life is getting real hard...
not that i am complaining but after all, i m a human!
i do have a fair share of complaints bout life...
all i know, i need to pull myself together and try my best...
seriously...i m feeling it right now...
sometimes you know that you gonna go thru all these hurdles and till the day comes...u stumble upon it...
u get breathless...sick in the stomach..don't even want to talk and smile....thats what i feel right now...nothing seems to be right...
people don't even care whether u can or can't take it...
even words fail to comfort u...
nothing is smooth...things co-exist in life...the good and the bad...the devil and angels...
one thing is for sure...in order for u to learn whats life....u need to be dump in the situation to learn..

someone wish to have more money...
someone wish to have a companion..
for me,
i wish that i will be able to pull through this whole of my life....
because....
everything that you wish to have,
you need go through the hurdles before having it
= )


that's what i learn in life...

so PP is over!!!
i m seriously hoping that i pass this module and i've seen the acessor comments...
so far..
the first thing is, i m not late!!! i was behind the booth waiting for my turn!!..the advisor wrote that i was late...other than that it was oook...she comment that i can go in depth to understand better..

next thing...one of advisor commented that what i presented was all superficial and lack of concrete information when she didn't listen to my presentation!!! she even said that i lack of understanding of the company i m doing...but i handle my QnA moderately..

for the other acessor....they gave me good comments cause she was listening to my presentation and i manage to answer her qns well...
PASS or FAIL??..i don't know but i hope to pass!!!(who doesn't??)

next on my list?...BTT...have to study...one whole week of holiday are fulls of events that is enough to make my heart explode because i m really nervous....what if everyday is a nerve-wrecking day?...I CAN DIE!..seriously...

when you lost your way....
just look at the night sky with sparkling stars that leads to your way...






happy 19 = )
(no matter wat's the answer, i m utterly disappointed)

ytd i was feeling lost..i don't know why...
went to school,caught in the drizzle..
biochem was a headache and team members weren't helping that much except xue fang...
well..what do i care??i just tried to understand and did my best although i m really down = (

complain??nothing will change the situation..
tell the truth?it would hurt others....
i always tell myself that there are people who is having the worst situation than me thus i m grateful..no matter how bad..

i m bored so i went to read ChannelNewsAsia website bout the latest news...
i watched USA presidency and i m seriously rooting for OBAMA!!!!...
then news bout him came out...
he stopped his activities for a moment to visit his ailing grandmother, his anchor of life...
i think he should win because he is against Bush way of politics...

[ Clinton, appearing at a rally with Obama on a balmy evening in Florida, said McCain just represented an extension of the presidency of George W. Bush.

"We are in an economic crisis born and bred by the failed Republican policies of George Bush and John McCain.

"George Bush has practiced what John McCain has preached. " Quote from: ChannelNewsAsia website ]


soo true !!!!..this is my 5 cents worth of opinion....its kind of interesting to watch who gonna win, then seeing them turning the country to a better and peaceful OR disastrous and more wars= Economic crisis.

recently i m addicted to word challenge in facebook....thanks to farah!!!
anyway, ytd i resume my "babysitting" as my niece have recover from her second attack of chicken pox....the second attack, people recover quite fast because B cells have a memory of the particular virus so it destroys much faster as it will secrete it antibodies for phagocytosis to occur...HA!!!Immunology!!


Back on track, i played with her after bathing her.. we played the cupcake maker TOY!!
COOL OR WAT!!!
it was seriously fun!!!
we mix cake mixture and even the frosting...it was a real hands on for kids....
we bake the cake mixture and then decorate it...
the frosting was abit unsuccessful because it is dilute with water...in addition, i only know how to do the real icing frosting and not this toy thingy!!
let the pics depicts itself..



lastly,the pics below is my nephew smiling while he sleeps....i didn't manage to capture the full wide smile that shows just his gums.....i capture at the very end.....


^this is the third niece that i m taking care of and she have grown quite alot....vain right!!i know!!this pic was taken when she was 9 mnths old or 1 yr old..i can't rmbr!!! 5 MORE DAYS~~~

extra pics.....with my another nephew....

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO AL-FALAH!!!
thanks for switching off my adapter and my screen went black!!!!...MY BATTERY CAN'T BE USE!!!U pandai!!!!

anyway...genetics today sux!!!
i went off before the 3rd meeting because i seriously don't know how to apply the things to the problem....GAH!!!
i went back home n took a 3 hours nap and the worst part is that i don't want to wake up although i am not that sleepy...i don't know why...

now i m working out on how to do this burke line to check out the reaction of an enzyme...
thank god tmrw is FRIDAY and hopefully its not that hard....
ciao!!

lets list the things out what i want to do for tmrw
-jog!!!(i haven't done this for months and when i took the stairs to the class cos the elevator was full of people, i started panting...thats y need to exercise!!!)
-do PP poster
-install adobe photochop CS4 into my lappy and start scrapbooking!!!YAY!

cutting of hair is in my list but i still don't know whether to cut it or not?? = (
i have the big urge cos i want new hairstyle pretty badly but i SAYANG my long hair...we'll see...

anyway, today after UT, went to have my late lunch with fiza then back home...
guess whom i saw while i was alighting at yew tee??...some people in my history...
he walks so freaking slow!!!
i was trying hard to avoid him and i walk behind him slowly...
i am a fool because i tried other ways or should i say a long way and then back to the normal route that i used to take.....JUST TO AVOID???ha~


i have no pictures to share but i have my nephew pics...
whom i always kiss each time i get back home and watch him sleep soundly...

ha~ i powder him with johnson's baby powder so he smell nice and i can kiss him on his cheecks..

His cheecks are getting chubbier each day!!!...i wanna bite them*ROAR*..hehe

Zzzzz

he looks exactly like his 2nd sister...

he got shot! = )



i m turning in early today!!
good night people...
if it happens that NORASMIDAH read this post....MANA GAMBAR RAYA???.....jgn tersengeh2 macam kera sumbang!!

okay!!! let's make this entry a fast one...
today is so BORING!! immunology problem was fine,its just that i spend the whole of the entire break in class and do the powerpoint for today problem....
15 mins before the third meeting starts then i went down with ahmad to grab some bites...

OFFICIALLY I WANT TO DECLARE!!!
ONG ZHENG KAI IS SO IRRITATING TODAY!!!

he kept laughing and laughing while falah team present...
when faci asked whether we have any question, he and nathan started laughing..i look at zheng kai with the weird look and shook my head....
then!!! he go and told faci, "FACI!KASMINAH DIDN'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE SHE SHOOK HER HEAD JUST NOW!!!"
WTH!!! Then he laughed...
irritating...well he was trying to be funny and he laughed at his own jokes...
try harder!!!

gtg..i m now only at problem 2 for revision of Applied chem II...
i m sick of ut!!!

i hope GOD open up your eyes..
sometimes i just want to drop all this burden and just prioritize my parents.
no matter how bad my parents treat me, deep down i know they always have our interest at heart.
i would never forget how they raise me up!!
i don't know what to say....talking bout it just make me sad...

my first scrapbook piece and i think i enjoy it pretty much!!

you guys have no idea how drained out i felt today...
first:
BIOCHEM was seriously cracking my brain.
I was cheated by the few beginning of worksheet because it were easy but when the later part, about the formula and plotting some weird curve, my head almost crack. it was mentally drain out and whats more,the Genetics UT1 was right after class. My eyes were in pain and my neck is really strained because i was so concentrated on doing my work on the laptop. BTW the quiz sucks!!! i have to crack my brain for it..just for a quiz!!!

second: i went back home and quickly change cause i m going to RAYA at my primary school fren house...one of my bestties...we had fun without realizing that time really flies and its 11.30 pm!!! i felt like a Cinderella cause i was rushing back home by 12 am to complete my rj(LOL!!WATEVER!!)...I WALK QUITE FAST WITH MY HEELS!!!!!LOL...anyway, after seeing my old friends..all the flashback comes to my mind!!...its a pity effah can't attend.

here's the pic!!!






i m extremely exhausted

how i wish time could reverse back everything...
today was quite relaxing because i went off for second break on time and only back to class 30 minutes before third meeting... what i did during the break was that i went to Causeway point with fiza to get a cake and had lunch at kfc.
i've never had this kind of free time in my whole life of RP!!
usually i would do research and worksheet,trying to understand...science make me this kind of person....LOL(whatever eh!!)

anyway, i was so fickle on what cake to pick for azri cos i knoe he likes chocolate soo much..there were NUTELLA,BLACK FOREST,CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE...all was tempting for him if he sees it...HA!!!
i decided to take black forest cause NUTELLA was abit *cough*expensive*cough* my entry will be very long if i go into details of how me and my friends suprised him.
Happy belated birthday...dah 18 eh but u r still the youngest among us!!!hoho








the garfield paper plate..we bought it last min...cute rite!!



HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!! i know this is your first birthday cake for ur 18 bdae!!!!HEHE...


i saw beam today while walking back with fiza....he was so random helding out his hand and asked for a hand shake...
he didn't go to school and went back to school for RUGBY TRAINING!!!...tsk tsk...bad BEAM!!

there's been funny things happening around...
well maybe its just reminiscing the old times, ytd me and ahmad were bored so we shared some funny stories....i guess i had more funny stories than him...
Today, wei ling was being an idiot....she is so thick skin cos she said that the 1st wonderful things n my list is that she is apart of my life....tsk tsk....its not the first but its on the list my dear~

i need to do something to my hair... i guess i will do something to it during the holiday... there are many things gonna happen in a few next day...
my brother will be back frm vietnam on 10 october..
my nephew gonna turn 1 month-old on the 11 october..
UT's on 10,13 & 14....
AND i will be resuming back my daily routine which is to take care of my 3rd niece after school everyday...


i want to share something funny....



this guy with some other guy who were wearing other costume such as joker from batman and others...they even need to put on make up...it was so funny...
they have to go to a place with that costume...
the kungu panda was the funniest to me because if u guys watch the show, the guy wore a floral flair pants with his butt sticking out and his belly popping out that makes him look like KUNGFU PANDA EXACTLY!!! = )

goodnight peeps~
i need to sleep =)

rain rain go away come again an0ther day~
my eyes are in pain
you know what...i don't have anything to blog about...

first of all...
i wanna curse n swear cos i need to go to school on the second day of raya and even third day!!!LIKE WTH!!
it just bring my mood down n i m freaking tired...

anyway here's the hari raya pic.....




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^see that...my niece smile like so sweet~ha

^me n my cousin...(baju die mcm nk joget malay dance!!!LOL)

^nieces and nephew(third generation of kamsin's)


^the highlight....my big family = )

before i start any entry, i have to reply to my tags first..
to emily: sorry, i intend to come to school but i was really tired for the hari raya preparation at home..i miss u too...THANKS~~HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO U =)

to midah and effah: ha~ pompuan2 slamat hari raya!! jgn lupa dtng rumah!!

anyway, today is the first day of raya....
the day before was seriously tiring..endless cleaning of home through out the night but i glad its all over and its time to enjoy...
lastly....

saya ingin mengucapkn selamat hari raya kepada kwn2 saya, tidak kira rapat atau yg tk berapa kenal. Mohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya ade salah dan silap atau dengan tidak sengaja melukakan perasaan. SLAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!! collection time!!!!hehe i didn't get to wish all my friends because i was really2 busy with stuff at home.


we were at this kid boutique which i found a tiara and asked her to wear it...



^20 days old nephew....since there was some leftover of orchid after the flower arrangement meant for the table, i plucked an orchid on put on him...hehe ^^