at last i am updating my blog!!
so whats up??
school, test and preparing of project for semester 2..
School of applied science is always the "kachiong" spider.
After 2 weeks of rest from project, we are resuming it back.Here comes the burden but i guess i have learnt my lesson in G301 which is NO PROCRASTINATION!!!
I saw the agenda of the meeting for this coming friday and its
1. Schedule of laboratory sessions
2. Objectives for G302
3. List of materials that to be purchased
4. Post mortem discussion of G301, what can we improve on, what were some of the feedbacks from the examiners?
5. AOB

No. 4, i so don't wish to hear anything about it. Anyway its like FRIDAY!! schools are celebrating the national day and i have to stay back for meeting!!! ARGH!!!!*SCREAM*

then here come the final test before we wrap up for the first semester...i think 3 of the days fall on the fasting month*another scream*
I think i am going to be pretty tired during the fasting month since i need to go back to school during the holidays which is on the fasting month and juggling with babysitting...
it's not the first time and i am sure enough that i can endure it all the way to the end.

i amd just hoping this fastng month i can fast "fully" and dapa banyak pahala..Insyallah! = )

ouh one of the weekends i was at Yew tee and i saw this man holding a blind woman hands and guide her to her destination..
Just by looking at them, i thought to myself: maybe i should do more good deeds

Lets forget all the whining and just think ahead...
this week i am looking forward for weekends, i think i need to slap myself to wake up my idea cos its not even wednesday. I am thinking way too far.
One by one things just come popping by along the way and i am not complaining because i am sure everything will fine if you handle it well...
alright good night = )

i should be sleeping now cos i am schooling tmrw..
anyway, a burden have been shove away from my shoulder and i am so thankful for it.
nothing much happen just that i am happy with my family as always...

On another note...
i think something is fishy but whatever it is i don't care...
it have been right infront of my eyes but i m just not looking at it.
all the best!
i think i m feeling irritated because of you...
so long~

i was having this thoughts by myself...
i shall not regret for everything i did but instead be thankful for it because of i am the product of my choices.
i shall not envy people for what they have and i don't...
i feel the competitiveness but somehow i know they don't have something that i have...
i like to think this way, it gives me a good feeling bout it...

i guess those words were really hurtful....

god knows how angry i am with my school...
its not the holiday but its the hostility from the public and the fears that students are having..
u care??caring is not enough something needs to be done! number are increasing EACH DAY!
your decision affects the student pretty much emotionally,physically and mentally.
i don't mean to say this but i think when H1N1 cases are getting severe where death and life matters, then school will shut it down...

who are the one who started the thermal scanning?the temperature check?gearing up for the H1N1 when first case started to arise?it even came up in newspaper??
whatever it is...PLEASE DO SOMETHING!!!
its the biggest cluster in singapore that gave rise to the number of cases..


whatever it is!!! deuce to this crap n move on....

and after 3 years then i sat down and ate lunch with shahril!!!
imagine, same school and have been friends since secondary school....
LOL!
whatever it is, i like the new attitude of him...very chirpy,joker and more open minded but still the same spirit...
i was in his class for like half an hour waiting them to finish doing their work!!!
it was a fine day!!!

do you know how it feels to cry during a meal??
the last meal together with your close and loved ones??
a parting meal..

imagine, you are hungry and eating something but the word LAST seems to be choking your throat..
tears start to flow down your cheeks.
everyone starts crying,sitting down and lose their appetite.
the more you try to avoid, the more choking you feel...
you can't move backward but just keep moving forward

today i didn't manage to finish my report but i m sure i will tomorrow!
half here and there..lets complete it tomorrow!!
i am so excited got to catch up with old friends, although it was a short time i know him but there were still memories...hmm...it was like when i was 9 years old~
so its like 11 years ago.
talk bout all those memories hoping that everything was the same but ya know changes come with time...
he really made a bad impression to me cos while we were talking, he was using vulgarities and some inappropriate words for a remark in his sentences.

As i grew up, i don't think its a good thing...
maybe some said it out of habit and fun but since i enter poly, people use less vulgarities and speak with manners.
No offence, but personally i find it unpleasant.
It is just me.
Furthermore, since the presence of kids at my home, i don't use it at all because kids will follow.
I may use it out of anger but i do apologize for it.
is it really necessary?whatever it is, i 'll make myself understand bout it!

ok...gotta make THIS entry a fast one....
holiday have started and now its thursday...time really flies!
went to school yesterday to do FYP report & barely finish half of it.
I woke up this morning and still progressing!
GRR~
i have rest for an hour and its time to resume back to my report...
i have to hand it to my advisor tmrw and will be having"recap lesson" too for the secondary school science camp next week

he reminds me of someone whom i know....

Okay, gotta make this a quick entry.
People around me are all having emotional syndrome thingy.
I am fine with it because its part of growing but i don't think i have it.
I've never get depressed because i always go with the flow and never really sit down and think bout it.
I don't know whether its a good thing or a bad thing??
nvmd, genomic class was fun today...class was full of laughter including our facilitator,furthermore, its the last day before 2 weeks vacation....
i m going for a picnic...YAY!!

i tell you!!
i am mad for few several reason.
1. I emailed the ORG for LOA(leave of absent) so i could get to take supplementary UT as i skip the first UT due to my serious case of eye infection. The ORG didn't reply my email till my advisor email them and CC the email to me!!!

2. Secondly, the school email me to pay my school fees of $88.25 which is not included in the financial assistance subsidy provided by MENDAKI thus i have to pay it myself and i don't have the money with me. I've decided to pay through PSEA and since i have to pay by today, they email me yesterday. They gave me an online form and asked me to fill it up and go down to school to submit it...with the EYE INFECTION I AM HAVING RIGHT NOW!!!

3. I've lost my Antibiotic eye drop!! my eye is itching and desperately in need of it.. The other medicine i have is just mean for dry eye. My eye that is infected with PINK bacteria needs antibiotic to fight off with the bacteria.


school is making me mad because of the lack of response and ineffectiveness..
i'll bet warning letter from the school have arrive at my mailbox.
Got MC from the hospital but its not a use to school...Stupid system..
i am frustrated too because i am doing this myself that i forget to apply my medicine....
shouldn't i be resting!
URGH~~~

whats up???
NOT GOOD to start with...
eye infection got worse on Saturday night,went to the doctor and was referred to the ANE because the doctor told me that my epithelial on the eye is torn.
GOD knows how pain was it...it was dry,i kept tearing ,it swells and i can't open my right eye.
My parents drove me to Alexandra ANE, it wasn't busy as KKH ANE...
All i could see was people vomiting on the wheelchair, elder people get push in...What was running through my head while waiting for my turn is I AM going to be like that when i get old....
it was my turn...
they checked my blood pressure then wait for another medical officer to check thoroughly on my condition. the other side of the room was one medical officer talking to a woman regarding one of her parents(not too sure father or mother) bout white cells spreading on the body...
i've never like hospital....

anyway back to my eye, they checked with "EYE microscope" and the medical officer told me that i could have corneal abrasion and i misheard "something operation" it just send chill down my spine....
it was ok, took my medicine and went back home....
they asked me to come back to check my eye again afraid that if anything happen, i could lost my vision...

thanks everyone for the concern and help me around when i m in the need...
ALSO specially for my clan(u guys know who you are) thanks for visiting and Ain its okay u can't visit me...i appreciate the concern from you guys...

i am just hoping that everything is okay and i can go back school...


this is what i need to apply and eat each day...
i can't watch tv and my eyes are sensitive to the light!
This episode of sick on the eye made me learned to take care of my vision and all my five senses...
cherish everything around me...
losing something that you thought you are going to have forever is something scary!!

The plan for today was to went back home after school....
so a random chat with the usual friends became a mass meet up after school.
It was an impromptu meeting and nothing been plan,just going with the flow.
Had our dinner, went to library and flipping through magazine while chatting...went to MacDonald for ice cream and chat,play games,planning for certain things....
we had fun just by doing those things and with the company of each others..
even though i was having EYE INFECTION FOR A WEEK!!! it didn't stop me from having a day out with them.....





i m off to sleep = )

something that makes me smile....
i hope miracle happens the moment i woke up tmrw = )

i didn't went to school today because my eyes is very very red...
so i decided to went to doctor for reassurance of my eye infection.
Went to the polyclinic alone and waited for 2 hours...MY GOODNESS!!
first you took the registration number followed by waiting to see doctor...
the registration was okay but when it comes to see the doctor, i nearly wanna pee but i m afraid i would miss my queue number so i wait till after seeing the doctor to go to the ladies....
the doctor gave me 2 days MC!
the MC is no use for my school but took it anyway...
i have some bacteria infecting my eyes, its call conjunctivitis.
she gave me an antibiotic eye drop but i think my eyes are swollen but its getting better...
i m going to school tmrw at last!!!!
its not infectious so its oook!!!yippeee~

thanks for the concern guys..pretty much appreciate it SATISH!!lol

genggam bara api biar sampai jadi arang!

i found another peribahasa which is funny but its true!
"guru kencing berdiri, murid kencing berlari"
now,peribahasa reminds me of shahril....
i saw shahril the other day and we chat while we were on our way to MRT station.
somehow or sometimes i like to use peribahasa when i describe certain things and....
shahril: "HEY Chill ar!! bebual tk payah nk pakai peribahasa2 ni semua"
hah...his words have never fail to amuse me.
LOL



today highlight
family day cum birthday cum mothers day was really fun = )
we had games for married couple,knowing everything bout them,kids relay and family treasure hunts competing against other family...cool huh!!!
i love the fun that we had among cousins even with the generations gap!
i will never trade anything for the love of my family & cousin
so more family day pls!!!

thanks for the concern = )
my right eyes is tearing too much because of the medicine
there will be family gathering tmrw at sakura!!! wooo~
(Harap2, mataku yang bengkak ni dah baik!)
i'll bet there will be games just like the previous family gathering.
okay gotta go~
i need some sleep for my swollen eyes.....blub blub blub LOL!(okay,aku giler!!)

unfortunately today, i have an eye infection!!
yesterday, i was getting ready for today module which was genomic and slept late just to read up and be prepared till late night.
This morning i woke up, my right eye swells and it was red....
Frankly speaking, if it was not that serious, i really wanted to go to school and i woke up just in time.
i asked my mum whether should i go to school and she scolds me because i am still stubborn enough to go to school with the condition i am in.
what to do...i don't like to miss any lesson and its precious..


i felt really hardworking today...
i do the house chores, clean up my room and help my mum out...



anyway, i feel so tired but somehow i seems to be angry at someone and i am not sure why??
whatever it is, just don't come back and ask for help when you need one cos i m never gonna help..

i am praying hard that my eye WILL be alright by tomorrow morning.
Gosh! like what Ahmad said, I M SMART!!
ha..thanks eh!!
i feel so itchy and swollen on my right eye..

today i felt really demoralizing...
it was industrial and food biotechnology, none of my team members showed up until 10 plus, FINALLY!!! one of them came, i was grateful enough....BUT she is in year 2 and thus i am the only year 3 in the team...you get what i mean??but i don't blame her.
so i have myself and her to work on the problem statement, i have to thank JL for telling me the important points today.
Furthermore,today problem was more to the RDNA stuff which I've blurred it after a year of studying it. well, i did what i can and try my best...
i learned alot of things today...
i survive for the day!!!



lately, I've been seeing a lot of people crying right in front of my eyes...
i don't know why but i got goosebumps seeing it.

Everyday we live by memories
some memories,the ones you want to find,
can be found if you try hard enough and there are those memories how hard we try to erase,they won't go away

the pain of memories you got from the person that is close to you will not be erase for a long time.
But, even the painful memories which you thought can never be erased can be cured by human

i am updating because i am doing nothing and have the urge to write my thoughts i had for the past few days...

i watched this video of this group of blind kids went on a show and they sang with their beautiful voices..
just by hearing the voices and look at them, you can't stop thinking how fortunate you are to have all 5 senses and being ordinary. Those thoughts will just make your heart-wrench and tears will naturally flow..
One of the audiences, cried...he turned away from the crowd just to wipe his tears...
surprisingly, i didn't cry..
i am the kind of person who is easily touched by all this human stories but i guess crying won't gain anything...Empathy is what they need!

Anyway influenza A is striking the world and i've just realise more people are getting sick...
i am not sure but is it bcos of mind over matter??you know those paranoid idiots...its a normal flu though..
whatever it is, get well people...


LISTEN....
you're not getting it friend
why do you keep coming back again and again
just let it end shawty
you ain't thinking well
if this the game of love
we're in different cells
ain't looking at you
my eyes have shifted
you got a broken heart
i ain't the guy to fix it
story between me and you?
ITS THE END!!

look at the time..i gotta go its 12AM!
PEACE!

lets make it short...
idiots are tagging all those stupid advertisement on my tagboard and i m gonna remove it....
i want to sleep *yawn* and i think today class is way better than any other class i had!!

the start of year 3....senior year...
Yesterday, new semester starts and i wasn't feeling any better...
YES!!! during the weekends i got diarrhea and on monday morning i woke up to vomit and go to school..
I DRAG myself to school with the energy i had...
i had no appetite to eat for the past few days.
even in school, i didn't eat for any of the breaks that i have and after school, i had FYP...
i stuff myself with sweets.
That's how the first day of school just went by...
forgetting one of my team mates name...
gosh!!! i just hope everything will be fine for today = )

its like being in the earth and the sky...
i think i know where i stand and sadly, its the same old thing..
the laughter was just like a tears,my heart crying out....
i thought something change but there's nothing.
if i stay, what do i get in return??
the words were very hurtful..trying to withstand it but i just can't help it...
am i being petty or its just that i wasn't the fool that i used to be...
Surrounding change and so are everything but when i wanted to go back, the feeling was the very old one....excruciating pain within me that i bottled up....
only a fool will stay to a place for the sake of the name.

i've given up to the ones who refuse to understand me and people who refuse to open themselves up for me to understand.
ignorant is the best medicine...
i don't wish to make it worst like i used too....
i will end this like a young adult does...



make yourself worthless like no one cares!!!
i'll make you swallow all those words