..when i was small,he didn't hold my hands ar...haha...okay,i m crapping...
i don't know whether her parents is reckless about it or wat...but this kind of special people need an extra attention...
as i was saying, they gave her a meal to eat...
she understands what are those policeman talking...
she doesn't have anything to check on her identification...
the most saddest part was that she have tears rolling down her cheeks...
my bro didn't know whether that was a tears or wat but it seems that she is crying...
just imagining,a helpless soul wandering around with nothing and not knowing wat to do...
although we have those technology but when they scan her thumbprint,there was an error and it could not be identified...
i am sure that down syndrome have the same facial features but i am not sure bout the thumbprints that cause the error...
it is so sad...i don't know bout what happen next or where she was send to at the moment cause her parents or guardian have yet to pick her up...
i was thinking that maybe her guardian/parents was abandoning her??...i have this feelings...can't be that somebody let a poor children to wander around...its not making any sense!!
i asked my bro whether his friends cried or wat??
he said,one of his friends eyes were watery....awww...
my bro was even feeling pity for that gal...awww...
my bro can't bare to continue with those story,he was just feeling sad???
i erno....

sorry,it seems that i may exaggerate but i can't stand inhumane people...whether its reckless or not....wat if were u??she didn't choose to be born like that to be treated his way...aiyoh...we really have this kind of people in the world!!

ouh ya!!!a shout out to those man who is going to NS soon....haha...
to jia hao...i will miss u for sure...but dun worry, u can enjoy once u r done with it....time will fly with just a blink...
to apis,aiyoh!!why are u making such a long list of speech on your blog??you are not going for a war okay,u r going to NS...in 9 days time is it??i dunno....cmon ~MR LAW ENFORCER~
I bet i will see you soon without those fringe of urs...
i bet u guys will have "fun"....hehe...
just joking...this is part of life as a man in singapore..there's no way u can avoid....
to tao hin....just shut ur trap hor....u will get in soon,after you r done with ur school...
i will see how it will be like for u...enjoys!..
= p

farewell guys....

i went to the zoo today due to some family carnival by my cousin company...
ouh ya..while i was on my way,i saw alot of my schoolmates frm the 4E of my batch...
those who were in the same 4E malay class with me...
wat a surprise....i saw somebody that i wasn't expected...
the weather was very hot and warm...
lets get straight to the point hor...
i can't wake up early nowdays,no matter wat time i slept...
it didn't use to be like this...i mean early as in 6 am...
got to do something before the school started...

the event helpers were cute guys...hehe...
i think the emcee of the day was quite hilarious...
those nephews don't let me go back home....
they were crying while i wanna get out of mrt...they want to follow me...
haha...


erm...i look retard can??...haha
this nephew was my favourite and he was the one who cried when i want to alight at my station...







he was playing with my hair and was laughing at me without any reason...
those kids really make my day although they are another bunch of devils.....
It was a chaos but i enjoy alot...
ouh i saw this rp guy,marie friend and i waved at him although i dunno him....haa~
then there was this bunch of guys whom we saw for the whole day lar...
they was sitting behind us...one of the was fixing the ballon and when it burst,he said "oh mak ko,kepala bapak ko!!"HE WAS SHOCKED....
haha...can't stand it...i nearly LMAO but i was eating my lunch....
then when i was waiting for the shuttle bus and they went inside the bus...i was walking over to take a look on something and one of them wave but i look at him and just walk away....haha~

after i got back,i went to library and borrow some books on VB codes and Photoshop to read during the holidays...
i was reading it a bit after shower and i fell asleep...
i was totally tired....one thing for sure is that i smile and laugh more than any other days...
= )
ouh ya....I saw your friend,SYAZ!!!!
I DIDN'T MANAGE TO SNAP A SHOT OF IT BUT I SAW YOUR FRIEND COUSIN...hahaha!!!
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OH GREAT!!!!
MY NIECE JUST POUR IN SOMETHING INSIDE THE DISH AND I WAS THE ONLY PERSON WHO HAVE YET TO EAT...
I FOUND IT OUT AS I WAS ABOUT TO EAT.....
I DON'T KNOW WHETHER IT IS EDIBLE
I LEFT NOTHING TO EAT!!!!
THIS IS MAKING MY HEART MORE PAIN!!!!!!!
IT IS SPOILING MY DAY TO THE MAX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
T_T
SOMEBODY PLEASE STAB THOSE KNIFE ON ME!!!!

i was totally upset with myself!!!
i got a C for my cognitive module,i felt so stupid.....
its just like a hope being crush and being thrown to the rubbish bin...
at this point of time,i will make any excuse to cover this stupidity of mine...
why didn't i do it properly that day?
was i even thinking straight??
i was skipping alot of qns...
i always said to myself that there's another chances but the fact is,i can't let it go just like that untill i am convince by myself....
it took me quite a time to convince myself,no matter how credible it is...
i think,i am expecting too much of myself....TRUE enough!!
i just realise that...
erm...i do have regrets for not coming to school today =(
well talking about regrets,i have alot of them in my life....
why do things have to happen such at a fast pace??


i guess i don't want to pon school anymore!!!
my nieces came over and it was a chaos...
the thing is,there was nobody at home!!.
my mum went to the market.....i have to take care of them...
bath them and they fought in the bathroom...
having to drag those devils out of my room...
they don't want to walk and ask me to pull them...WTH!!
i felt worse than a slave...
to stop those fights between them...
trying to cook breakfast for them and they sneak into my room and press my computer keyboard...
one of them don't want to wear t-shirt that i wanted her too...
i was like offering to go to the playground and she wore it....
i have yet to eat my lunch or aka dinner..all i ate was a noddle that i share it with my mum....
my sis went back n eat a proper meal and there was no rice left!!!
i had to cook it when i have yet to eat....
omgd...she was like "hey go and cook the rice!!" as she chew her food in her mouth
i am sympathising to myself...
how i wish i could slap that face....
i was venting anger in myself...
the more i am down...why do they have to spoil my day!!!!
*head down*HAIZ!!!
tmrw goin to zoo...YAY!!!
smell those animal manure...haha...watever..i m crazy and this is the only thing i can cheer myself up...
today i took care of my nieces but tmrw its the nephews...my cousins!!!

okay...i didn't went to school today...
i slept at around 1 something and i can't wake up today...
i took me awhile to figure out tat today is friday...
aniwae,its fate u noe...god noes i m tired and i need a break so he purposely make me not to wake up...so its been hard on me.....hahaha...wat am i blabering about???...
oh mine...i have 1 day of extra holiday....~hehe~
i wasn't planning to pon today but wat can i do,i woke up extremely late....
now...i m planning to cook somethng..maybe oknomiyaki ar cos my mum have hint me..."hey u guys are not cooking the japanese pancake anymore is it??"
i look at her and ask her,"why?u like it?u want me to make for you??"
haha...
aniwae....holiday is here!!!!YAY!!!!...
there is so much things to do....i mean to plan...
wondering how my team today will cope without me cos i bet dom is not gonna be there...i guess but i dunno...poor jobelle,she is the only girl today..
i bet if i go online,they will go "u pangseh us..."
i have enough of last wednesday....so i m giving u guys BACK!!!
hah~~

on the very first day of every month at 12 o'clock, a bell will rings, i think it is from one of the church around my neighbourhood....
i am hype up today, after being down for a few days...