i m having a running nose and a block nose...
this is NO FUN!!!!
i keep sneezing....
now my voice is so weird....aaaaa.....eeeeee....
aniwae after class, my the remaining people were singing along with the Christmas song that was played..it was funny...
people were so hyper in my class.... i m hyper too....i kept laughing non-stop...
ten went to city hall to HMV...ten just walk around...we r suppose to jog but i was not in a mood n it was raining so we just went somewhere else...

somehow i see that history is repeating itself...
i was left alone n endure those blame that was put on me...
it was pretty lonely but i didn't get suck down because of it...
putting a brave front and just hope that these days get over me because i could no longer stand it...
there was tears but i kept it in the dark....
its over but i will always remember those days that made me feel that i was worth nothing after all those time of help..
sad to say,i felt like a trash....
shit happens!!!...
yawn*....i m so tired...wanna turn in.....gd nite....

i m so so so disappointed in myself....
WHY WHY WHY!!!!
my "negative" is becoming so strong in my mind rather than my "positive"....
i can feel that i m getting angry quite fast nowadays....
rite now i m feeling sick....having sore throat, ulcers and body ache..i think i m going to get a fever soon cause body ache is one of the symptoms for me......
what more somebody have to add salt to my wound.. my sis forget her things and asked me to bring over her lecture notes so i was totally piss off!!!!...
i need to brush off those ideas that i want to do while walking to school just to accommodate to her request...
she had quiz at 9 and keep asking me to get there quickly...who's not mad??TELL ME!!!

then maths was pretty sucks...i went off at before meeting 3...i m so stress up and after working on it mostly n lost...i just leave....
i noe its wasted cos i was working on that worksheet abit the day before then i leave all of them to my group.....


!@#%^&*()!#$%^!@#$%^!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*sneeze*
i think i m getting sorethroat soon!!!...need to prevent myself from getting it....urgh..
aniwae i m at the skool cafe....i runaway 15mins before the third meeting..i am so disappointed with myself but i really can't stand it anymore...
i did the wksht the day before but i don't even understand a single thing..how stupid i am!!!...
aniwae our maths faci didn't come, another faci replace...he was abit boring, the teaching was like i dunnoe..he expect us to look at the qns n the first meeting which we ad no idea bout the problem...
maybe he should change the way he teach....
stupid maths...the others wnt to T3..hmm..should follow them if i knew it was this hard...
gtg...

credits: fiza lappy

moday blues!!!!..
science= sux!!!....
i was so not into the pblm for today...
yvonnes's was so stress that she went crazy....LOL..
then the whole class was watching hindustan movie....we were watching kuch kuch hota hai...THANKS TO AZRI!!..that was like 8 years ago or watever, i can't rmbr...
beam brought sweets to class...i think i still prefer the chocolate one that he gave me but still the blueberries was not bad..
2 of our classmates cried....i don't know whats the reason but still...cheer up people!!! = )
ain was sick today...accompanied her to school...i went out early specially for her....
she was felling at the end of the day but she's down with fever rite now...get well soon aite...

one thing i've noticed, the people around me are getting sick but i was not affected at all...strange!!..since when my immune system is very strong...i thout it was quite weak wen i was in sec skool....aniwae, i dun want to get sick and be sick either...

azri is a vivo virgin!!!!LOL.....

so tmrw is maths n i was doing the wksht for like 2 hours after having my dinner and finished with rj...imagine that!!!!...no one wants to do that! except for me....I CAN DO IT!!!! *meditate*
those worksheets have really drains me.....

the future is really scaring me....

Sometimes I wonder what lies ahead
How long till my hunger is fed
They say it's hard to make it in this part of town
So many people on this merry-go-round

Some folks try astrology
Some turn to crystal balls
To find an answer,
To get through it all
I just fall on my knees and I try to pray
In the silence I can hear Him say

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time

I often feel like I'm two steps behind
Somebody must have moved that finish line
There are a thousand reasons
Why I should give up
But I'm stubborn in the things I believe

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign

'cause maybe there's another plan
One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see

The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
Everything in its time
Everything in its time

ULCERS!!!!!!!...urgh....i hate it...i m having difficulties brushing my teeth because it will come in contact with the toothbrush and thats where pain comes in!!!!...
i even ate salty stuff to get rid of it as fast as i can...although its painful...
i dun care....NO PAIN NO GAIN...


pple who have yet to be at the receiving end
city of angels

friday
it was such a slacking day....
as usual, school was fun with my classmates....
the topic was okay but there's nuthing much to find...
we start early and end at 3.30 but we slack in class until 4.30 pm....
went to IMM to get FOX hoodies and a slipper at world of sports....i think i m getting another FOX hoodies of another colour.....

aniwae as promised, the picture that was taken on thursday at school library after school...







we took a class pic after yvonne perfomances..

(hi, i m stacey or NO i mean stanley!!!)lol...its one of yvonne's line...

basically we were fooling around and this was the remaining people left so we camwhore and people were looking at us....i guess my group was rite about the metaphors for my class....ZOO...
we were reminded for several times to keep quiet....LOL...BEAM IS SUCH A MEANIE!!!







we wanted to go to sembawang park but ended up eating our dinner at banquet and then we were too tired...we went to the stadium and slack and story-telling and RUN...well not me, I m wore a skirt!!!...it was a fun discussion to chat about for hours and hours....





i m tired to know about it and even entertain...

okay lets make a fast entry here..i m freaking tired and want to play the sims 2!!!!....
as requested, last weekend went to this freak girl house...we were having the pot luck thingy...
by the time we reached her house...her chicken still sitting on the sink...
aniwae then help out and did some foolish things in the kitchen...i think our mouth moves aot rather than our hands...i cooked spaghetti and she cooked grilled chicken and pudding that is "TERBANTUT"...lol....u missed out effah!!!...nvmd..NEXT TIME k!!!!...
here are the pics.....
















so today school was so much fun...camwhores with classmates...watch yvonne performance that was so funny...half of the class was supporting her....great skit lar!!!!..."such a mean boy!!!"....lol...
went out of the classroom for the whole day for today module..a brand new environment....okay lets wait for pictures.....FIZA!!!!

was youtubing the whole night yesterday after finishing my RJ...
some were funny videos of those juniors and i saw YUSUF!!!...hha~

then a video that was played during the graduation night and i rmbr vividly that was on my bdae on the day of graduation night then i looked at my class montage which me and umairah made....i thought of editing it abit here and there but too bad..all the pics are gone!!!...!@#$%
i think i m collecting all the pics of all my friends and developing it..i think i have more than 100 photos...W26P,W35Q and secondary school days.....then will put it on my memories photo album...

i was missing all my sec school friends and i had a dream that i meet all my friends....after watching the class montage before i went to sleep...

the fact also i missed my school but i think they are biased towards the 5N...THe school only made for the sec4's...like wtf!!!..i m angry....but watever..the sec 4's dun rox like their seniors!!!LOL

^this crap sux!!ouh n the those two guys who were talking at the end were the juniors..the guy with that dark complexion..i rmbr talking to him wen he was in sec2 when we took our awards...lol...


^this should be the funniest of all!!!! but this is the 4NT Class...


somehow people leave without reasons....
instantly, we became strangers...

today i finished early...
i did my rj before 7 pm, right after i woke up from my 1 hr nap...
actually it wasn't meant to be a nap but my mum asking for help, i was just acting like i m sleeping but the actual fact is tat i m trying to escape...then i ended up sleeping for an hour....

now i m looking at tmrw problem....
tmrw ain not coming = (
aniwae just now wen i went back frm school, i saw this guy whom i dun really like that much but to me he is such a joker...
the moment he talk..i will laugh...i swear i dunnoe but to me he is funny...i was like smiling to myself..the way he does things just doesn't go with his age..maybe thats the funny part...HOHOHO...
I M CRAZY!!!!!~
like TOTALLY!!!!lol...

today skool was fun.
ut2 for A112 was better and i mean it!! BETTER!!!
so today was the same module as today UT....we were doing about number systems and somehow the japanese 10 10 10 10 10 thingy came out, all of us crack in laughter...somehow during the presentation, there was indirectly a discrimination of handicap people with 2 fingers n so forth...
then i was telling some of my team mates bout the days in pri skool on how i do my maths counting and the abacus part...it was funny..seriously...i laugh and laugh till i knock my fore head on the chair..i swear it is in pain rite now!!!!...LOL...

i m abit high today at skool and was so so happy...
my friend even thought that i drank the wrong stuff that made me so high...
i was making jokes n stuff and beam n me keep stepping on each other feet accidentally or purposely...people throwing the pack of toothpick at me....people pressing my keyboard n i did those to beam tooo...hehe =p
alot of my classmate are getting sick n the SICK AIR is circulating in the class...i hope those people get better...
ouh to those who are going to T3 tmrw...slamat ar korng....n AZRI..shut up!!!hahaha~
all my frens is going n i feel abit lonely...now i dun feel like going to school cos they r going to T3...
NOT FAIR~ HMPH!!!!
aniwae its not really totally done cos the project will only get done on early 2008...haha!!!!

sorry guys no pics...i m so gonna sleep early today!!!! hohoho

^ these two people are some funny bunch of friends i had during secondary school well there's still others who never failed to make me laugh and spare me from those bullying...
the days where we went to and from school laughing while on our way EVEN in the morning...well i think the one who can't stop laughing was ME....

ouh n there's something in common...all of us have or falling moments in school...me, eng sin tried to grab my bag and i fell along with my chair while holding on tight to my bag like a roller coaster....
des,fell on the school stairs while going down to the science lab..she was spouting vulgarities and complaining...ten like a bumper car, she fell from one slippery flight of stairs..
effah...ermmm..i can't remember quite well but she fell during P.E and cause quite a bruise on her knee..

LIKE I SAID....*SIGH* MEMORIES LARR...its been like a year we have yet to meet our classmates....
i hope all of them are doing well...one thing that i miss about them is their gags and jokes....






call me evil or what...but i have something in mind long ago which is to lost in contact with all my friends and leave for another country then come back several years later and see how live have change....maybe that's where i could evaluate the worth of friendship with my friends for all those things that we went through and living without them..
it feels like going to the future after being lost in the dark....lol..
lets watch how it unfolds in the future.... = )

its not that i have something against life...i love how life have for me but sometimes in order to appreciate things u need to learn the hard way which make u feel that they are very valuable in your life...


time flies and i learned to let go of grudges and think wisely
no matter how painful that it have cause to my life
living through those unmemorable times

long entry huh??...well i noe tat....
its just that sometimes i don't like people to see me in the lights where i m facing difficulty..sympathy is just a burden to me...i may be laughing all along but there's a point where all these thing comes to a pause for a moment..

raya dah nak basi OI!!!!..lol..so random...
but i think for me, its officially over...padahal kuih kat rumah blum luak2...
i think only the first few days is raya..this year was more towards family...friends, not really cos i didn't even go out with my frens during raya...

aniwae, was watching morning live forum on KBS world...my morning favourite show that is full of interesting stuff...
they show us about a quadruplets which is 9 months-old...so cute...3 girls and a boy...
the youngest like to make noise n will yell if their parents did not feed them...
the eldest is more mature then the other siblings...
the only boy likes to whine....
its so funny due their joy of the family which is the quadruplets...
you noe its an advantage..cos which woman wanna have a double pain wen giving birth...might as all at one shot....lol...
of course the difficult part is the stage where those kids grew up....
then they took a photo shoot of their quadruplets...sooooo cute!!!


blogger is being such a pain in the neck cos i was uploading my pics thru blogger then the msg error came out..nice timing!!!!....will upload the pics another day....

i have not been blogging a few days since school holiday simply because there's nothing much that i wanna tell...

the holiday were spent to hang out with friends whom i have not meet for quite a long time...
*sigh* MEMORIES!!!!...walking down the lane just made me wanna go back but not the suffering part...aniwae like i said, memories are meant to be remember and kept...
we were laughing our arse off...if only the world have a camera that capture those moment of us...

aniwae, ytd went to novena square 2,velocity ten to dhoby gahut and lastly to plaza sing with fiza n her fren...i went to Dorothy Perkins to check on the clothes but nothing attracts me....i guess bugis will be my next destination....muuahaha...effah, if u have time, accompany me ok??...hehe...
last nite i slept at 3am n woke up at 8.30 today....its holiday but still waking up is another matter...
will upload pics from the previous week n current...


teka teki trivia:
pintu apa kalau ditolak sepuluh orang pun tidak boleh dibuka??

hey hey hey......HAHA...
siapa pandai, sila jawab...tengok siapa yg kena?...ouh dan orng-orng yg TERTENTU telah saya beri teka-teki ini tolong DIAM!!!....aha~
sekian.....
TERIMA KASIH!!!!


once again, my dream have been carved out
till that that comes

this was on monday...
my science faci who is"Daphne-look-a-like"
it was the last day for her to teach our class cos she is changing her career path....
it was abit disappointing to know about it...
our last day with her...gonna miss her...



school was okay today although our facilitator didn't come...
the replacement faci was quite cool....i like the way he facilitate us....we did debate and arguments everywhere...it was quite funny...
can we have another week with him???...LOL....
then saw Eugene while on my way to school...so we were chatting and found out something,to my surprise..i thout i was the only one having that thought but he even have it too....
ooooooooooooooooooonnnnnnnnnnneeeeeeeeeeee more day to holiday!!!!!!....
i am so gonna miss my class and friends in school....*sigh*