what about me.
02:15
Thursday, July 31, 2008
Because of that person, you were upset all day.
I spent the whole day consoling you.
On my way home in the evening the darkened sky looks sad.
Maybe I cried for a brief moment….
I should be sick of this now,
Watching the you, who always watches that person and live like this
With her infront of your eyes and me behind your back
The us, who only looks at what’s in front of us….
You don’t know, don’t you?
The me who can’t even say I love you
Not that far,
Yet not that close.
There’s a love you don’t know about.
Looking at it now, its not even sad
Always besides you, I was one of the close people
On happy days
On painful days
Why do I always want to see you?
A story that wasn’t meant to be from the beginning..
Not one of us did anything wrong
Its my fault for loving you.
23:36
Monday, July 28, 2008
18:49
Sunday, July 27, 2008
01:41
frankly, deep in my heart.....i m freaking tired...trying to put everything nicely and not letting others to hurt!!!i never like whining even the hardship that i m going through...its okay....just let my smile and laughter be my bandage for the wounds that i had = )anyway, my sis is currently in the labor ward...i have no idea when my nephew will come out of my sis womb but hopefully sooon!!!its abit to soon cos we are expecting him to be born during fasting month...its oook...she is suppose to take care of her daughter as she is not working on sundays but NOW i had to take over the job cause my mum is out somewhere helping my auntie...there goes my plan....ouh n i get to see my pretty niece!!!!
she's so cute, she just came back frm australia for holiday....her DAD is siao but what can i say, it runs in the genes of TALMIN(my paternal late grandfather)
these nieces of mine is going to be big sister sooon to a brother.....i brought them to MacDonald's....
okay....good night pple!!
23:55
Friday, July 25, 2008
haven't been updating for quite awhile cos i ve been having 3 UTs for the whole week...no more UT,wats left, PP!!can i have the rain for tonight??? = )i am so into myself that i forget my close friend birthday!!!Happy belated 19th bday DESRINA!!!!mmm...wishes??...be a less vulgar woman...hehe...JOKING!!wish you all the best for your future and make time for ME N EFFAH!!!idiot= pfarewell to my RDNA facilitator,best wishes!I M GONNA MISS U...
(ignore that guy behind...he was not meant to be at the pics..LOL!)i realise something bout myself which i am unable to explain myself....somehow, some things....박재붐........ 너 사랑해!!!!
21:32
Monday, July 21, 2008
before i study for my upcoming UT on thursday ....today....saw sharman n jasper as i was walking to school...ha! such a noisy bunch = )not forgetting amanda who went to the wrong block today!!!LOL....she is forever clumsy!weather was good....rainy day at the start of the week...changed of team for applied chem and my team members are really great...As i was wishing for it yesterday and it came true.problem statement made it even easier because what i studied way back at secondary school is very useful today...THANK U MISS CHOW!!I AM GRATEFUL TO U!!!had lunch with Ain and her friends....what more can i ask for...everything went smoothly for the day and i am more than happy to have a normal day like this...there's nothing more i could ask for...although there are certain things that i am doing is a dread to me, at the back of my mind is that time flies and i can hold on to the very last moment.
*random thoughts*
i am so going out on sunday!!!
i can't go out the previous weekend cause i was SICK n in pain!!!
14:50
Sunday, July 20, 2008
haha!!i am supposed to study for tmrw UT but i was reading CNA website and the news anchor blog...seriously,its very insightful and entertaining....i can still remember vividly what they wrote...actually i like this news anchor who used to be in CNA, Richard Lui, he used to be in PRIME TIME MORNING which i used to watch before going to school.i love the way he made comments to the news which can be funny at times.sadly,he is in CNN in some robin and something show..
gahhhhhhhhhh!!!
22:04
Saturday, July 19, 2008
WORST PAIN OF MY LIFE!!!!anyway forget about it...
my bro fren msn me frm thailand cos he is serving NS over there!!!tat day i just saw him and as usual, teasing is part of our conversation and STOP CALLING ME SELENGER!!!u think u that cool ar!!
he asked for my bro but i dunoe...
i asked him why is he looking for my brother,he told me he wanna kiss him...
eeee..GAY BITCHES!!!lol...he asked me to come over to thailand!HA!!!
if i have the money ook!
till then, see u this coming raya OOOK!!! well thats the only time he will be back...i think my sis gonna give birth in august!!!reaaaal soooooooooon!!!
YAY!!!
i was playing with my little cousin just now,8 months old...
for ur info, the boy resembles alot like my bro wen he was a kid n my dad likes him alot!!!
i swear i was tired entertaining him,its hard to make laugh but being a baby expert, of course i m able to make him laugh....
i make him fly like a superman.....jumping around the house n sing those nursery rhymes....
after for some time, his dad carried him n he was asleep while sucking his thumb....
sooo cute!!
^he look like a chinese kid rite??
the outcome after playing with him: my hand was shivering cos i carried him for too long!!i need arm strength...i will asked my dad to invite them over again!!!he may be cranky but once he smiles,he never stop...
thats all...i had a fun day with my families around = )
00:38
I never go looking for anything, once it left my heart...
22:02
Friday, July 18, 2008
right now i am ALOOOOONE at home!!!my parents went out, my twin sis is out for tuition while my brother, i have no idea where he is...now its like 10pm an i m alone...come back home pple!!!the night is not young....anyway,today class is great...all my team mates are girls and we talk bout everything!!!the next thing is the class is FREAKING COLD!!! while i was doing UT, my hands are shivering and i can't type properly...
22:54
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Just for today, i learned the worth of living in a big family...being able to see my niece grow from an infant to a young girl...seeing everybody growing old maybe there are moments as a youth, i would want my own life of going out with friends and watch movies,having a time of my own...but i really don't mind about it after a second thought...i d have an issue but the happiness that it bring in life is WORTHLESS...another thing i saw this morning, this story about a women adopting 2 kids who are mentally challenge and they lost their parents due to cancer and stuff...i really respect and admired her big heart..i hope i can do something like that and make a difference..its not about the recognition or good deeds...its because i am a human...taking care of someone that is not yours is not something an ordinary human can do,additionally, with the state they are in.she do have a kid of her own.the young mentally challenge girl really really love this women so much that she would hang onto her mum and hug her everywhere she goes...the other adopted child is a young women,she is 28 years old and when the step mum ask her who is important in her life,"is it your mum?"...she cried like a kid upon hearing the word "mum" because she rmbr her mum who passed on because of cancer...she does have a kid of her own..a son & a daughter...her own kids even regard the others as part of the family..i m touched with her life...she is 50 years old and she is the only one taking care of the kids....sorry for the long entry but there is something worth sharing in life = )
15:03
"smile, even if it's a sad smile, because sadder than a sad smile is the sadness of not knowing how to smile ”-Tearsofstardust
22:34
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
it have been raining this few days and i m loving it although its really cold in the class that i could shiver..today....felt tired but i should not complain.i m gonna turn in soon = )
sorry azri i can't accompany u but do call me when u lost your way....HEHE...
20:29
Monday, July 14, 2008
indeed hardshipleaves me in despair,taught me not to give up,taught me to endure up till the extreme level although i felt like running away,the outcome of it, i will never forget in my life...
for it, i am grateful to u for all the obstacles that u put me thru to be a more refine human-being.
*random thoughts*anyway, today i dream about my late paternal grandfather..i am having a mix feelings..actually this entry sets me thinking bout what i've gone through in life that makes ME who i am now.
looking back leaves u a smile,sadness and all sorts of emotion but what's important is the present & the future not the past.
the past is there to make as a lesson in life.
13:38
taking a step back....i think i've learned the pain of endurance after going through it every single day.
dear stomach,
pls be quiet ok!!!i will fill u up soon enough so SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!
hehe...
17:36
Saturday, July 12, 2008
just when everything turns black and white to me....a rainbow appear,giving me a sense of ....hope...faith....luck...........................(guess the last one!!!)time for a change!!!= )
is this for real???
the dream that i had few months back, its about to be a reality.
i don't know....
what sets me laughing are that things are really going crazy for me..........
20:33
Friday, July 11, 2008
23:28
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
Be it or whatever it is….
I’ve decide and there’s no turning back…
Slowly but surely it begins to disappear = )
And…..I M EXCITED!!!
Evelyn is my cousin bestfriend!!! I can’t rmbr my cousin name, I noe, I m a very bad cousin!!!
It really is a small world.
I think I need to kick off this habit of thinking while walking because sometimes when I am thinking of something and it’s weird, I will frown or give the “HUH?” expression…LOL…
Anyway I disown Erebus from my group today…HAHA….for Yan Ming, I m gonna whack u on Thursday for not coming today when I’ve reminded u about bringing ur lab coat yesterday…seriously, you should not even ask me to remind u…I even heard u went to watch movie ar!!! AH!!!ANOTHER REASON TO disown u from our group!!!...right evelyn and delise??? LOL= p
22:43
Monday, July 07, 2008
i m on the verge of getting sick!!!hope i can endure till the weekends..anyway saw this on sophia blog and i was bored so i decided to do it before i went to sleep...here's the result....lets analyse it....HEHEYour view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.(not sure about this) The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.(true, true!!!) Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.(INDEED) The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.(TOTALLY!!!) Your views on education
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.(this is so wrong!!!, i believe its important n the whole thing is just the opposite of what i think...) The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.(currently,i am having a dilemma thinking about this) How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.(HIT THE JACKPOT!!!*ting**ting**ting* i'll try to be courageous in the future) What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.(not sure about this..maybe..perhaps....i rarely get angry over a thing)Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.(the words in blue is so TRUE!!!)
alright!!!...
i m going to bed!!!
*cough**cough* = )
18:12
Saturday, July 05, 2008
sometimes the things that you want so badly,you earn for it but then when its time that you get to owe it, it feels that the feeling just die!!!let this thing goes just as it is....i don't need this kind of thing..saying something but means another..tolerance have its limit
nose block + sorethroat= uncomfortable!!!!
23:09
Friday, July 04, 2008
i m pretty lazy to write long entries SO i m gonna conclude everything in a sentence or two...todaY:ANYWAY, i felt really excited!!!i love planning surprise except for the KIDNAPPING PART!!!LOL..i noe!!move on...move on...move on....i am cheerful bird that chirps in the morning!!!good night....= )happy 19 th bdae fiza!!!sorry that i didn't went back with u ytd...i was planning all the things and i have to leave u out..hehe!!!
06:30
Thursday, July 03, 2008
i am really upset,piss of and confuse....
19:09
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
at times when i need comfort the most....what i get was the opposite and it really made me upset..*sigh*NVMD!!!it always happen and there's no use keep brooding over it.i think its a good thing that i always comfort myself each time i am upset instead of complaining over it..moving on......knowing that it came down to nothing...
