what about me.
23:28
Monday, June 30, 2008
just to be love and cared, u deliberately hurt urself??i don't know but i just don't do this stupid stuff..all i am thinking now is about me...how i am gonna get thru each week??frankly speaking, i am way too tired to understand people and being the nice me..trying to understand others while u don't even know the truth that others hide to gain benefit from u while i m being an idiot and a fool to believe.its not that i don't trust, its just that the trust is being ABUSE...now, is there any reason i should be understanding??anyway saw zhung ren and jia wang!!!LOL..the 2 arsessssss, that never stop twisting their words and make me confuse that i trap in it!i gave a big pat on zhung ren back and he was so shock!!!although, it was a short period of time I spend talking to them but still the laughter that i had back then was the same i had today = )i think my pessimisms is running high while my optimism is running low!!GOD!!!pls return my OLD-SELF!!!i would be very grateful and thankful!!i don't like living in this state...being fickle bout myself...
12:47
Sunday, June 29, 2008
21:45
Thursday, June 26, 2008
When things happen and I have no intention to see it coming, I am grateful but I wish I could have done better if I was prepared
If I am prepared and things always doesn’t goes the way I want
I am confused sometimes whether I should or I shouldn’t put effort in everything I did
I get disappointed because of this issue and caught myself thinking about it, not knowing what to do
and feel.
23:52
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
you know what!!each time i wakes up in the morning feeling tired and sleepy....i will always have this thought in mind which i don't even know how to describe.anyway, something came across my mind..there's lot of thoughts and most of it is filled up with WHAT IF qns...i m glad that i didn't open my heart to it...for today, woke up early and make a wake up call for each of my friend!AZRI!!! you are such a wood log!!!i make lots and lots of call and u didn't pick up...from the moment i step out of the house till i was about to reach bugis, i kept calling u...lucky enough, i didn't charge u for the service provided by me!!HA!!!after the meeting, went fur lunch aka breakfast and then to the library cos UNCLE wanna study.we went to the study lounge and ain saw her friend, i was sooo happy and laughing THEN i saw this guy sitting with ains' friend,he was so familiar.By then i realise, its HIM!!! i just turn away and get out of the lounge..since my frens are all engineering students, i was there to accompany them and i was bored so i joined in...LOLi can still rmbr about the SOP...HA!
20:49
i've been opening the blogger tab but then i kept it aside cos i don't know what to write..anyway now i am spoilt for choices because of my module selection for next semester..there's 4 different choices but the first 3 modules are CORE so the last one consist of applied chem part 2/anatomy n physiology/environmental science/ cell culture(something similar)the question is!!!AM I GOING TO PURSUE THIS TRACK IN THE FUTURE WITH ITS SMALL MARKET??the reality is!!!! the percentage of student furthering their studies in this track and actually work in it is very small. i choose this course in the first place because i am interested in it and as i went along with it, i realise its time for me to GET REAL!!!i know i can't stop it right now but i don't know which one to choose and what are the factors that i need to consider.i am totally confuse about the future.the thing is that the module selection kind of giving me some awareness what i want to do in the future??i m scared!!!i seriously need to think about it before i graduate...the future is scary enough
as time flies, my decision changed and so is my mind.
anyway today is MCB and new group!
yan ming is the thorns and i kept bullying him!!!LOL
i can't stand the story he told me bout his mispronunciation and getting confuse with the words...its just too hilarious...
yan ming!!! not SEW-GAR its SUGAR!...HAHA
sorry!!!i can't stop laughing although class have ended about 5 hours ago, just that it tickles my heart.
before that, i went to school as usual and took the lift up to my class...
the lift was DAMN CROWDED!!pple were trying to squeeze in and i was at the corner of the lift where the buttons are....
this guy squeeze in and he was so near to me...such that he is facing directly at me and standing infront of me but i just look down cos it will be so awkward since he is so near to me or else i will be staring at his face.
when he talk,he face me cos the lift was crowded enough for him to move....
there are 4 lifts but all are SLOW!!!!(excluding fire lift)
tsk tsk
21:12
Sunday, June 22, 2008
As you can see, I m bored!!
I was suppose to study and revise but I only manage to do bits of it!ha!!
Can’t blame me, weekends is not meant for revision because it’s meant for family day!!!
So out of boredom! I read someone blog and came across this set of questionnaire since he tag the person who is reading his entry…well I m bored so I m doing it…
Here it goes….
#1 If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Reaction??...mmm…AMAZINGLY disappointed and heartbroken…
I guess I will give him a chance to confess and work out the solution = )
#2 If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I don’t know because I am not a type of person who likes to dream!
I am down to earth
#3 What will your dream wedding be like?
simple yet memorable
#4 Are you hungry?
NO!!! not now…for the past few days, there are lots of food in my house and my sis came over and brought MORE FOOD!!!
#5 What’s your ideal lover like?
someone that makes me happy for eternity???
I can’t answer this…
#6 Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I believe its being loved by someone
#7 How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
When I am tired of waiting but the longest should be 2 years for me.HA!
But the usual case, I don’t really wait because I realize MOVING ON is a better solution!!!
#8 If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
just have to get over it!!!it happen once and I m glad enough it was easy then I thought.
#9 Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
Difficult problem statement!! Other than that NOPE!!
#10 Is being attached fun?
NO IDEA!!!
#11 How do you see yourself in ten years time?
working and earning money to support my parents .
#12 At least have a kid?
3 is the perfect number for me.
#13 Who are currently the most important people to you?
my family and friends.
#14 Would you rather be single & rich or married but poor?
What a qns!!!
If I have to decide, it would be married but poor because I don’t want to be an old maid(anak dara tua) and you could always find a job to work and earn money. If you are rich and there’s no one to share it with NO USE!
Money can’t buy love.
#15 What’s the first thing you do every morning?
wake up and walk to the bathroom to get ready for school!!
#16 Would you give all in a relationship?
depends on the situation
#17 If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
ha! Wth!!!
My love is meant for one person and not TWO!!..its impossible for two simultaneously.
#18 What type of friends do you like?
Actually I don’t have criteria for friends, as long I love being with them and I am alright with it because no one is perfect. If there’s a good quality, the bad co-exist and we have to accept them for who they are and not what we like in them.
#19 What type of friends do you dislike?
The one who likes to take advantage and use others for their own benefits.
18:39
Saturday, June 21, 2008
23:42
Thursday, June 19, 2008
lets make it short...this few days, i have no idea what i've been doing..i am more to fulfill my responsibility rather than to think about what i am doing.anyway, went to school and back home with azri today...the whole day we were chatting n looking at the halal food blog in school...we were drooling over it and were planning this and that..the worst part was that we were very hungry and i didn't eat for the whole day!so my stomach was making noises....then the past few days, my cousin sleepover at my sis house since my bro-in-law is away to hong kong for business trip..at night before we sleep, we reminisce about the past and talk about husbands and guys...i don't meddle with their affairs, all i did was to listen to their experiences and think about it..my cousin was asking me whether i have any boyfriend?obviously NO but she just won't believe me....she told me this "GOOD. this kind of thing, let it happen naturally"HA! I've been doing that since DAY 1..i think my post is REALLY SHORT!!!...LOL
night!i m turning in!!
23:18
Tuesday, June 17, 2008
i m so drain out today but the movie i watched made my day...i was watching prince and me after watching prince and me II months ago!....HA!the story was heart-warming....thanks azri!!!anyway, i had a great time during lesson and after school cos i am happy and laughing with my friends today!AHHHH~ nice day....i think i've chose the right decision, i felt more carefree this way...One more thing left to do before i m over it!i think i am going to be drained out by end of this week AND NEXT WEEK!sometimes things doesn't go away naturally, u need to force it out before it goes away..
*yawn*
i m turning in = )
21:16
Monday, June 16, 2008
Frankly speaking, I want to laugh about my clumsiness today…
I am not sure what I am up too…
Even right now, it just tickles me when I thought about it.
I guess the rainy day really wash away my worries today.
The most irritating part of the day should be sitting beside a LAME king !HA!!
Another thing was that when I was walking towards causeway point from the MRT station, there was a loud thunder, with a strong wind and heavy rain then these bunch of girls were shouting and cupping their ears~!!wth!!!
so exaggerating!
HOW I WISH THE THUNDER WAS LOUDER!! Then the more they will be scared..LOL
I m a crazy idiot today!
I am listening to a Christmas song right now, can u believe it?ha!
I swear the bus that I took there was a hole above it…there was water leaking on where I was standing…..it was raining heavily and now it even rains in the bus!!!!
While the other bus I took, the water from the outside went in thru the window.
I think I don’t care that much cause I was HALF AWAKE in the bus!!!...
Anyway, I m suppose to do my RJ in Microsoft word but I felt the urge to blog about today…
Yours sincerely,
The crazy bird
22:04
Saturday, June 14, 2008
i guess the laughter that i had was meant to make up for the times i am really down right now!!!thanks~i don't understand why i need to sacrifice for people sake!people just don't make any effort to understand how tired i am feeling!!i am seriously upset,actually its indescribable...i am sick of it!!!i am so blinded by responsibility that i close my eyes for what i am feeling each time and tolerate it..why do i even need to understand people needs when they don't understand mine??frankly speaking, all this questions come to my mind EVERY SINGLE TIME but i find myself pathetic for asking such a question to make myself pitiful and gain sympathy!cos i don't need sympathy!!! all i need is understanding!sometimes i feel there is not a need for this kindness in me because what i get is not appreciation but selfishness!!!i know i am angry for nothing because there is no solution and its always the same ending..THANKS!!!
don't say that u even understand because nothing beats it unless u are in my shoe...
22:51
Friday, June 13, 2008
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh~my throat have been swelling for the past few weeks and today is the worst of all..each time i wanna swallow something, i felt as if i m swallowing a pebble..its just so hard!i hope it gets better before school re-opens next week which i am not looking forward tooo = (
22:47
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
strange enough...i felt something was missing today... anyway went to Newater plant today at bedok with SLEEPY HEAD!!...
u noe who u r!LOL...= pthere's one new thing i learned; IPU= Indirect Portable Use..
There was this part of the tour which i think is nice..
the colorful lights with water and i like the fountain tooo!!!!....
i didn't realize i was so tired till i get back to my sis home...
the moment i lie down on the sofa, i was dozing off instantly!...tsk tsk...
sorry heart~
22:34
Monday, June 09, 2008