Life's like star trailing after an endless orbit.

2009-08-03T22:46:00.000+08:00

at last i am updating my blog!!
so whats up??
school, test and preparing of project for semester 2..
School of applied science is always the "kachiong" spider.
After 2 weeks of rest from project, we are resuming it back.Here comes the burden but i guess i have learnt my lesson in G301 which is NO PROCRASTINATION!!!
I saw the agenda of the meeting for this coming friday and its
1. Schedule of laboratory sessions
2. Objectives for G302
3. List of materials that to be purchased
4. Post mortem discussion of G301, what can we improve on, what were some of the feedbacks from the examiners?
5. AOB

No. 4, i so don't wish to hear anything about it. Anyway its like FRIDAY!! schools are celebrating the national day and i have to stay back for meeting!!! ARGH!!!!*SCREAM*

then here come the final test before we wrap up for the first semester...i think 3 of the days fall on the fasting month*another scream*
I think i am going to be pretty tired during the fasting month since i need to go back to school during the holidays which is on the fasting month and juggling with babysitting...
it's not the first time and i am sure enough that i can endure it all the way to the end.

i amd just hoping this fastng month i can fast "fully" and dapa banyak pahala..Insyallah! = )

ouh one of the weekends i was at Yew tee and i saw this man holding a blind woman hands and guide her to her destination..
Just by looking at them, i thought to myself: maybe i should do more good deeds

Lets forget all the whining and just think ahead...
this week i am looking forward for weekends, i think i need to slap myself to wake up my idea cos its not even wednesday. I am thinking way too far.
One by one things just come popping by along the way and i am not complaining because i am sure everything will fine if you handle it well...
alright good night = )

2009-07-17T01:10:00.002+08:00

i should be sleeping now cos i am schooling tmrw..
anyway, a burden have been shove away from my shoulder and i am so thankful for it.
nothing much happen just that i am happy my family as always...

On another note...
i think something is fishy but whatever it is i don't care...
it have been right infront of my eyes but i m just not looking at it.
all the best!
i think i m feeling irritated because of you...
so long~

i was having this thoughts by myself...
i shall not regret for everything i did but instead be thankful for it because of i am the product of my choices.
i shall not envy people for what they have and i don't...
i feel the competitiveness but somehow i know they don't have something that i have...
i like to think this way, it gives me a good feeling bout it...

i guess those words were really hurtful....

2009-06-30T23:51:00.002+08:00

god knows how angry i am with my school...
its not the holiday but its the hostility from the public and the fears that students are having..
u care??caring is not enough something needs to be done! number are increasing EACH DAY!
your decision affects the student pretty much emotionally,physically and mentally.
i don't mean to say this but i think when H1N1 cases are getting severe where death and life matters, then school will shut it down...

who are the one who started the thermal scanning?the temperature check?gearing up for the H1N1 when first case started to arise?it even came up in newspaper??
whatever it is...PLEASE DO SOMETHING!!!
its the biggest cluster in singapore that gave rise to the number of cases..

whatever it is!!! deuce to this crap n move on....

and after 3 years then i sat down and ate lunch with shahril!!!
imagine, same school and have been friends since secondary school....
LOL!
whatever it is, i like the new attitude of him...very chirpy,joker and more open minded but still the same spirit...
i was in his class for like half an hour waiting them to finish doing their work!!!
it was a fine day!!!

2009-06-28T23:48:00.003+08:00

do you know how it feels to cry during a meal??
the last meal together with your close and loved ones??
a parting meal..

imagine, you are hungry and eating something but the word LAST seems to be choking your throat..
tears start to flow down your cheeks.
everyone starts crying,sitting down and lose their appetite.
the more you try to avoid, the more choking you feel...
you can't move backward but just keep moving forward

2009-06-08T02:13:00.002+08:00

today i didn't manage to finish my report but i m sure i will tomorrow!
half here and there..lets complete it tomorrow!!
i am so excited got to catch up with old friends, although it was a short time i know him but there were still memories...hmm...it was like when i was 9 years old~
so its like 11 years ago.
talk bout all those memories hoping that everything was the same but ya know changes come with time...
he really made a bad impression to me cos while we were talking, he was using vulgarities and some inappropriate words for a remark in his sentences.

As i grew up, i don't think its a good thing...
maybe some said it out of habit and fun but since i enter poly, people use less vulgarities and speak with manners.
No offence, but personally i find it unpleasant.
It is just me.
Furthermore, since the presence of kids at my home, i don't use it at all because kids will follow.
I may use it out of anger but i do apologize for it.
is it really necessary?whatever it is, i 'll make myself understand bout it!

2009-06-04T14:32:00.002+08:00

ok...gotta make THIS entry a fast one....
holiday have started and now its thursday...time really flies!
went to school yesterday to do FYP report & barely finish half of it.
I woke up this morning and still progressing!
GRR~
i have rest for an hour and its time to resume back to my report...
i have to hand it to my advisor tmrw and will be having"recap lesson" too for the secondary school science camp next week

2009-05-30T01:39:00.002+08:00

he reminds me of someone whom i know....

Okay, gotta make this a quick entry.
People around me are all having emotional syndrome thingy.
I am fine with it because its part of growing but i don't think i have it.
I've never get depressed because i always go with the flow and never really sit down and think bout it.
I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing??
nvmd, genomic class was fun today...class was full of laughter including our facilitator,furthermore, its the last day before 2 weeks vacation....
i m going for a picnic...YAY!!

2009-05-21T12:03:00.002+08:00

i tell you!!
i am mad for few several reason.
1. I emailed the ORG for LOA(leave of absent) so i could get to take supplementary UT as i skip the first UT due to my serious case of eye infection. The ORG didn't reply my email till my advisor email them and CC the email to me!!!

2. Secondly, the school email me to pay my school fees of $88.25 which is not included in the financial assistance subsidy provided by MENDAKI thus i have to pay it myself and i don't have the money with me. I've decided to pay through PSEA and since i have to pay by today, they email me yesterday. They gave me an online form and asked me to fill it up and go down to school to submit it...with the EYE INFECTION I AM HAVING RIGHT NOW!!!

3. I've lost my Antibiotic eye drop!! my eye is itching and desperately in need of it.. The other medicine i have is just mean for dry eye. My eye that is infected with PINK bacteria needs antibiotic to fight off with the bacteria.

school is making me mad because of the lack of response and ineffectiveness..
i'll bet warning letter from the school have arrive at my mailbox.
Got MC from the hospital but its not a use to school...Stupid system..
i am frustrated too because i am doing this myself that i forget to apply my medicine....
shouldn't i be resting!
URGH~~~

2009-05-19T22:00:00.003+08:00

whats up???
NOT GOOD to start with...
eye infection got worse on Saturday night,went to the doctor and was referred to the ANE because the doctor told me that my epithelial on the eye is torn.
GOD knows how pain was it...it was dry,i kept tearing ,it swells and i can't open my right eye.
My parents drove me to Alexandra ANE, it wasn't busy as KKH ANE...
All i could see was people vomiting on the wheelchair, elder people get push in...What was running through my head while waiting for my turn is I AM going to be like that when i get old....
it was my turn...
they checked my blood pressure then wait for another medical officer to check thoroughly on my condition. the other side of the room was one medical officer talking to a woman regarding one of her parents(not too sure father or mother) bout white cells spreading on the body...
i've never like hospital....

anyway back to my eye, they checked with "EYE microscope" and the medical officer told me that i could have corneal abrasion and i misheard "something operation" it just send chill down my spine....
it was ok, took my medicine and went back home....
they asked me to come back to check my eye again afraid that if anything happen, i could lost my vision...

thanks everyone for the concern and help me around when i m in the need...
ALSO specially for my clan(u guys know who you are) thanks for visiting and Ain its okay u can't visit me...i appreciate the concern from you guys...

i am just hoping that everything is okay and i can go back school...

this is what i need to apply and eat each day...
i can't watch tv and my eyes are sensitive to the light!
This episode of sick on the eye made me learned to take care of my vision and all my five senses...
cherish everything around me...
losing something that you thought you are going to have forever is something scary!!

2009-05-16T00:04:00.003+08:00

The plan for today was to went back home after school....
so a random chat with the usual friends became a mass meet up after school.
It was an impromptu meeting and nothing been plan,just going with the flow.
Had our dinner, went to library and flipping through magazine while chatting...went to MacDonald for ice cream and chat,play games,planning for certain things....
we had fun just by doing those things and with the company of each others..
even though i was having EYE INFECTION FOR A WEEK!!! it didn't stop me from having a day out with them.....

i m off to sleep = )

2009-05-14T00:11:00.001+08:00

something that makes me smile....
i hope miracle happens the moment i woke up tmrw = )

2009-05-11T21:32:00.002+08:00

i didn't went to school today because my eyes is very very red...
so i decided to went to doctor for reassurance of my eye infection.
Went to the polyclinic alone and waited for 2 hours...MY GOODNESS!!
first you took the registration number followed by waiting to see doctor...
the registration was okay but when it comes to see the doctor, i nearly wanna pee but i m afraid i would miss my queue number so i wait till after seeing the doctor to go to the ladies....
the doctor gave me 2 days MC!
the MC is no use for my school but took it anyway...
i have some bacteria infecting my eyes, its call conjunctivitis.
she gave me an antibiotic eye drop but i think my eyes are swollen but its getting better...
i m going to school tmrw at last!!!!
its not infectious so its oook!!!yippeee~

thanks for the concern guys..pretty much appreciate it SATISH!!lol

2009-05-09T23:53:00.002+08:00

genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang!

i found another peribahasa which is funny but its true!
"guru kencing berdiri, murid kencing berlari"
now,peribahasa reminds me of shahril....
i saw shahril the other day and we chat while we were on our way to MRT station.
somehow or sometimes i like to use peribahasa when i describe certain things and....
shahril: "HEY Chill ar!! bebual tk payah nk pakai peribahasa2 ni semua"
hah...his words have never fail to amuse me.
LOL

today highlight
family day cum birthday cum mothers day was really fun = )
we had games for married couple,knowing everything bout them,kids relay and family treasure hunts competing against other family...cool huh!!!
i love the fun that we had among cousins even with the generations gap!
i will never trade anything for the love of my family & cousin
so more family day pls!!!

2009-05-09T01:05:00.002+08:00

thanks for the concern = )
my right eyes is tearing too much because of the medicine
there will be family gathering tmrw at sakura!!! wooo~
(Harap2, mataku yang bengkak ni dah baik!)
i'll bet there will be games just like the previous family gathering.
okay gotta go~
i need some sleep for my swollen eyes.....blub blub blub LOL!(okay,aku giler!!)

2009-05-08T15:17:00.002+08:00

unfortunately today, i have an eye infection!!
yesterday, i was getting ready for today module which was genomic and slept late just to read up and be prepared till late night.
This morning i woke up, my right eye swells and it was red....
Frankly speaking, if it was not that serious, i really wanted to go to school and i woke up just in time.
i asked my mum whether should i go to school and she scolds me because i am still stubborn enough to go to school with the condition i am in.
what to do...i don't like to miss any lesson and its precious..

i felt really hardworking today...
i do the house chores, clean up my room and help my mum out...

anyway, i feel so tired but somehow i seems to be angry at someone and i am not sure why??
whatever it is, just don't come back and ask for help when you need one cos i m never gonna help..

2009-05-07T22:26:00.002+08:00

i am praying hard that my eye WILL be alright by tomorrow morning.
Gosh! like what Ahmad said, I M SMART!!
ha..thanks eh!!
i feel so itchy and swollen on my right eye..

today i felt really demoralizing...
it was industrial and food biotechnology, none of my team members showed up until 10 plus, FINALLY!!! one of them came, i was grateful enough....BUT she is in year 2 and thus i am the only year 3 in the team...you get what i mean??but i don't blame her.
so i have myself and her to work on the problem statement, i have to thank JL for telling me the important points today.
Furthermore,today problem was more to the RDNA stuff which I've blurred it after a year of studying it. well, i did what i can and try my best...
i learned alot of things today...
i survive for the day!!!

lately, I've been seeing a lot of people crying right in front of my eyes...
i don't know why but i got goosebumps seeing it.

2009-05-06T23:42:00.002+08:00

Everyday we live by memories
some memories,the ones you want to find,
can be found if you try hard enough and there are those memories how hard we try to erase,they won't go away

the pain of memories you got from the person that is close to you will not be erase for a long time.
But, even the painful memories which you thought can never be erased can be cured by human

2009-05-05T22:48:00.002+08:00

i am updating because i am doing nothing and have the urge to write my thoughts i had for the past few days...

i watched this video of this group of blind kids went on a show and they sang with their beautiful voices..
just by hearing the voices and look at them, you can't stop thinking how fortunate you are to have all 5 senses and being ordinary. Those thoughts will just make your heart-wrench and tears will naturally flow..
One of the audiences, cried...he turned away from the crowd just to wipe his tears...
surprisingly, i didn't cry..
i am the kind of person who is easily touched by all this human stories but i guess crying won't gain anything...Empathy is what they need!

Anyway influenza A is striking the world and i've just realise more people are getting sick...
i am not sure but is it bcos of mind over matter??you know those paranoid idiots...its a normal flu though..
whatever it is, get well people...

LISTEN....
you're not getting it friend
why do you keep coming back again and again
just let it end shawty
you ain't thinking well
if this the game of love
we're in different cells
ain't looking at you
my eyes have shifted
you got a broken heart
i ain't the guy to fix it
story between me and you?
ITS THE END!!

look at the time..i gotta go its 12AM!
PEACE!

2009-04-24T22:46:00.002+08:00

lets make it short...
idiots are tagging all those stupid advertisement on my tagboard and i m gonna remove it....
i want to sleep *yawn* and i think today class is way better than any other class i had!!

2009-04-21T08:18:00.002+08:00

the start of year 3....senior year...
Yesterday, new semester starts and i wasn't feeling any better...
YES!!! during the weekends i got diarrhea and on monday morning i woke up to vomit and go to school..
I DRAG myself to school with the energy i had...
i had no appetite to eat for the past few days.
even in school, i didn't eat for any of the breaks that i have and after school, i had FYP...
i stuff myself with sweets.
That's how the first day of school just went by...
forgetting one of my team mates name...
gosh!!! i just hope everything will be fine for today = )

2009-04-18T00:07:00.002+08:00

its like being in the earth and the sky...
i think i know where i stand and sadly, its the same old thing..
the laughter was just like a tears,my heart crying out....
i thought something change but there's nothing.
if i stay, what do i get in return??
the words were very hurtful..trying to withstand it but i just can't help it...
am i being petty or its just that i wasn't the fool that i used to be...
Surrounding change and so are everything but when i wanted to go back, the feeling was the very old one....excruciating pain within me that i bottled up....
only a fool will stay to a place for the sake of the name.

i've given up to the ones who refuse to understand me and people who refuse to open themselves up for me to understand.
ignorant is the best medicine...
i don't wish to make it worst like i used too....
i will end this like a young adult does...

make yourself worthless like no one cares!!!
i'll make you swallow all those words

2009-04-06T23:31:00.002+08:00

so how's life?

neutral...school,fyp, babysitting, spending time with family.....school gonna re-open on the 20th april and soo not looking forward to it...
reason? because i don't think its a holiday!!!
i m not sad nor happy bout it..
its LIFE!!!
actually i have to do something for my fyp meeting records, start writing report and organizing data but i m lack of motivation...

KASMINAH!!! GO GO GO!!!!
DEEP DOWN I KNOW THAT IF I DON'T DO SOMETHING EARLIER, I WILL SUFFER LATER !!!
SUFFER FIRST AND ENJOY LATER!!!!!
okay, i m off to do some admin stuff and i want to read the genetics book before sleeping...

btw, if u guys have been reading the newspaper,you should know bout the food poisoning at Geylang...its the worst hit since prima deli..there's one death...RIP!
I hope those people affected recover ASAP!!
then my FYP advisor relate the things we did in lab with this incident which i think it is so random but there's logic in it....
one of my team members didn't wear gloves while touching the agar plates where the bacteria were grown on...
he kept reminding her and she was like its still minor...
then he was saying: "people are dying from the rojak what more the bacteria from wastewater!!!"
HAHA!!
its true, u r not wearing gloves and what more if u forget to wash your hand....when you eat or drink, it will be infested in ur food and drinks.
Furthermore, it grows overnight and some are antibiotic resistant..it spread like CANCER!!

again,if u were reading the newspaper dated,5th april...
there's another news bout "illegal" massage at a salon!!!
HAHA!!
SALON meant for hair treatments,cuts and stuff...
men with no hair or less hair went there....GET WHAT I MEAN???!!!
OMG!!furthermore its at the singapore heartland!
tell me bout it....
go and read it!!! its interesting but disgusting..
those idiots really want to die of contracting STD!!

2009-03-29T23:43:00.002+08:00

yahoooo~ fyp meeting for tmrw have been canceled
as i was just putting my lab coat into my bag, my friend sms-ed and inform..
i was pretty ecstatic because i do not need to wake up early to go to school.
My advisor is sick..i hope he recover asap!!

anyway, recently my dad been having chest pain and cramps...
furthermore,he have an history as a smoker and with high cholesterol level.
You know how this thing can lead to a heart attack.
He was feeling very tight on his chest so we went to NUH, ER to get check since he was referred there if there were any further pain.(this was the second time in a week he visited NUH)
tell me bout it....
i m feeling kinda of scared when he went to the hospital,my mum even cried while explaining the situation to my eldest sister..
in my head....is this the feeling of afraid to lose someone precious??
Heart is something not to meddle with...
I know that this is just the beginning and as my parents grow old, i have to face with this kind of situation.
i hope everything will go back to normal...
i've just have to trust the fate to GOD and try as hard as possible..

Hourly or if not,its half an hour, ambulance kept coming in or at most 2 ambulance...
Paramedics pushing in different type of people with different pain and injuries...
For my entire life, i thought working as a doctor is a good thing..
It is not always green with butterflies and rainbows...
exposed to very gory scene..OMG...its way beyond words.
Sitting for more than 3 hours at the KKH ER have make it even worse for me...
seeing different things that may happen to anybody.
Going there just made me heartbroken...
I wanted to work in the hospital but i have phobia of hospital since i was a kid that i gave it up.
its more than bloods and scalpel..
its a place where you hear someone have only a few months to live and the worst part is, they are your love ones...not knowing what kind of life to lead after hearing that...
its a place where i don't even want to laugh about.

i need to sleep and start a brand new day tmrw = )

2009-03-23T21:34:00.003+08:00

I should not have drink that orange juice, now i m having dry cough and i felt my throat is suffocated while i m breathing...i bet phlegm will develop soon since i just recovered from my sore throat...
I am not watching that enbalment scene again!!!
I didn't ate my dinner after watching it. Yeah!!! i know!!!
so much for curiosity.
Curiosity kills the cat.

another thing....

GOD, i hope my dad is fine....
Please!!!
each time this time came across, even the slightest...i don't want anything to happen and i am really scared...It have not even came across my mind...

2009-03-19T00:36:00.002+08:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhh...........i wanna shout now!!
SERIOUSLY!!
Somebody bring me to the theme park and go for the revolution ride, i will scream my head off...ironically, i m not scared of that,instead i m scared of the pirate ship!
stress is taking a toll on my body metabolism..
frankly speaking, i didn't know what is stress and never believe it because i know, you can control it.
whatever it is, i need laughter and more laughter to immunize me from stress...

while walking back home with songs...
at the back of my mind, i was thinking if life is as beautiful as song...
i even plan how i wanna live...
i want to be happy happy happy(YES, I M DEPRIVED OF IT DUE TO FYP)

2009-03-13T01:10:00.002+08:00

this week is slightly better than the week before...
FYP meeting is not as tense as before..
i want to cry after weeks and weeks of struggling with things!!!
i am just grateful that i got through it as i grit onto my teeth at hard times(not literally!!)
my neck is aching and i m having a sore throat....

2009-03-09T00:02:00.002+08:00

how i wish...
its the words i've been using all along in times of difficulty wishing that everything wasn't this hard.
right now, i am wishing that life can be like a math with a right answer...
no matter what you do in life, there's always chances of wrong in it.
I know life is not perfect but the greed in humans wanting more and more, believing that it will be for eternity..

i can't stand it!!!!!!
i want to avoid it as much as i can.
run as far as i can...
this suffocating feeling kills me and i want to extinguish it!
that is just my immature thoughts...
i know, it won't go unless you face it..
I KNOW
I KNOW
I KNOW!!!!!!!

2009-03-06T17:33:00.002+08:00

things have been taxing for me...
i am not sure why and currently i am feeling the pressure..
i am angry at myself because i am not able to perform to what i m expected.
i kept asking myself, have it always been this way or the things around me have made me like this??
the more i think,the more i am feeling the complex....
how i wish i could forget everything and start on a fresh note.
SHARKS!!!!!@#$%

2009-02-26T23:22:00.002+08:00

tomorrow there's gonna be a meeting with my fyp advisor..
i m feeling the stress up till my chest and making me breathless.
my anxiety i m having for the meeting is almost exploding my head off and i felt as if i wanna vomit.
i am not sure why.
there are list of questions that he wants us to find out and i've searched almost 70% of it and i am afraid of the 30%.
I am a perfectionist, i want every thing to be done and be proud of my work but everything is in a mess.
i felt i have done it but at the same time when my team members were telling me the question, i have the feeling that i didn't did a good job..
I WANNA BANG MY HEAD.....
hopefully tomorrow meeting will be ok and my project advisor will help us to lead in this project

2009-02-23T16:01:00.002+08:00

as usual, every morning i check my facebook...
GUESS WHAT!!!
i saw a picture of pakcik in this whole cast of pementasan.
PAKCIK WAS PART OF THE CAST!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
i look at the pic carefully and then i remember going for it when i was in sec 4 which was organize by my malay teacher and went with the my malay express class...
The whole black room and all lights.
a story about a family, they don't really care bout their sick mum and at the end their mum died without the presence of her loved ones...it was a good play which made some of us shed tears..
SO FUNNY RITE!!! u came across someone u did not know earlier in life, passing by casually but you got to know them later and become friends....

anyway, went blog hopping and came across my sec 1 malay teacher, he was just a relief teacher that taught my class before going for NS...
up till today, i don't really like something in him..
the way he judge people.
i rmbr, we were waiting for our common test result and he announceed the result for the first place in class...
he said he was shock because the work that this person gave me was not that neat and bla bla....
but it was a negative thing instead of constructive....
what doesn't mean not neat cannot study well!!
so it was me!!!
i don't care bout the result bout what i care was what he was saying....
then i participate in the "deklimasi sajak at NUS" in sec 4...
i saw him and i didn't bother to look at him....
my friends were approaching him but he just look and walk away....
its the past and he's enggaged...
i swear his blog is full of malay poems....
all the message are written in poems and you have to read in between the lines...
asalkn die bahagia yer.... = )

2009-02-21T15:56:00.002+08:00

how i wish i can scream in pain!!!(girls thing) but i ended up sleeping to escape from the pain...
then i still have to wake up and went to pick up my niece..
that was yesterday....

gosh!!!holidays= lazy lazy lazy....
i gotta get myself discipline starting tomorrow...
many things are not done yet..
fyp literature review, study for final theory....
i still have yet to go out with my friends during the holiday before my march for this year is being block for FYP!!!!

NOOOOO!!

2009-02-05T21:40:00.006+08:00

i guess i have to spend my day tomorrow at hospital because my nephew was admitted.
Everybody have been sick...flu, fever, running nose and etc...
As always, i will always be the last one to get sick in the family and quickly recover...
Anyway, i just hope they recover quickly..

Speaking of which, i was watching this programme at arirang bout this cemetery in holland..
Merry cemetery is cemetery in the village of Sapanta, Maramureş county, Romania
It is famous for its colourful tombstones with naïve paintings describing, in an original and poetic manner, the persons that are buried there as well as scenes from their lives.

what i am fascinated about was the tombstone that they have on the grave, it is painted so cartoon"ish" and tells a story bout the live of the descendants...it is call epitaph.
here's one of the tombstone that wrotes.

thats it for now.... = )

2009-01-30T12:15:00.002+08:00

2009-01-21T22:24:00.002+08:00

yay!! tmrw i m going to go Chinatown with my niece, its her school field trip.
Since my sister(her mum) can't make it, i m going instead.
Anyway, just now, i went to pick my niece up from her school. Then there is this one weird girl or maybe she is playful from my niece class, she was trying to make me piggy back her. I was squating down and helping my niece to wear her shoes properly and suddenly, she cling onto my back. Another time, she held my hand for no reason.
I was like....what is this girl trying to do to me??Just what she wants from me?AND PLEASE GET OFF FROM ME!
haha
weird kids!! tsk tsk....

2009-01-21T12:15:00.004+08:00

yesterday i went to search on the net and came across a CCKSS former student..
guess what i saw!!! a wedding picture of my teacher who used to teach me DNT while i was in lower sec.
he always got bullied by students because of his poker face..
i was looking through the photos and his bride look so familiar...
i kept looking and it strikes my mind that his bride was Miss Felicia Tan who taught me literature in sec 1.
i was soo stunt!!
Tell me bout it, the impossible became possible.

enough bout that...
so yeah, year 2 is going to end and year 3 is coming...
i was reading bout this person life and somehow i felt determine to do better.
a firm believer of "Learning through mistake and failure"but as day flies, the cost of mistake and failure you need to pay gets higher....
After all these times, i really hate to fail but sometimes you could not avoid it in order to learn.
This person i m talking bout is one of the first batch of graduates from NUSHS
he was telling bout his application to NUS, Standford, Harvard, MIT and Dukes university...
frankly, i envy him on how Genius he is.
Starting from now on, i don't care whatever obstacles that god gonna get me through, i need to pull through to achieve my dream.
Comparing result with others is not a need but meeting your own expectation IS!
I guess the mistakes that I've made in the past let me slip through as year flies and i get very demoralize.
I've once told a teacher bout my dream and currently i am on the track of doing it but if i am going at this rate, i would never make it.
At times i even asking myself, IS THIS WHAT I WANT???
All i need are motivation and willingness!!!!

"To accomplish great things, we must dream as well as act"
- Anatole France (1844 - 1924)

2009-01-20T23:05:00.002+08:00

OK...all UTs are OVER!!!
finally, i can rest my brain for a moment but still i have my FTT to study!!! brr~
anyway, i've nothing to do so i went to dig up all those picture in my cupboard and scan it to post it on Facebook...
well, it will be a pleasant suprise for my secondary school friends and i bet they will be saying this to themselves. "GOD!!! I LOOK SO CHILDISH AND WHATS UP WITH MY STYLE!!!"
haha....
do take a look at it on my facebook....*evil laughter*

2009-01-18T23:40:00.003+08:00

like what effah said, almost died of excessive laughter!!!
thanks ar u guys!! i almost saw something flying over my head for laughing too hard!!
see u guys sooon~ wooo
anyway...tmrw is the start of week 16 and its gonna end soon...YEAR 2 gonna end...
i so need the break...
i studied immunology for the whole day and just hope that the qns will come out ok.
tuesday gonna be applied chem n i swear i don't know how to study for it...
let's just ry my best and not complain...
i think my new year resoultion: SAVE SAVE SAVE!!!
Economy depression is coming soon....be mentally and physically prepared..

2009-01-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

i think this is gonna be the last time i m gonna blog...
i m pretty lazy to update it and if i were to update, its gonna be a short entry..
lately,my life kind of screwed me up and i am worrying endlessly..
on thursday i got sick, a fever. During third meeting i started to shiver and as time flies, its getting worst. I didn't bring my jacket along and i was very cold.
The plan for that day still have to go on because i need to fetch my niece frm school and take care of her.
my class ended slightly early so i went to my sis home and pop a panadol with an empty stomach and rest for an hour.
I force myself to pespire and the fever was really high that i can sense it up till my eyes.
The panadol really kills me because if i took it, i will have these feeling of heavy head and i really do have it the next day.
i kind of pespire a little and get up to fufill my responsibility but my body was seriously not well.
went back home again and got fever again.
I guess this fever was pretty bad for me because usually i would eat but that day i didn't eat for the 2 days and all i did was to eat sweets since there's sugar and it give you glucose(biochem students should know these..haha) that leads to energy.
anyway, i m fine right now,except for my throat,its so uncomfortable when i am eating and drinking.

ouh yeah, just wanna share something i watch today...
i was watching this show about scene of life...
this guy,a korean born in 1990 and his biological mum was 20 at that time..
His mum gave birth to him when he was 28 weeks old..The size of your palm!!imagine that..
This guy was adopted by an american family and the american family treated him like their children. The sad thing is, the guy had leukemia and no medicine can cure a leukemia unless with a bone marrow transplant from your biological siblings or family.
His mum(step-mum) couldn't do anything but to continue hoping for something..
Since his family is an american, they aren't compatible with the asian blood.
Anyway his mum did all sort of things to save him such as went to a korean church to ask for support.
Her mum made a speech,"i am a selfish mother because i want to see my son living longer than 18 years old"...
while on the korean channel,she was on the show whereby you find missing person....
".......if you're watching this,.....i need your help,my son need a bone marrow transplant and the one that will compatible to him is his biological parents.....the one that once you have given life to...."
Then his mum and brother went to korea to search for his biological mum and went through the hospital where he was given birth but to no avail.
It was pretty sad to see this, he may not be your own blood and meat but somehow god gave human a heart to treat others like their owns.
= )

i watched this kind of show all the time to see how different people are leading their life...
when i watch, deep in my heart, i am grateful with what i have around me.
Out there, there are people who are facing more difficulties and obstacles in life...

2009-01-07T21:54:00.002+08:00

today, i really had an unpleasant day!!!
it started all with my laptop.
my laptop is giving me problem since the weekends and the worse had to be the one that happened in school.
i wasn't able to use the laptop for the whole day!!!
i went to the acer service centre to get things repaired furthermore if i go there i need to clarify the problems i had which includes the battery which does not cover by warranty.
Battery without warranty cost $190!!!
i told my mum and she told me to just buy it but she heave a sigh...
i felt really bad so i compromise with her, i told her that i will pay her at the end of the month.
i can't bare to make others to be in difficult position because of me and i rather have myself suffer than to see others just because of my problem.
thats another thing...
the acer guy told me, i had to wait for 2 hours so he took my hp number and told me that sms will be send to me when there are 3 person ahead of me.
DANG!!! i realise i didn't bring my phone!!!
i went to sit and thinking whether i should go back or not to take my phone since its 2 hours.
i decided to go back so i rush and took it,the moment i took it and on my way back, acer sms-ed me!!!
i m really into trouble!!
if i missed the queue, i have to take another queue number which is 2 hours more for waiting time...
i decided to hail a cab but to no avail, then i saw bus coming, i board on it and took a cab from the mrt station.
it cost me $10 when i had to save for my batteries!!!!
I just reach on time and they are serving 1037 while i am 1039...
i had cold sweats and seriously!!! i felt a close shave!!
its my turn, told everything bout the DAMN lappy and he told me its the MOBO(mother board)
in my heart, i was like SHIT~! now i have to borrow a laptop from school and to come early tommorow!!
He said the Mobo is out of stock and it needs 7 working days.
so yeah everything was done then i went to search for my sister baking stuff but nothings available and i need to go to lot1.
At that point of time, i felt like fainting because i have yet to eat my breakfast and i am having my early period...
everything was done at 12pm and i start my day at 8am
my lips was dry and i was dehydrating...
i went lot1 and bought my sister things but there's still some things i need to get for her.
i went back home and rest for like 2 hours then my sis called asked me to collect my niece hmwk at her school cause she have not been coming to school since monday due to fever that is going on and off.
at that point of time, i felt really DRAINED OUT!!
i didn't even have the mood to eat, i ate half of my lunch and thats it.
i went back to my alma matar which is currently where my niece is studying and i saw my english teacher that i hate...
who cares i DON'T KNOW HIM!!!
he was just right beside me...
then went back home again and rest after awhile i went to cwp to bought my sis things and then back to my eldest sis house to take care of my niece!!

fuhh~
that was my day and i am having a hard time.GOD KNOWS!!!
when i am having a hard time, all i was hoping for was patience to go through this and not to curse.
i know this is a test for me.
= )
trust me, the feeling of this is really bad but i m trying hard not to be pessimistic.

2009-01-03T22:24:00.002+08:00

ouh god!!! there's 3 weeks left before i called it a holiday...
i dreaded going to school but you never know the moment you saw your classmates..
today i accidentally cut my finger while chopping something to make breakfast and its the sharpest knife my mum had in the kitchen...
the wound is slightly deeper cause it doesn't stop bleeding even after washing it and putting the plaster and taking it off...
the moral of story, be careful in the kitchen!!!

anyway, today i was watching a documentary about 119 which is so called the firefighter/life savior in Korea.
there was one particular incident where a girl was roaming around the streets past midnight because her house door was locked.
she was crying, the sad thing is she isn't like any normal kid, her aunty brought her and the guys(the savior i mean)went over to that girl house. the guys try knocking it quite hard and for several times, suddenly the girl gets an epilepsy because of the knocking sound made by the guy.
Her father is inside the house and he refuse to open the door, he was drunk and he hates his daughter. the guys had to enter their house by the window and when they open the door, the girl enters but yet she didn't want to go in instead she was shouting "where's my sister? please come back home faster!!!" Her dad can still sleep even the guy broke in.
the father can't stand the noise,the next thing he did was to said he don't want her and slam the door upon them.
The guys watched her and her aunt gave up upon that girl and leave by taxi. The girl cried and shriek.
How cruel can human be!!!
they may be a life savior but there are things they can't do. All of them watch helplessly and their eyes are full of sympathy.
i was crying while watching it and i can't stand this kind of inhuman acts.
this kind of people is worse than animals!!!

2008-12-31T15:13:00.009+08:00

now i m sitting at home relaxing and laying like a snake....sssss
so ytd, me and my clique went to marina barrage it was scorching hot that i got a sunburnt!!!
we had a small picnic and what more CAMWHORE!!!lol
azri have already put up the pic over at facebook so its meaningless if i put it up on my album so i'll post it here....
wrapping up 2008...
so i've come to conclude to do nothing that gave me a sense of achievement..
personally i don't really need a resolution because i can come up with goals at any point of time, it does not need to be new year....
all i hope is just to be happy and i have the perseverance to withstand the upcoming obstacles = )

there's alot of pics this is just a quarter of it...i m lazy to upload the others...happy new year in advance

2008-12-29T22:55:00.002+08:00

alrite~ ytd was my cousin wedding!!
i swear i am tired from helping out and i felt my legs are ripping off!!!
the above pics are the girls cousin, my niece and nephew...there are others who are left out from the picture...
i can't wait for tommorow!!!yay!!
i think i am hating(its not extreme but i just dislike) people who have princess syndrome more and more...
y??
-people are living hard enough and they have to spend their money like water just to feel pretty. Instead, go and do something useful with the money such as donating it to the needy
-fairytale do not exist in this world because there is no such thing as ETERNITY!!!!
- no human CAN or could have EVERYTHING in this world unless they are bless with it by working hard
- darn it!!they are not MISS WORLD!!

2008-12-24T00:40:00.002+08:00

for the first time in my life i had nightmares..
i was felt really scared in my dreams and i quickly opened my eyes at 4.10 am.
i can't move my body because all my body parts felt numb and i was afraid to sleep again.
i am not thinking much bout it...

there's 6 more days left before its gonna be 2009!
time flies
my new year resolution,i've yet to think bout it.

let's just be contented with what we have. = )
my sister is smiling and laughing beside me but for no reason i felt really sad and want to cry!!!

2008-12-22T23:35:00.002+08:00

today,went over to my sis house...
sat around and studied FTT...
tmrw i m going to a Christmas party!!!yeah!! WITH KIDS~
thats right, its the yearly Christmas party that my 3rd niece have in school...

PPLE I'VE SEND MY EMAIL ABOUT THE PICNIC, PLEASE TAKE NOTE~
can't wait for the picnic...yeppie~
well me and my friends were planning to go for musical concert at the end of our year2 which is 4 weeks away!!!
i wanted to watched BREAKOUT..
its a non-verbal comedy acted by the korea B-BOYS...cool isn't it??!
the plots is like prison break but with NUNS inside....no idea how the story will be...
the cheapest tickets are available at level 3 of the theater and level 1 cheap tickets and good seat are NOT AVAILABLE!!!! (at times like this, i need to be KIASU[NO!!I M NOT PROUD TO BE ONE]. Grab a good seats with cheap price ASAP cos it runs out quite fast although the show is next year. fyi, the one that i wanted to go is available around the valentines day)
wth~
level 3,what you want to watch??its so far!!!
well the good seats= expensive tickets are still available but god!! i need money!!!
same goes for Rodgers & Hammerstein’s Cinderella and CATS(even with a student discount!!)
how i wish at this point of time money drop from the sky!!

k..need to sleep!!!

2008-12-20T14:14:00.002+08:00

where did the time go??

whether your mind keeps...

going or not.

time does

everything that happened which used to be unacceptable

and hard to believe

i'm becoming familiar with

i sit around and tears flow

afraid someone will see i let my head fall

i avoid that place like i'm running away but yet

when i plop down to tie my untied shoe

i collapse to the ground

everything at this moment comes to a halt but yet

i'm used to it

somehow i've been

making it through the days

time passes by again looking for something to do

my heart dropping suddenly

from that one word "farewell"

heard among the countless people

and just being silent

because i hate myself still talking like you after all this time

its' all familiar

its still familiar but still unfamiliar just like before

i've made it through but yet its difficult like before

though i'd thought i left it

its all at thetip of my fingers like before

i'd thought i wiped it put but its full just like before

i sit around and tears flow
afraid someone will see i let my head fall
i avoid that place like i'm running away but yet
when i plop down to tie my untied shoe

i collapse to the ground

everything at this moment comes to a halt but yet

sending you away like that

with words i had to fake

i wonder if you still

remember what you said to me

those words that when another winter comes it will all be forgotten

credit:TheAsianMission

the above is the lyrics from the song that is playing on my jukebox..

anyway...
on thursday, i went to geylang wet market with my parents...we had breakfast and then me and my nieces,nephew waited for my parents to finish grocerries shopping..
this uncle suddenly goes to his bicycle and rang his bicycle bell at me...
so i looked at him and he asked me,if i have started schooling...
i replied a yes and he gave me a quiz in malay...
pkcik: pkcik kasih teka-teki,kalau dapat jawapannya pakcik belikan sarapan nasi
me: tak apalah pakcik, saya pun dah makan sarapan.
pakcik: teka-tekinya begini, di atas meja ada ikan dan di bawa meja ada tikus. Dimana agaknya si kucing??cuba jawab.

adelah aku tengok pakcik tu dengan dahi aku berkerut.
jangan ckp jawapan yang aku sedang fikir, yang aku fikir,"asal pakicik ni tanya aku??"
sampai sekarang aku tak dapat jawapan dia.
kesimpulan yang aku telah buat ialah kucing makan ikan tetapi kalau dalam kartun tom and jerry, kucing suka makan tikus. Dalam dunia ni aku tk pernah nampak kucing kejar tikus.
sebenarnya, bila pakcik tu tanye aku teka-teki, dalam otak aku...MAMPUS!!DAH LAH AKU TAK BAGUS DENGAN TEKA-TEKI.

sebenarnya aku ade pantun untuk pakcik yang tanye aku

Pergi ke geylang membeli ikan tenggiri
tenggiri dibelinya untuk dimakan kucing setiap hari
pakcik bertanya teka-teki itu hari
apa kata pakcik JAWAB SENDIRI!!!

ceh~...haha

2008-12-18T00:38:00.002+08:00

summary of the day....

didn't really do much.
i woke up early and went BBDC for BTT..yeah, i passed at the second attempt which is consider alright for a private candidate.
then went back home,took a nap and met jing wei at admiralty around 3.30...
we were talking and what i meant talking as in SERIOUS TALKING!!!
he shared with me bout his experience,thoughts and life...
i kind of shocked because he seems more mature than his age given to the environment he is in..
i think he is a business oriented person with his own style of surviving in the world..
he asked me what are my dreams???what's my future plans??
i astounded and stone for a moment at the same time thinking hard..
i realise i had no dreams and what i have lead in life was just following the flow and be contented with it...
being complacent is not a good thing.
there's lot of things he shared with me which i can't remember but the word DREAMS hit me too hard that i am still thinking bout it...
for him, i think he really had a big dream which he had planned and had things worked out...
i just hope that he will be successful.
another thing i realise, i felt that the world i live in there are negative side to it but i just refuse to see it and don't bother... well, the truth and facts have always been ugly...

at times of uncertainty....have you ever thought bout it??
i got to start thinking and work things out for myself because i want to survive in this world!!

2008-12-13T00:55:00.003+08:00

i m bored but at the same time i am frustrated.
all i feel is just to scream at one person and throw tantrum..
yess, i've never do such a thing but when things are too overboard i think its really the time...
the more i try to figure out, the more i hate maybe despise is a stronger word...
this is the time where PITY or should i call sympathy doesn't come in place be it whats the relationship...
i am seriously having doubts bout people and i don't understand why you need to lie...
the truth doesn't hurt like the lies do...

****censored**** YEAH..get what i mean..

ouh and a HAPPY 18TH birthday to AMIR!!! =)

2008-12-12T21:51:00.003+08:00

its holiday!!! YAY!!
nope it doesn't mean that i am gonna take a rest from studying UT...
my normal routine of taking care of my niece is still up but i am gonna miss W54G rowdiness during the 3 weeks holiday...not forgetting falah,the crazy idiot who have been bullying me lately..
furthermore i m adding something to it....
how funny isn't it, telling them SEE YOU NEXT YEAR when the next year means 3 weeks after...
it shows that time flies...
today UT was fine because i study pretty well so i hope for a good grade!!please do!!!

anyway enough bout schoool...
i need a new top and went to threadless.com(my favourite online shop to get nice t-shirts)
these are my choices...

this is nice because of its blue t-shirt and the design compliments it quite well.

This my most favourite among the 3 because its red and the design???i can't comprehend either but its nice..

this is quite nice too

i realise the colour i wanted are all primary colors...
i m hoping there will be another batch of orders.....PLEASE!!!

2008-12-10T22:02:00.002+08:00

i m gonna finish this last lap and try my best...
i just missed the feeling of achieving what you wanted in life...
it need not be a target bout being in the top 10 or in the rolls of honor list, i am satisfied if i have just meet my targets in life..that's all = )

2008-12-09T15:18:00.002+08:00

i m back from KL...
i went over for the Hari Raya Aidiladha celebration..
went for 2 days 1 night..
it was a good rest for me, away from the laptop,didn't think much bout what's in singapore and just relax..i guess my niece really had a fun times till she did not want to go back home...
the frustrating part was that i went for a holiday feeling sick..
sore throat, flu and cough,eating medicine made me lost my appetite...
anyway, the celebration over there can be felt...
early in the morning,takbir(not so sure what is it in english) can be heard.
Woke up early in the morning with NO WATER HEATER...the water is 2 times cold with the rainy day..
the guys went for prayers while the women get ready to watch the sheep or the cow sacrificial thingy..
this was my second time seeing it so it was nothing...
from singapore to KL it was a 5 hour drive...i just listen to my ipod shuffle, sleep or i'll be watching the scenery,the mountains are kind of hazy with the morning dews because my whole family set off at 6 am in the morning!!!
it was fun....
one thing i feared the most was driving on the way back home because there were so many cars and it was night and dark..
there were so many accidents and i am grateful that we are safe back home.
now i m back, i need to settle my EZ-LINK...yes!!!! I LOST IT!!!
i've blocked it and i m making a new one with a better PHOTO!!LOL
which arse who used my ez-link...aku tk HALAL-KN ar!!!

i skipped school today cause i went back home quite late yesterday around 3am because of the congestion for 2 hours!!
i realise this week, there isn't any biochem on frIday because it have been push forward due to the public holiday..
so the conclusion is WE END THE WEEK WITH GENETICS!!!
YAY....
school holiday is coming sooon! woo~
there's lot of things to do...mugging for UT4(i think i m gonna do pretty badly for my chem & immunology UT3), cooking and bla bla bla....the list goes on....

2008-12-04T20:01:00.002+08:00

School UTs are really killing me...
3 UTs per week, whats' more mugging for the module that is in my list of LEAST FAVORITE....
taking care of my niece...
go back home, study, do rj and then sleep...
next day wake up and start another new routine...
yeah i m lifeless and don't even have a time to chill and catch a breath..

ANYWAY....HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY TO ALVIS(i've wish him actually) and 19th advance birthday to ONG ZHENG KAI A.K.A. monster
i will not be in singapore so yeah...advance wish....
alvis legal already...LOL but the fact is nothing change, you are the youngest among the whole class...

okay gotta study CHEM and i am abit frustrated with it cause the few problems, i m having difficulty understanding...

lets just take as what it is...i am so lazy to complain and to make any comments.

2008-12-01T20:01:00.002+08:00

tell u guys what happened this morning when i was getting ready for school...
this bottle of powder drop somewhere in between of my tv and my dressing table...
so i kind of put my hand in between those two things and reach out something that is far beyond my reach without shifting the dressing table...
SUDDENLY!!!
i got a cramp around my neck and shoulder...
i felt that the nerve that is connected to my neck is seriously strained...
it took me awhile before i m able to move properly...

another thing is that i get frequent eyes fatigue or was it computer eye strain...
8.30- 4pm at the laptop on weekdays and 12 hours on weekends...
i think this is really getting serious..
usually after third meeting whereby all stress are gone, just have to sit back and hear to presentation...
my eyes feels in discomfort...
my temple feel so intense after that, i get sleepy when the pain ease...
have to cut down on my laptop hours....its not good...

ouh and the niece i m taking care of is already in K1...
she is growing up...
I could still remember the day she went to school crying and her eyes will be all swollen the moment i took her back from school..
time really flies......
year 3 is coming...
omgd....
got to study for tmrw ut and RJ = )

2008-11-29T22:46:00.002+08:00

guess what i did for the whole day??

the moment i woke up frm sleep, i asked my mum if the mumbai attack have come to an end..
Thank god it was over!!although it took them 3 days to clear but at least some of them survive,better than nothing...
then i went to CNA to check out about it and read about those who were affected and their account..again, next, i went to CNN to check out the videos of their reporter reporting from the scene....while the reporter was reporting, there was a loud blast behind her...scary isn't it!!

anyway, i dig up some info bout the militants....
the policemen told that one of the gunmen bag contains magazine of bullets,a Mauritius ID,dried food and a satellite phone to stay in touch...

read this

i guess all of them got brainwash....doing something without a purpose...

2008-11-28T23:23:00.002+08:00

the world is getting scary...
protesting....terrorist....
i hope this things would end as soon as possible.
RIP to the singaporean women who got killed in Mumbai attack.
i was so curious, i went to search for pictures, news from CNA and other sources just to see how serious it is....
no comments could made up to all this tragedies but just a wish that this think will end..
wishing for a miracle...

i m getting headache and i think i need to sleep... = )
world PEACE V

2008-11-27T22:24:00.002+08:00

let me introduce my new friend....
My best buds, MONSTER ONG ZHENG KAI!!!...wahaha...

there is a reason why i did this...
the whole class crack into laughter upon seeing this...
i am pretty please that weekend is coming and even the holiday...
i think my classmates are getting pretty active, they went to play basketball on tuesday and then to the gym on wednesday....
lets have our own PE day!!!!...HAHA...
Healthy lifestyle...
ok..i wanna sleep...

god!! help me to withstand and go through any obstacles if there's any.... = )

2008-11-25T10:11:00.003+08:00

i am feeling very tired...
i woke up late for school...i should wake up at 6 am instead i woke up at 7am..
my brother damn bastard...he never wakes me up,he knows i always woke up early to go to school...selfish arse!!!
i didn't have my breakfast and as i was walking to the MRT station...i felt the tiredness....
my neck aches and my head tooo....
such a day to begin with....

chemistry is quite oookay today....
let's try my best!!!

2008-11-23T21:07:00.002+08:00

so how's life??

nothings new....i've cut my hair not long ago after having a long hair for ages!!
there is a saying, having a new hair cut means a change of heart....
that is so not true,this goes especially to JUN XIANG, don't worry, nobody hurt me...
i m just trying out a different hairstyle...

having a nephew..
he's 2 months old currently..
things change at home..more laughter and cries(my nephew of course!!)...
my eldest sis will always come over during the weekends just to see him..
indirectly, it gathers the whole family...

school....
its been great than ever...
the whole class dominated by boys and they are bunch of funny people.
left 5 more weeks to go before the end of year 2...
time really flies..
sometimes i don't feel like going to school but thinking bout how fun is my class, it just drive me..
of course, i go to school to study and not to have fun...
did i mention..science is killing me...
i didn't know that the modules are slowly killing my likeness toward science..well maybe except for genetics...

as you can see, my life revolves around family,school and studies....
i've little time for my friends..
anyway, MIDAH!!! we have to meet one of these days..the last time we met was raya right??
effah too...pompuan..aku dah lama tk jumpa kau!!!i rmbr the last time was before puasa...

You finally sleep and when you wake up,it’s true.

You are part of a brand-new world.

2008-11-23T15:25:00.002+08:00

gosh~
i m hungry!!!
anyway, i've recently heard alot of things bout Bhutan...
be it on the newspaper and the media..
the happiest people in Asia...
the country is well balance of modernization and preserving their culture..
all of the bhutanese are required to wear their national clothes.
Not long ago they had crowned a new king, 28 years old ,an oxford educated bachelor...he is the youngest reigning monarch...
the country political system is control by a absolute monarchy to a constitutional monarchy...
i wonder how is it like to stay over there...
u are stress-free and living in the village....
you can cultivate your own agriculture...nice..
that shall go under my list of my "must visit country"...
i m off to eat my lunch..... = )

2008-11-20T22:13:00.002+08:00

HAIR....HAIR....HAIR....
this is what i heard all day long in class other than games games games...
zheng kai had a hair cut which looks abit weird on him....
he is whining and complaining bout his hair cut which cost him $7.
CLASS i think he needs a hair extension or wig!!LOL
while vonny had a colored(red,green and bronze??) hair extension...i think the theme is christmas...HEHE(joking)
she was boasting bout it and emphasize it of a HIGH QUALITY....ha!!!
the other lose hair while another gain hair...GREAT!!!

it was so funny in class...we never failed to laugh or make fun of others each day.. = )

2008-11-18T23:17:00.002+08:00

lets just put it this way, U receive for what u gave to people..

anyway, my mind is really distraught.GOD, let me think straight and throw away all the thoughts.
i need a break from all this routine thing...
i need to go on an inverter and shout!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~

2008-11-17T18:40:00.002+08:00

I M FREAKING PISSED!!!!
I AM SO ANGRY THAT I FELT IT BURNING IN MY HEART!!!
ALL I WANT TO DO IS JUST TO THROW SOMETHING SO HARD AGAINST THE WALL!!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2008-11-16T01:31:00.002+08:00

my life have been great...
school have been great tooo because of my classmate...bullying people and being bullied is a daily routine for me in class...HAHA...
i am enjoying every bit of it.
although it is a tiring process to go through the same routine everyday,
i m just grateful that everyday i manage to smile and laugh heartily instead of worrying or get sad over something...

k!!i wanna sleep!!!

2008-11-13T19:57:00.004+08:00

So i m done with UT2 and UT3 is coming in next week!!!DIE....
slowly,my UT grades are improving and i m happy....
let's look what happen today in school.
Basically we are having lab session for genetics module and my class is EXTREMELY HYPER...
today was like a bonding session...we ate lunch together, laugh off over jokes and I SWEAR you can notice me in the canteen cause the pple around me were LOUD ESPECIALLY ZHENG KAI!!(LOL)

anyway back to the lab...
so we are doing on cheek cells to determine your sex which have been used in athlete to determine whether they ware female or male cos sometimes female can look like a male and vice versa(U GET WHAT I MEAN??)

did i tell u that my class is dominated by guys and they are full of gay acts EVERY SINGLE DAY!!

(LET'S CHECK OUT THE BESPECTACLE GROUP AND AHMAD IS ONE OF THEM!!!)
HAHAHA opps = X

this is my team but Ian extra ar(the guy bespectacle)!!!....FALAH ACT CUTE!!

PEACE for Cheek cells!!!LOL

Alvis SO serious!!! while Ahmad just waiting for the cells to APPEAR!!...tsk tsk!!!LAZY AHMAD!

Result:

my cheek cells

sabrina cheek cells and hers is nice because of her staining...

chris cheek cells

you can see IAN digging his mouth so deep..haha..no lar, he was scrapping out his cheek cells out while i am helping zheng kai(i'm helpful right!!!)..

2008-11-10T22:36:00.002+08:00

I WANT TO SLEEP!!!
BUT I NEED TO STUDY FOR IMMUNOLOGY UT!!!
argh!!!!!
immunology have lots of things to recap from the previous problem although it is a new problem..
ANTIGEN!!ANTIBODY!!!MHC CLASS I,MHC CLASS II......
CYTOTOXIC KILLER CELLS, T HELPER CELL...
i want to recap what i studied just now....

BARE WITH ME!!!I M NUTS~!

MHC I- endogenous-->viral proteins--> antigen presenting to cytotoxic killer cell
protein is being degrade by proteosome-->peptide-->goes in to endoplasmic rectilum-->binds with MHC I molecule-->present to cytotoxic killer cells but need t helper cells for cytokines to eradicate the pathogens....

2008-11-06T22:31:00.003+08:00

basically, i've abandoning my blog because i am busy to write or either i prefer to keep it to myself.
this week pretty sux!!
school re-opens after one week holiday and i got a sorethroat and flu for it...
then...
the pleasant suprise comes in during second break whereby my friends gather to wish me happy bdae....although its like super belated..thanks guys for the cake n present..
to pkcik,don't feel bad!! i value your wishes so its okay...no need to bake a cake for me,alrite??
anyway, next week will be busy for UT's and then module selection for year 3~(so fast)
time flies and i don't have time to breathe and have my own time..
PP PASSED!!! left fyp....
i hope i won't fall sick because of exhaustion...

2008-11-02T20:23:00.004+08:00

Thats it for the holiday!!!
one week of holiday just burned like that and doing nothing meaningful..
Monday- public holiday, make amendments to PP poster
tuesday- woke up early and go all the way to bugis to have my poster printed then to my sister house
wednesday- practice PP presentation then went to take care of my niece
thrusday- PP presentation,half of the day..went back and just relax after the nerve wrecking PP.
friday- slack,slack and more slack!!!...study for btt
saturday- went for BTT,then to bukit gombak to my help my aunt catering service all the way to 11pm
sunday- whole day helping my aunt for the wedding event

see my cousin eating!!!

roar~ (i did not eat that chicken,just acting)

was wrapping up the food to clear up..

as u can see, all burned like that!!!
one week is not enough and my tiredness have yet to be gone...

i'm having ulcer and sorethroat...just hope that time will flies when school re-open..

2008-10-31T01:52:00.002+08:00

life is getting real hard...
not that i am complaining but after all, i m a human!
i do have a fair share of complaints bout life...
all i know, i need to pull myself together and try my best...
seriously...i m feeling it right now...
sometimes you know that you gonna go thru all these hurdles and till the day comes...u stumble upon it...
u get breathless...sick in the stomach..don't even want to talk and smile....thats what i feel right now...nothing seems to be right...
people don't even care whether u can or can't take it...
even words fail to comfort u...
nothing is smooth...things co-exist in life...the good and the bad...the devil and angels...
one thing is for sure...in order for u to learn whats life....u need to be dump in the situation to learn..

someone wish to have more money...
someone wish to have a companion..
for me,
i wish that i will be able to pull through this whole of my life....
because....
everything that you wish to have,
you need go through the hurdles before having it
= )

that's what i learn in life...

2008-10-30T14:17:00.002+08:00

so PP is over!!!
i m seriously hoping that i pass this module and i've seen the acessor comments...
so far..
the first thing is, i m not late!!! i was behind the booth waiting for my turn!!..the advisor wrote that i was late...other than that it was oook...she comment that i can go in depth to understand better..

next thing...one of advisor commented that what i presented was all superficial and lack of concrete information when she didn't listen to my presentation!!! she even said that i lack of understanding of the company i m doing...but i handle my QnA moderately..

for the other acessor....they gave me good comments cause she was listening to my presentation and i manage to answer her qns well...
PASS or FAIL??..i don't know but i hope to pass!!!(who doesn't??)

next on my list?...BTT...have to study...one whole week of holiday are fulls of events that is enough to make my heart explode because i m really nervous....what if everyday is a nerve-wrecking day?...I CAN DIE!..seriously...

2008-10-26T01:23:00.002+08:00

when you lost your way....
just look at the night sky with sparkling stars that leads to your way...

happy 19 = )
(no matter wat's the answer, i m utterly disappointed)

2008-10-25T14:41:00.003+08:00

ytd i was feeling lost..i don't know why...
went to school,caught in the drizzle..
biochem was a headache and team members weren't helping that much except xue fang...
well..what do i care??i just tried to understand and did my best although i m really down = (

complain??nothing will change the situation..
tell the truth?it would hurt others....
i always tell myself that there are people who is having the worst situation than me thus i m grateful..no matter how bad..

2008-10-21T23:37:00.002+08:00

i m bored so i went to read ChannelNewsAsia website bout the latest news...
i watched USA presidency and i m seriously rooting for OBAMA!!!!...
then news bout him came out...
he stopped his activities for a moment to visit his ailing grandmother, his anchor of life...
i think he should win because he is against Bush way of politics...

[ Clinton, appearing at a rally with Obama on a balmy evening in Florida, said McCain just represented an extension of the presidency of George W. Bush.

"We are in an economic crisis born and bred by the failed Republican policies of George Bush and John McCain.

"George Bush has practiced what John McCain has preached. " Quote from: ChannelNewsAsia website ]

soo true !!!!..this is my 5 cents worth of opinion....its kind of interesting to watch who gonna win, then seeing them turning the country to a better and peaceful OR disastrous and more wars= Economic crisis.

2008-10-21T23:05:00.005+08:00

recently i m addicted to word challenge in facebook....thanks to farah!!!
anyway, ytd i resume my "babysitting" as my niece have recover from her second attack of chicken pox....the second attack, people recover quite fast because B cells have a memory of the particular virus so it destroys much faster as it will secrete it antibodies for phagocytosis to occur...HA!!!Immunology!!

Back on track, i played with her after bathing her.. we played the cupcake maker TOY!!
COOL OR WAT!!!
it was seriously fun!!!
we mix cake mixture and even the frosting...it was a real hands on for kids....
we bake the cake mixture and then decorate it...
the frosting was abit unsuccessful because it is dilute with water...in addition, i only know how to do the real icing frosting and not this toy thingy!!
let the pics depicts itself..

lastly,the pics below is my nephew smiling while he sleeps....i didn't manage to capture the full wide smile that shows just his gums.....i capture at the very end.....

^this is the third niece that i m taking care of and she have grown quite alot....vain right!!i know!!this pic was taken when she was 9 mnths old or 1 yr old..i can't rmbr!!! 5 MORE DAYS~~~

extra pics.....with my another nephew....

2008-10-16T20:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO AL-FALAH!!!
thanks for switching off my adapter and my screen went black!!!!...MY BATTERY CAN'T BE USE!!!U pandai!!!!

anyway...genetics today sux!!!
i went off before the 3rd meeting because i seriously don't know how to apply the things to the problem....GAH!!!
i went back home n took a 3 hours nap and the worst part is that i don't want to wake up although i am not that sleepy...i don't know why...

now i m working out on how to do this burke line to check out the reaction of an enzyme...
thank god tmrw is FRIDAY and hopefully its not that hard....
ciao!!

2008-10-14T23:13:00.004+08:00

lets list the things out what i want to do for tmrw
-jog!!!(i haven't done this for months and when i took the stairs to the class cos the elevator was full of people, i started panting...thats y need to exercise!!!)
-do PP poster
-install adobe photochop CS4 into my lappy and start scrapbooking!!!YAY!

cutting of hair is in my list but i still don't know whether to cut it or not?? = (
i have the big urge cos i want new hairstyle pretty badly but i SAYANG my long hair...we'll see...

anyway, today after UT, went to have my late lunch with fiza then back home...
guess whom i saw while i was alighting at yew tee??...some people in my history...
he walks so freaking slow!!!
i was trying hard to avoid him and i walk behind him slowly...
i am a fool because i tried other ways or should i say a long way and then back to the normal route that i used to take.....JUST TO AVOID???ha~

i have no pictures to share but i have my nephew pics...
whom i always kiss each time i get back home and watch him sleep soundly...

ha~ i powder him with johnson's baby powder so he smell nice and i can kiss him on his cheecks..

His cheecks are getting chubbier each day!!!...i wanna bite them*ROAR*..hehe

Zzzzz

he looks exactly like his 2nd sister...

he got shot! = )

i m turning in early today!!
good night people...
if it happens that NORASMIDAH read this post....MANA GAMBAR RAYA???.....jgn tersengeh2 macam kera sumbang!!

2008-10-13T23:36:00.002+08:00

okay!!! let's make this entry a fast one...
today is so BORING!! immunology problem was fine,its just that i spend the whole of the entire break in class and do the powerpoint for today problem....
15 mins before the third meeting starts then i went down with ahmad to grab some bites...

OFFICIALLY I WANT TO DECLARE!!!
ONG ZHENG KAI IS SO IRRITATING TODAY!!!

he kept laughing and laughing while falah team present...
when faci asked whether we have any question, he and nathan started laughing..i look at zheng kai with the weird look and shook my head....
then!!! he go and told faci, "FACI!KASMINAH DIDN'T UNDERSTAND BECAUSE SHE SHOOK HER HEAD JUST NOW!!!"
WTH!!! Then he laughed...
irritating...well he was trying to be funny and he laughed at his own jokes...
try harder!!!

gtg..i m now only at problem 2 for revision of Applied chem II...
i m sick of ut!!!

2008-10-12T19:59:00.002+08:00

i hope GOD open up your eyes..
sometimes i just want to drop all this burden and just prioritize my parents.
no matter how bad my parents treat me, deep down i know they always have our interest at heart.
i would never forget how they raise me up!!
i don't know what to say....talking bout it just make me sad...

2008-10-11T19:16:00.000+08:00

my first scrapbook piece and i think i enjoy it pretty much!!

2008-10-11T00:38:00.005+08:00

you guys have no idea how drained out i felt today...
first:
BIOCHEM was seriously cracking my brain.
I was cheated by the few beginning of worksheet because it were easy but when the later part, about the formula and plotting some weird curve, my head almost crack. it was mentally drain out and whats more,the Genetics UT1 was right after class. My eyes were in pain and my neck is really strained because i was so concentrated on doing my work on the laptop. BTW the quiz sucks!!! i have to crack my brain for it..just for a quiz!!!

second: i went back home and quickly change cause i m going to RAYA at my primary school fren house...one of my bestties...we had fun without realizing that time really flies and its 11.30 pm!!! i felt like a Cinderella cause i was rushing back home by 12 am to complete my rj(LOL!!WATEVER!!)...I WALK QUITE FAST WITH MY HEELS!!!!!LOL...anyway, after seeing my old friends..all the flashback comes to my mind!!...its a pity effah can't attend.

here's the pic!!!

i m extremely exhausted

2008-10-09T20:44:00.005+08:00

how i wish time could reverse back everything...
today was quite relaxing because i went off for second break on time and only back to class 30 minutes before third meeting... what i did during the break was that i went to Causeway point with fiza to get a cake and had lunch at kfc.
i've never had this kind of free time in my whole life of RP!!
usually i would do research and worksheet,trying to understand...science make me this kind of person....LOL(whatever eh!!)

anyway, i was so fickle on what cake to pick for azri cos i knoe he likes chocolate soo much..there were NUTELLA,BLACK FOREST,CHOCOLATE TRUFFLE...all was tempting for him if he sees it...HA!!!
i decided to take black forest cause NUTELLA was abit *cough*expensive*cough* my entry will be very long if i go into details of how me and my friends suprised him.
Happy belated birthday...dah 18 eh but u r still the youngest among us!!!hoho

the garfield paper plate..we bought it last min...cute rite!!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY!!! i know this is your first birthday cake for ur 18 bdae!!!!HEHE...

i saw beam today while walking back with fiza....he was so random helding out his hand and asked for a hand shake...
he didn't go to school and went back to school for RUGBY TRAINING!!!...tsk tsk...bad BEAM!!

2008-10-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

there's been funny things happening around...
well maybe its just reminiscing the old times, ytd me and ahmad were bored so we shared some funny stories....i guess i had more funny stories than him...
Today, wei ling was being an idiot....she is so thick skin cos she said that the 1st wonderful things n my list is that she is apart of my life....tsk tsk....its not the first but its on the list my dear~

i need to do something to my hair... i guess i will do something to it during the holiday... there are many things gonna happen in a few next day...
my brother will be back frm vietnam on 10 october..
my nephew gonna turn 1 month-old on the 11 october..
UT's on 10,13 & 14....
AND i will be resuming back my daily routine which is to take care of my 3rd niece after school everyday...

i want to share something funny....

this guy with some other guy who were wearing other costume such as joker from batman and others...they even need to put on make up...it was so funny...
they have to go to a place with that costume...
the kungu panda was the funniest to me because if u guys watch the show, the guy wore a floral flair pants with his butt sticking out and his belly popping out that makes him look like KUNGFU PANDA EXACTLY!!! = )

goodnight peeps~
i need to sleep =)

2008-10-07T13:34:00.002+08:00

rain rain go away come again an0ther day~
my eyes are in pain
you know what...i don't have anything to blog about...

2008-10-03T00:06:00.005+08:00

first of all...
i wanna curse n swear cos i need to go to school on the second day of raya and even third day!!!LIKE WTH!!
it just bring my mood down n i m freaking tired...

anyway here's the hari raya pic.....

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^see that...my niece smile like so sweet~ha

^me n my cousin...(baju die mcm nk joget malay dance!!!LOL)

^nieces and nephew(third generation of kamsin's)

^the highlight....my big family = )

2008-10-01T15:52:00.003+08:00

before i start any entry, i have to reply to my tags first..
to emily: sorry, i intend to come to school but i was really tired for the hari raya preparation at home..i miss u too...THANKS~~HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO U =)

to midah and effah: ha~ pompuan2 slamat hari raya!! jgn lupa dtng rumah!!

anyway, today is the first day of raya....
the day before was seriously tiring..endless cleaning of home through out the night but i glad its all over and its time to enjoy...
lastly....

saya ingin mengucapkn selamat hari raya kepada kwn2 saya, tidak kira rapat atau yg tk berapa kenal. Mohon ampun dan maaf sekiranya ade salah dan silap atau dengan tidak sengaja melukakan perasaan. SLAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI!!! collection time!!!!hehe i didn't get to wish all my friends because i was really2 busy with stuff at home.

we were at this kid boutique which i found a tiara and asked her to wear it...

^20 days old nephew....since there was some leftover of orchid after the flower arrangement meant for the table, i plucked an orchid on put on him...hehe ^^

2008-09-27T23:51:00.002+08:00

"aiyah long distance ar!!!"*punch his palm*
this is wat i experienced just now in the train when i was on my way back .It happens at jurong because this damn uncle wasn't able to get a seat. he kept doing the same thing again n again right beside me while my sister was sitting down infront of me.
i was looking at him with ''wat r u implying u rude arse!!"....
SINCE WHEN THERE IS SUCH A RULE THAT WHEN U R GOING FOR A LONG DISTANCE U NEED TO SIT DOWN!!!!???
i was talking to my sis about it and raise my voice when i mention something important such as WE ARE FASTING!!! STANDING REQUIRES MORE ENERGY!!
i just don't understand....BTW ITS PEAK HOURS AND U CAN'T BLAME US FOR GRABBING A SEAT EARLIER THAN U!!!
i don't see a need for that uncle to take a seat cause some uncle who is OLDER than u were able to stand instead of insisting on others to give up the seat!!
BLOODY HELL!!! I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW PEOPLE COULD BE RUDE AND EVEN SELFISH!!!
GO N GET YOURSELF A CAR OR ANY VEHICLE THAT BRINGS YOU TO YOUR DESTINATION!!!! we(or my sis) wouldn't sit if its just one stop...tsk tsk...
go n get yourself educate ON PUTTING OTHERS BEFORE YOURSELF!!!!!

2008-09-23T23:35:00.000+08:00

getting more pathetic and i couldn't careless....

2008-09-21T20:58:00.004+08:00

after this entry, blog will be on hiatus...
anyway..life have been great with a newborn nephew...it seems that number of family and cousins are growing...
i m sooooo lazy to talk bout anything with the hot weather....
here's the pic of my nephew....
he is now 10 days old!!!

^he looks extra chubby in this pic....

i manage to capture this because he is so lazy to open up his eyes...

^after bathing

2008-09-16T23:26:00.002+08:00

i m pretty drained out...
sleep late...woke up at 4 for early breakfast and back to sleep at 5 and wake up again at 6 am...
its been like this since the fasting month and with a newborn nephew, its getting worse.
then today during 3rd meeting, i felt a sudden ache on my whole body.
i went back to my sis house and i can't stand it..feels so dehydrated and burning!!!

i had to break my fast earlier and pop 2 panadols then took an hour of sleep.
after that i took my niece back home from school and back to the routine.
i don't even have any sorethroat or anything and suddenly i had a fever...all thanks to the NOT ENOUGH SLEEP!!!

my class(or was it FALAH) was damn funny today!!we had paper balls fight...all of us were laughing really hard and bullying wilson was one of the jokes~~

2008-09-13T13:13:00.003+08:00

i am so sleepy!!!
u noe y??
i can't sleep because of my nephew.....he cried so loud that i could even wake up...
with him conquering the whole of my room, i was left to slept on the floor with no pillows!! ^^
i even used my niece big teddy bear as my pillow...

2008-09-11T23:54:00.003+08:00

update of my cute nephew...
i can't sleep thinking of him...i just can't wait!!!

2008-09-11T21:31:00.002+08:00

today was a great day although it was kind of tiring..
this morning at 4 my sis woke up to get ready to go to hospital and deliver her son.
anyway i went back home from school and then to my sis house ten to hospital and see my nephew!!!
it runs in the gene that they are tall with long fingers and toes.
the NOSE totally looks like his dad's.
the wide forehead is the trade mark of my family so yeah..it runs in the second generation...
the other features looks like his second sister.
they will coming back home tmrw~

i went to the hospital with my first sis,bro-in-law and my nieces...
the nieces kinds of get jealous because the parents were busy looking at their nephew so i kind of make her seems like a newborn...HA~

2008-09-10T16:39:00.003+08:00

my house is currently in chaos.
everybody is cleaning up here and there for the newborn.
my twin sis went for tuition and left me to do the job...IDIOT!!
u think u can escape is it??!!muahaha just wait till u get back home.
so we packed the baby things in the bag..i think i m going to kiddy palace to look out for baby stuff such as mittens... ^^
I BET there will be visitors to my house this weekends!
for sure!!

2008-09-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

this is random but!!! i think i get exhausted easily during the fasting month...
nowadays i only have 4 hours of sleep!!
but the weird thing is that i don't get tired in school...
i felt tired when i m walking and i even felt sleepy!!
today i don't need to take care of my niece so i went to causeway point with Pkcik and azri after school...
the moment i was on my way back home i felt really exhausted...i was resting my head on the MRT pole.
i even felt asleep while waiting for the bus!!! i was sitting down and resting my chin on my palm.
i felt asleep in the bus and even when i was about to alight the bus!
OMGD!!!i can't believe it myself...
when i reached home, i put down my things down and lay on the bed....immediately i felt asleep...
fasting month and schooling at the same time is very exhausting.

2008-09-09T20:52:00.002+08:00

k...great news...
my sister is going to give birth this thursday!!!(confirmed plus chop!!)[i still had no idea why does that chop goes with confirm??lol]
nephew....WELCOME TO THIS WORLD!!!

so tmrw had to clean up the house before the baby gets home.
today genetics was fun..the faci was quite nice and pretty.
time really flies and now its been 4 days with my new class...
i swear!! FALAH IS A FUNNY CLOWN!!
lets keep the story to myself and the class for the sake of fun!!!LOL
i laughed and almost got a stomach cramp.
"GAY"ISM~

this is the outdated story: my PP got approved ytd!!YAY!!!

2008-09-06T23:59:00.001+08:00

click to enlarge....
i had nothing to do so i played around with PICASA....hehe

2008-09-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

i m super tired!!!
i don't know why but i just feel that way.
partly, i didn't have anything to do...
today i am going to made a long list of things to do such as cleaning the house,register for BTT...
the things that i didn't manage to do and now that i have the time, i am setting it aside...
i've seriously had enough of doing things last minutes....

first day of school at w54G......
mmm...it was biochem and all my team members are guys and i thought!OMGD!just pray they are not lazy arse...
to my surprise, they are indeed helpful esp khai(his real name is ZENG KAI)....i made it up..
at first everybody was quiet in my team but well,being the idiot me...i try to joke around and we had laughter for the whole day...it was fun!!!
the guy that can't stop laughing was AHMAD!
while IAN the iron was OK...

second day....
immunology,i swear the faci talks really slow although her explanation is quite good.
she took her own sweet time to use the right words when she talk...
my team members are fun too for today....i got ahmad and Ian...with 2 new members;jing wei and vonny...
AND!!! FALAH fart!!!!WTH!!!in addition, with sound effect....haha...he is a funny guy,the whole day i was laughing because of what he was doing.
then zheng kai came to our group cause he was the only one frm ytd team that was not in today team....we talk as he was bored or maybe i should put it this way,he was abit sad that he is noe in our team...HAHA!

k...i m done!!!
i wanna sleep like seriously!!!!ciao = )

2008-09-04T17:44:00.002+08:00

plans for today after i get back home:
-bath
-RJ
-sleep!!!

i m feeling abit tired cause i can't sleep ytd and ended up sleeping 1 hr before "sahur"(i dun noe what is it in english)
then i went back to sleep and 1h and 30 mins later i woke up and get ready to school...
about my classmates and first day of school, i'll just comment it during the weekends..
i felt sorry for my friend cause i can't talk to him just now since i was busy with my school work...i'll talk to u soon aite! = )

2008-09-03T23:12:00.002+08:00

during the past few weeks, i learned something useful...
believing and trust yourself are something you need to have to accomplish what you want in life.
the IMPOSSIBLE could be POSSIBLE if u really trust yourself.
of course trusting itself is not enough,hard work do play a part in getting it...
let me put it in my own lay man terms...
trusting is something that u need in order to move while hard work is something that helps you to grab hold of the thing you want.

Second semester of year 2 will be commencing tmrw...
god!!time really flies and soon enough without me realising,i m in year 3.
each time when semester starts, i will always pray that i have a hardworking classmates!!

2008-09-02T02:41:00.001+08:00

i have just to believe in myself and take pride in it.

just give me the strength and the determination to go on..........no matter how hard it would be!

2008-09-02T00:58:00.002+08:00

i m seriously tired!!!!
i swear!!
i woke up in the morning and then go to JB shop for baju raya...hehe..
well i fork out my own money to buy my own stuff...my mum don't support me anymore,everything by my own.
then we go and break our fast at JB and went back home at 10+ p.m.
now,i m doing my PP...although i am finishing it soon, i felt that i still need to edit it so got alot of things to do...
i feel like crying cause i am tired and all i want to do is sleep but i am forcing myself to do this....DISCIPLINE!
but EFFAH blog entry made me laugh...ha!!

ok..im off to do my things and finish as much as i can....= )

2008-08-30T01:18:00.002+08:00

today my sister called me last minute and told me that i don't need to pick my niece up.
then i went to my sister and spree with her at vivocity!
i swear i m down with luck!
this kid was walking with a balloon and he hit me with it.WTH!
hey kid!be careful,i could prick ur balloon with a needle*evil laughter*
then this idiotic guy was carrying his shopping bag behind him on the shoulder and it accidentally hit me on my shoulder.
lazy idiot!!

confirm my nephew will be out next week!!
ramadhan gonna be different this time!!hehe...
this time spring cleaning have to take place early and no last minute thing!!!
10 points!!!= )

LASTLY a happy 22nd bdae to my bro!!
u r such a leech on dad and mums!u arse!!!LOL
and stop laughing at what i just said..
bon voyage for ur trip tmrw and come back home safely.