what about me.
22:09
Monday, December 31, 2007
let me reserve this post for the last day of 2007....currently, i m home sick...i m at my eldest sis house...i planned to go back after dawn but then my sis told me just go back home tmrw...what can i do, just to follow her instruction...if i have opted not to go to my sis house, i could have register for my car lessons...T_Targh!!!why!!!...my twin sis have already set the date to take the test in march...i don't care, its either i go this weekend or this week....i've lost my mind for a moment today...i don't know why...something to end this year with a sweet thank you to myself for getting this far...omgd...i m such a narcissist...just kidding..lolwhen i'm weary
you gave me strength
and you're often by my side
now i want to say
THANK YOU
and,because there's you
that's why i'm happy
this is for you
the day that tears come
flowing down again
before it dries up
you hold my hand in the dark
silently standing by me,
thank you
you're more weary than me right
more worried than me
because there's you
that's why i am able to stand again
i'm often very thankful
what i want to give you there's so much but
in reality it's not possible
its difficult
believe me,take my hand
if we are together
we are able to make it forever~
the day that the tears come
flowing down again before it dries up
you hold my hand in the dark
silently standing by me,
thank you
never again will i be weary
even if i am,there will be you by my side
i need not say it and
you know what i mean
because there is someone(you) here
i am very happy
Anyway its a song which i like and the words are meaningful enough...
18:19
Sunday, December 30, 2007
i think its gonna rain soon..
the people at the void deck are blasting all sort of hindi songs cause there is a wedding going on..
how i wish it is snowing (but it would be the end of the world if singapore is snowing...)
argh....how great to feel the snow, my friend over at new york told me that it is freezing cold and it is snowing...
well,doesn't matter..my world is snowing when i listen to those winter songs...
holiday have been lifeless...not enjoying that much because i need to take care of my niece..
didn't have much time of my own except for weekends..i just went back home and rest...thats all..
on monday back to my sis house again...
anyway, was watching exploring human body(some korean variety show) about tears...its quite educational....
btw, why do i feel that the episodes seems to be making me cry after seeing those guys(슈퍼주니어) crying...눈물...
if it is a voyage, it would have been a courageous adventure
22:01
Saturday, December 29, 2007
was rushing the whole morning...actually suppose to meet fiza at 12 but then she suggest earlier...i just woke up and wanted to take a bath...i was at my sis house but then i need to go back to cck which is my home to put all the things cause i don't wanna go out bringing my laptop and paper bag...i barely open my eyes cause i slept at 3 am ytd and woke up at 8.40 today...nowadays, my eyes swell because its damn itchy and i don't know..each time i sleep over at my sis house, i will get flu or something....she need to change the bedsheets that i am sleeping on...went to mustaffa to get something BUT!!!! to no avail....i should have pray before i went so that i won't make a waste trip...then went to bugis to get my little miss twins and Fiza' little miss stubborn...while on our back home....i saw zichen....yar!!!that former classmate of mine who is so quiet andha~ not bad...from basketball to tennis..cool!!! didn't noe that he play tennis too..i can still he recognize the way he walk...didn't approach him cause it seems that he is enjoying the "alone moment"..lol...watever it is...urgh!!!...went to bugis and saw this sweater hoodies at dorothy perkins tat cost $46 but i think i will get it next month...can't afford it this month..then i was seeing those online shop at emall.sg, its way cheaper after those import fees...its for $27...HAHAHAHA...SOON!!!
LOL..i almost forget to publish this post cause i was looking at the online shopping...anyway, i've just got consent from my parents and we are gonna apply the driving lesson too...i m taking private because i can't afford the time....
23:14
Friday, December 28, 2007
let me see...in these few days time, it will be a new year!!!2008!!! here i come...lollets recap..the year have been fine for me...there's up and down but there's never a particular incident that have affect me that badlyouh god..i feel so choke after eating that 3 tablets that my sis gave me...anyway, new year resolutions -save more!!!!!MORE!!!! so i can follow my sis to hong kong or australia!!!!the invitation is out but $$$$ is needed for plane ticket!!!-work hard!!!!-have plan aheadi feel like laughing right now but i can't...my heart is laughing out loud but i just can't laugh out loud...1 more week before school re-open...
i'll be happy to go to school because we left 4 more weeks of schooling before we go for our holiday...
but...we will not be in the same class cos we r going to study our own course..urgh...
its okay, we can always meet...
NEW START!!!!...i think i am cutting my hair(actually i accidentally put head instead of hair...LOL..silly!!!)i was asking azri whether i should cut my hair?...he said just cut cos its the new year...fresh start..new year is still the same for me cause every day is a new day....nothing gonna change unless u work hard...
it is so heartwarming..okay till then...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!i am feeling extremely happy right now..i don't know why...well there need not be reason for everything = )memories stain with tears.....
00:22
Tuesday, December 25, 2007
01:16
Monday, December 24, 2007
my flu is totally crazy..one moment nothing and the next moment, i will be sneezing NON-STOP...
woah!!!its christmas eve!!!HOHOHO!!!....IN FACT i don't celebrate christmas....
if u guys realise, in my entries, i don't really express myself that much...
i would always write about the day and the thoughts i have for the day...not more than that...
the reason is, i am not a warm person. I don't express my feelings towards people cause i keep it...
for example, i don't know why i don't like to see my sister crying infront of me, even my other siblings...I HATE..i don't know why....
but one day, i just realise, maybe i don't like to see these people crying because they are the closest person in my life...
each time my sis cry, i will ask her to go to the toilet and cry...just hate the sight of crying...
even when i feel sad, i won't cry...i will hide!!!...yar i noe i m cruel...
i don't like my emotions to control me....
i think there was one point of my life where i feel that all these emotions have to stop cause it is so overwhelming..
if u ask me i follow heart or brain...my answer is brain...heart comes later...
i m even being cruel to myself..i noe..but without this i won't get this far
i think i better get to bed..*yawn*BED!!!HERE I COME!!!!! = )
21:58
Sunday, December 23, 2007
its been 3 days since i had flu....i can't stop sneezing....it was okay but the moment i sneeze, i will start to sneeze and sneeze again...ENDLESSLY!!and medicine at home is OUT OF STOCK!!!lol...and i am so lazy to go to the doctor at the polyclinic with the long Q..its been a long time i went to polyclinic.the last time i went was in sec 4 because i have stomach flu and the idiot doctor press on my tummy....MOREOVER, my stomach feels like a washing machine and i can dump it on the spot or vomit it out...anyway my auntie and cousin came down to singapore...they are from KL...then went to my eldest auntie house ad we had a big feast..there was a large spread of food!!!..initially it wasn't meant to be a party then it is a PARTY, a birthday party and a welcoming party for my cousin...the food that were laid on the table were-finger food(nuggets,calamari, sausage)-spaghetti-mutton curry-indian rojak-cocktail-mee goreng mamak-chocolate cake-honey chicken-swiss roll(strawberry and vanilla cream)-yellow glutinous rice(to eat with the mutton curry)
tis is wat i meant a large spread of food!!!i only ate the finger food and spaghetti!!!..i was tooooooo full to eat other things...argh!!! i want to go to sentosa with my cousins tmrw!!!!....they are going to take the luge and the carlsberg thingy(watsoever it is call, errno)...its been a long time since i went to sentosa...have to miss this chance because i pick my niece up from school..Nowadays i have alot of family gathering....there will be one on christmas and a zoo outing on wednesday...cool rite!!!!....BUT I THINK i m not going for the zoo cos i hate zoo!!!...smell of animals manures its my father side..i love my cousins...those married brother cousin are sort DOT!!!...they are funny bunch of people and good looking(or maybe to me)....haha...all my sis and bro cousin are married except for a few like one or two...
13:21
Saturday, December 22, 2007
saturday = booooriiing!!! des just sms me...going for a jog in the evening.. IDIOT!!!YTD she was suppose to jog with me but no reply from her...well it's SOOOO her..but still we r going today.... i had a running nose ytd n followed by a sore throat.... i can't even sleep, i was tossing and turning on the bed with eyes close.. anyway, my days was spend looking at the forums and online shop... THEN i found this toddler pic...sooo cute!!! 
credits: from someone cyworld...cute rite!!!
then while i was on this online market, i was attracted with this watch!!!
20:25
Friday, December 21, 2007
22:52
Wednesday, December 19, 2007
i've not been blogging because simply i have nothing to talk about...my usual days during the holiday would be -WAKE UP-resting at my eldest sis home-have my lunch-take my nieces back frm school-play with my nieces-feed her-play with my nieces AGAIN!!!-watch tv and then she dozes off-my eldest sis n my bro-in law will be back by then n have dinner-then to the computer n chat(fyi i didn't brought my laptop along with me so officially i can survive without laptop for several days )-sleep...then the next day and back to square one.....SO BORING!!! but i get paid for doing that....i don't know how long more but i guess for 1 more yearsince i started to take care of my niece, i have been starting to sleep quite early and wake up quite early....DES!!!DES!!!!WHERE R u???....When are we going for a jog??btw SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA!!!i want sweets!!!!suddenly i want to eat something sweet..for the past few days, i have been searching on the net on the haircut that i wanna have or MAYBE shall i keep it just as it is??i was thinking, I guess i can tolerate my 1st and 2nd nieces but NOT my 3rd niece....3rd niece= super naughty!!!..if she wants it MEANS she want it....if don't have it, she will cry...she likes to compromise with me but would never fulfill it...i asked her to finish up her meal but she ate a little n straight away eat her chocolates...WHAT CAN I DO!!!JUST TO GIVE IN!!!...she will bite and pinch me as and when she like....she is only scared of her father but not others...i dunnoe how but i m still ALIVE RITE NOW!!!okay pple gtg... = )greater achievement= greater risks
22:05
Sunday, December 16, 2007
23:40
Thursday, December 13, 2007
I m sad… My cognitive faci is gonna leave for Germany and follow her husband as he need to work over there for a year. Anne gave our class cupcakes, she only gave our class the cupcakes but not to others…since it may BE her last day with us, we didn’t have presentation. All we did was FMT was worksheet and then uploaded it. We finished our class by 12 and then we head for lunch at pizza hut with half of the classmates. UT was okay, manage to finish it. I SWEAR AZRI IS A TRUE IDIOT!!!
HE KEEPS HITTING MY HEAD WITH THAT BLOWN PLASTIC, he will always argue back with me when I said something…he push my head away when I was taking a class pic n was standing beside me…I can sense another ENG SIN in him who likes to bully me…
OUH EUGENE!!!!DON'T FORGET MY LUNCH!!!...LOL...
Ouh ya, just now after lunch with the class, I went back home to take my clothes then went to bought my niece dinner. HOW ON EARTH I can see that someone!!!....IN THE FIRST PLACE, I SHOULD NOT EVEN TURN AND LOOK….the moment I saw that person, I was like is that HIM??...then I quickly turn around….aniwae it was such a long time stories that just remain as my memories that I can laugh about but somehow the feeling of hatred have yet to be gone but surely, its fading.
Without me realizing it…
In a state of denial…
I m leaving this path behind…
Time to Wake up and shape up!!!!!!!
PASSED!!!!
Tmrw I need to attend my nieces Christmas party..i m missing home = (
^another one!!
^see, what they did to me!!!mean pple!!beam n azri!!!making pple disappear of the pics
^beam n khai tried to act retard!!!
^the cupcakes that our faci gave us!!!
^the coke bottle that i drank
randome pics frm the previous week and on wednesday vivo trip...
22:50
Tuesday, December 11, 2007
i m piss off!!!!thanks to my bro...idiot..lately,he have been making my life difficult..he only thinks about himself...IDIOT!!IDIOT!!!aniwae, had a fun day at school cause i can't simply stop arguing with azri...forever we'll have something against each other...after UT, took a pic and received a chocolate toffee from my maths faci...a random guy...so no more maths until 2008 comes!!!...hohoho...
^dian blocked my face!!! so i m invisible...guess which random faci i m talking about...
so unorganized!!!sorry ain, can't come to your performances...
21:46
Sunday, December 09, 2007
22:28
Friday, December 07, 2007
credits: from someone cyworld...cute rite!!!
