what about me.
22:17
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
let me share with you guys something.....i felt pretty glad right now cause i am being appreciated...since the second year have start, i have new classmates and sometimes things may not be the way you want it to be..pple with diff attitude,diff working style and stuff....all i did was trying to adapt with the change as fast as i could without considering my interest...its just like going with the flow..i would be lying if sometimes there's hatred build between team mates but there's always forgive and forget...today i felt glad because my help and contribution was being appreciated for the past 2 days...anyway the main point is i felt that it is the normal things i usually do and i was being myself, its just that someone appreciate the help given to me...i figure out that a THANK YOU is a very big thing to me although it may be a minor stuff....
21:15
did i mention i feel like strangling my Friday facilitator!!!she is such a BIG IDIOTIC UNREASONABLE faci....she gave me a Cagain after the first problem....i don't mind if she gave me a C for the mistakes that i make but she gave me a C and said that i look lost.....WTH!!!i was the one who was doing the worksheet, i was doing on some of the research...how could i be looking lost when i was the one who finish the DAMN WORKSHEET!!!....thats the first reason....another reason is that she didn't come for the second problem and another faci was facilitating....i got a B!!! for goodness sake, how do you explain about me being lost while i was the one covering up for my team mates and explaining the whole thing!!!!FREAKING IDIOT!!!...i m so not satisfied with what you have against me.....ouh n i saw this freaking faci...i swear i feel like killing her but who cares, she is not WORTH OF MY TIME!!!....anyway, watever with that faci, i had a faci replacing my module just for today...she was funny with sense of humor....i love the way she goes to every group and make the discussion interesting with some sugar and spice....i had my fair share of laughter today and pretty satisfied with the UT today but damn!!! i got miscalculation on my 6 marks question !!!!...GAH!!!watever...its the pass..
20:37
Monday, April 28, 2008
lets make it short...i need to study for my UT later...today is the hungriest day of all!!!...LOLi didn't eat in school...all i did was to survive with water...luckily i ate a sandwich before i went to skool..from 8.30- 6 pm all i did was drink n drink plain water...my friends were all busy to go down so yeah just stay in class n watch little rascals after finishing my work...when i get back home i ate and now i m having hiccups and my stomach feels weird...
my brain is corrupted with DNA,RNA,BACTERIA!!!!....
15:01
Sunday, April 27, 2008
its Sunday!!...how i hate sunday cause of the weather but its the nature and no one can change it..these few days, the weather have been pretty unpredictable..anyway, just now i followed my mum to limbang to transfer money to my bro...it was warm all the way and wen i went to NTUC, it was cold..i sneeze alot of time..i can't adapt to the change in temp instantly...while i was on my way back home, i kept on sneezing for like a minute intervals under the scorching hot sun..anyway, here i am studying for tmrw understanding test...then i m gonna have another understanding test for another module on Tuesday....2 consecutive days!!!!then wed= free day and Thursday= holiday...those 2 days, i m gonna do research for my PP cos i m having difficulties whether to do course related or non-related...somehow today there's something that my mum can't stop laughing about....i swear i hadn't saw her laugh like that for the whole of my life.....btw, i found my pencil box after i lost is for a year!!!!the pencil case is handmade, my sis bought it for me when she went to Melbourne..i get back my one and only sec skool name tag...i used to have an extra name tag, i bought it as my old name tag skool logo almost disappear...but damn!!! one of those days, i was holding onto my name tag and it drop into the drain!!!...gahhh!!! further more its the brand new!!!...after tat i wore the old one which i used it since i was in sec 1.....
^ u can't see the school logo anymore...!!!this name tag have been with me for 7 years!!ahhh!!! its 3+ rite now.....my VJ scene!!!!...gtg.... = )
20:33
Friday, April 25, 2008
thursday-lab sessioni seriously had no clue about the diluting part....i catch no ball anyway gonna catch up on it laterthe solutions and the copper sulphate powder is not that fascinating to handle with...we had a blue glove at the chem lab while the RDNA tech lab have white one like those dentist gloves....
Fridayi swear i was not in my best moodi m sleepy and i was dragging a heavy heart with me to schooli was forcing myself now and then just to forget about how i m feeling and just get done with the day...talk with some old friend of mine whom i've not been contact for sometimes...i swear i had no idea and condolences to you my friend..u r asking me what can i do if i knew bout it??wat a qns!!!!how i wish i could smack u on ur head if u r infront of me...well let me tell u this,my friend, i've known you for quite sometime and as a friend i can't sit and just look from a distance to see you losing your love ones.i can't possibly stop god from taking people lives but the least i can do is to be there for a friend.hope to see you soon!!!take care = )ouh yeah so i was providing lunch for my dearest friend since thursday...i woke up in the early morning to make something for lunch break at school..so i made 2 sets of egg mayo sandwich and potato salad for them but they don't eat vegetables so i ate the potato salad by myself.hehe...
then after school met my sis at lot1...THIS HAVE TO BE THE BEST DAY OF MY LIFE!!! i mean as in "BEST"!!!....GET IT!!!i met her later cos i end my class slightly late....so yeah...while on my way to met my sis, i saw someone from the past!!!THANKS AR!!!...initially,i should not have doubt my feelings wats gonna happen...wen i was in the MRT...I was thinking wat IF!!! i saw this guy frm my past and bla bla bla...ten as i was about to tap my ezlink to get out, TADAAAAA!!...i saw HIM!!!i wonder why do i get the blood rushing feeling like i used tooo...anyway i don't think he saw me....he was walking with his girlfriend and i was behind him...i was trying to avoid him so i walk as fast as i could...what happen in the past is a laughing stock to me right now...i was seriously blind and THANK GOD!!! my eyes are clear than ever now....i guess confide helps mebut somehow the timing always sucks!!all by myself thinking what should i do and what should i not when i am the one who is having problem..
19:12
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Damn!!! I m so hungry...the last time i ate was at 12.30 in the afternoon...
anyway, yeah updating again cause there's lot of april babies and i've yet to wish a few of them....to my primary school friends which is NORASMIDAH and Nureffah!!!...happy 19th bdae.....
wishing u guys a smooth sailing journey in life and god bless u!!!...LOL...1 more year and it marks the end of being a TEEN!!!have fun in life and all the best = )see ya guys round ESP this midah!!!she have been so busy that its been months since i met her although she just stay nearby..i just hope that our friendship remain strong for eternity..
For yusof, this guy whom i've been losing contact since last year......heard that he went for NS...
anyway, hope that things are going well in your life....
Happy 19th belated bdae....LOL
all this are belated bdae wishes!!!
whoever are the APRIL babies!!!HAPPY BDAE...
ouh and for my second sis, HAPPY 30th BDAE TO U(i m not sure bout the age but it should be 30..I THINK???)...hoping u to be more healthy with the baby in ur tummy!!
17:13
22:31
Monday, April 21, 2008
MONDAY= SCHOOLlab session again for recombinant DNA technology module...today lab session is better than the week before...before going for break,took out my gloves and my hands are perspiring....i have sweaty palms...washed it and the whole grp of boys was on the same table with me were making a fuss over me washing my hands....hey i dun wanna eat my lunch with those plastic glove smell....OKso i decided to splash some water at them and walk away, TWICE.LOL!they were like hey!!!!....u come here, i wash ur hair like in the salon on that sink....HAHA = p
ouh sufyan,THANKS AR.....miss nice hair!!!yay!!
for yan ming!!! GET WELL SOOON!!! stop smoking
ten went back with azri and met effah....like wat she said a blast from the past....it got worse!!!!HOW WORSE CAN IT GET??saw someone frm the past and she was trying to avoid as much as she can...but it turn out the other way round....ha~then we start talking bout secondary school and primary school days over a meal....there was so many things bout the past which remain as memories and EFFAH!!!THANKS for borrowing the book!!!....I SWEAR IT IS SAD!!...
P.S. I LOVE YOU effah!!!!LOL =P
14:53
Sunday, April 20, 2008
so its the weekends...i seriously got a shocked this morning the moment i opened my eyes from sleep...me: hey wat time is it now??i am gonna be late for school!!!.....ten suddenly it's SUNDAY!!!i almost got a BIG SHOCK!!!...that's how crazy my mind can go!!!anyway, was watching old school on tv...its funny!there was this idiotic guy who is such a troublemaker!!!ouh have u guys ever met with this kind of situation where someone introduce u to someone and that guy suddenly held out his hand to shake my hand as a sign of "nice to meet u" and before i get to held out my hand properly, he grab my hand and shook it.....
21:54
Saturday, April 19, 2008
21:00
Friday, April 18, 2008
today module is abit of stress....not because of the problem but some other things that i don't wish to talk about..anyway, i was choked up with stress up to my neck...i held it back....didn't really eat today cos i went to grab a quick bite, i went to the library and watch my friend playing with the piano....then visit another friend at the SLA booth...she was stress up though about her problem and managing her time...i guess her stress can't be match to mine....anyway i found a poem bout friends...here it goes
"Portrait of a Friend"
I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.
I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.
I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.
Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.
Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.
I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.
I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.
I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.
I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.
--Unknown
something that you gives and don't expect any return = ) that's how i felt...i m trying to give everything i could so that my friends feel better.i swear i am feeling pretty upset today for no reason or maybe my stress have got me in this....
20:04
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Anyway I am supposed to do my rj on Microsoft word but instead I am blogging!!!
I can’t stand it!!!
People are way to bossy and order me around….i swear I don’t have any privacy and my own time to do stuff!!
She kept me rushing doing this and that...if she thinks I am her slave and she is the BOSS!!!
FAT HOPE!!!.
even when i am talking to my friend about something else and got nothing to do with her,she will intervene and said tat it got nothing to do with todays problem....WAHHHH!!!!....suke hati ar...
Even in changing of my nick on my msn, she said I can do it later!...
HEY CMON!!!wats ur damn problem, it just took me seconds to change it…
I know what I am supposed to do and responsibility!!
Just give me a task and shut up!!!...stop controlling me on what I m doing!!!
It’s just way too absurd.
Sometimes you think you are clever (maybe that’s true) BUT still!!! Go and change ur attitude…people are disgust by it….you may not notice but its time for you to OPEN your eyes n see for yourself….
Thanks for re-explaining my slide which U THINK I m wrong and what does that left me with???
Btw, I am suppose to upload pics on photobucket and post my prev entry but the damn photobucket was PMS-ing with me….i dun even own any PMS period and it is having on me….GAHHHHH!!!!
sorry but its really building up on me.....
i think some are having the same thought as me....I m sorry!
i need a hug =(
felt so strained!!
20:27
Monday, April 14, 2008
as per normal...today's monday and we are having RECOMBINANT DNA TECHNOLOGY modulewe had labs session...it was fun but u need to be careful cos we are extracting RNA from a cell culture(bacteria) thus we need to read the procedure carefully...there was so many scientific terms on it....there are alot of centrifuges of the particular substance and pipetting of reagents....
the smell of the ethanol sux!!!!....i can rmbr it vividly up till now...
next week i get more picture but as now..there are only pics of the spin column on test tube racks
01:27
Sunday, April 13, 2008
i am seriously confused right now~!i need to sacrifice and gain something....gah!!!!!i think i can but the problem is am i allowed to do so???anyway, i was reading this person blog who is having cancer and at the late-stage....she doesn't have that much time left in her hand so she is giving what she can to her children before she moved on...there's one entry about a person wanting to live up till 80 years while she doesn't have that time to live....she felt that it was greedy and somehow i felt that indeed it is....a human wanting more than what they have right now...i used to think that every human is not grateful because they want more than what they have...i dunnoe but I DUNOE!!!....the nature of human...life is complicated as it is unless u r a simple minded like me....choose to avoid the path that is perplexed be it a need or a choice and make my own path = )i swear i am sleepy!!!!!monday= lab session!!!!.....another GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
23:06
Friday, April 11, 2008
today class was fun because sharman is one of my team mates again...he was telling us stories bout the glowing contact lens story, it was seriously hilarious...then he was telling me bout vegetarian cat that ate grass like any other cow.....there was too much of gags from him....JOKER!i was in his grp bcos i was slightly late for class due to the rain and wen i came in, i was asking for my grp so he invited me cos according to him, he was lonely.....anyway,had a great day sharing stories with my team mates...
i solemnly swear it was unintentionally...i was smiling and the nearer i get, the more i felt it was tearing...was it the tiredness i had or was it simply something that i didn't expect of?i will just answered it by my way....
19:44
Thursday, April 10, 2008
okay!!!!..tell u guys what! first of all i for today module i had a Turkish FACILITATOR!!!!... cool uh!..during his schooling days, he participate in chemistry Olympiad in turkey and got a gold for it....
anyway, the main point is all my facilitator comes all over the world except for my recombinant DNA technology faci who is local....other than that its either from India and turkey.. his accent is not that thick, i understood whatever he is saying and he have a France accents(frm the way he speaks) today module is applied chemistry I and i bet there is part II in the next sem... it was hilarious today cos of this guy,sharman, i swear he is funny... the way he talk and blowing those balloons then the guys was trying to be an idiot by bursting the 6 balloons that were tied together while the girls cover their ears cos was afraid of the sound that goes BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOMMMMMMMMMMMMMM!......haha...
anyway,jun xiang was in my class today, i was more than glad to be one of his classmates AGAIN!!...haha... the next story is, thanks to my cleverness.... i didn't eat in first and second break causing me to have serious stomach pain... from the first to the second break, i drank water and i was like going out and in of the toilet....WAHAHA... the stomach pain is to the extent where u feel like hunching ur back while walking... i endure all the way till i reach yew tee and then bought myself a Macdonald's meal!!!. = ) HAPPY 7TH BIRTHDAY TO MY NIECE~!
i can't find any nice pic of hers so this is decent enough.....= )
23:19
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
22:45
Sunday, April 06, 2008
i m damn shag!!!!seriously!!! i didn't even do a thing today....all i did was to went to my friend birthday party...anyway HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY UMAIRAH!!!.....she was pretty with those hair of hers...yeah! so met some of my secondary school friends which i've yet to see for a year or two...i donno...it was fun..as usual, jokes jokes and more jokes.....can't stop laughing...had a fun day and thanks to umairah for organising her birthday party because at the same time it was like a gathering.....a day is never enough for us to talk about the 5 years we have went through....
12:18
omgd!!!TMRW SCHOOL STARTS!!!!!!!!!!!i dread each time when new terms start, getting to know AGAIN new people, self-introduce again and again....urgh~second year is gonna be a new challenge!!!science modules each day and hopefully my interest for science have yet to die cause i need it...gonna finish my CE points and at the same time working on PP....i am feeling nervous and stress thinking about school re-open because once i m back to school there's assignmentSSSS(YES WITH A CAPITAL S!) waiting for me....There is really one thing i need to do..to pray and hope that- i get all nice facilitator-there's no lazy ARSE in my class!!!PLS!!!!PLS!!!!i've seen alot of RP student putting up their modules on their blog....so will i to show you what am i really going to study..
00:05
Thursday, April 03, 2008
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Tuesday, April 01, 2008
